Ari has always been a problematic fave of mine too but her recent single and some of the tour videos that have come to light today, have made me realize she's squandering her talent on being as skinny as possible. I feel so bad for her when I see her now, she's struggling to keep her breath in the concert videos, she can barely do the very minimal choreo as it is, and her singing is a pale imitation of how it used to be. Looking back at the sweetener tour, it's like she's a shell of who she used to be. She has almost no charisma or stage presence either, it looks like she's either constantly focused on body checking or just trying to get through the moment. She's not enjoying performing at all.
Like she just doesn't have any energy because of such a low caloric intake. This is honestly motivation for me to not be so invested in being thin because clearly you really can't be yourself when you're so prioritized on having the "perfect body". I really hope she's not at risk for permanent damage but who knows at this point. This new trend of shrinking every female celebrity to the detriment of their health is really fucking sad.
thank you for saying this. after i answered that ask, i also encountered the viral clips going around of her on tour and i felt sick. i remember struggling with anorexia so badly that i literally fainted in public, that i could barely think, but i never got anywhere near that thin. she is looking like karen carpenter almost, and i'd say she's maybe 80 pounds.
i don't really blame the people around her for not being able to force her to get help; institutionalizing a powerful person against their will is almost impossible. especially because it seems all of her "friends" are cronies on her payroll. as for her boyfriend and her family, they're the only ones who might have some power over her, but she firmly believes she is healthy and thriving. this is what anorexia does to your brain. she loves to hear people saying she looks sick, she looks like she weighs as much as a child, she looks like she can barely move ... it's one of the scariest mental illnesses because it makes you insensible to all criticism. every bit of worry and mockery is reinterpreted as praise or jealousy. anorexics don't want to be thin to look sexy, they want to be thin to show everyone how much better they are, how much more in control. that they've transcended the need for food.
i recommend that everyone read holy feast, holy famine if you haven't already. i read it in grad school and it helped me understand the relationship between the way i viewed hunger and the way i viewed my own relationship to my mental health and history of survivorship (and, frankly, wallowing in being a victim). it's about feeling like a martyr. it's like fiona apple sang, "hunger hurts, but starving works." if you have an emptiness inside you, if you hate yourself, starvation is appealing. it makes you feel everything so much less, physically. it makes people worry about you. it makes predatory men more attracted to you, because they can tell you're sick. it's an intoxicating combination for a woman with a certain kind of sadness.
i am so glad i met my wife and went into treatment and my body healed. if i continued down that path, i wouldn't be pregnant today. i might not even be alive. i wanted to not be alive, at that time. maybe ari feels the same way. i pray she gets the help she needs.
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