do you feel love

at least im a faggot

people without any whimsy scare me. why are you like that. where are your trinkets.

i would fuck him [remembers im talking about a real person] um [remembers its normal to be attracted to people] i would fuck him

universe really said you will be someone who loves sweet foods/desserts/etc and will love baking, especially for other people BUT ☝️you will be a neurotic perfectionist and also have disordered eating

developing the hots for ryan gosling because of project hail mary is so fucking embarrassing I swear to god. that is a conventionally attractive man. a noted hollywood heartthrob. he's even blond, are you kidding me? did he win people magazine's sexiest man alive? I don't know. I'm not going to check but it wouldn't surprise me at this point. it's such a mainstream taste. such a clichéd celebrity crush. like oh I fancy ryan gosling and my favourite drink is coca-cola and my favourite snack is ready salted crisps. jesus christ. 'b-b-but i only like him when he's in a science pun tshirt and playing a dorky-awkward loner type!' doesn't matter. he's still ryan 'ken from barbie' gosling. it's so trite. I feel like the weird nerd girl in a teen coming-of-age romcom falling for the super popular jock. don't I know that I have a reputation to uphold here? cringe.

got a crick in my neck and a frog in my throat and a chip on my shoulder and a stick up my ass and now you're gonna stand there puttin words in my mouth? haven't I been through enough?

*turns my attention inwards* mmmmm. no *turns my attention back outwards* oh god

but i stay silly! *←said in the most world-weary voice you ever did hear*

the thing about getting out of the torment nexus is that you do start thinking "man if you ignore the torment i used to have a lot of fun in the torment nexus"

i havent done anything or been anyone ever

there is something within me that i would like removed