black hearted love

beton.hofi is doing side quests

taking photos of birds is hard

i'll shut up about my relationship. one day. <3

also crazy new experience that. idk what's the right word for it but i've always been like. i need clear boundaries about what is mine and i need my things to be near me and if i lend something to someone i need to write it down etc. and i also usually don't like using other people's stuff, only if we're very close or if i really need it. i guess it's mostly an ocd/feeling in control of my life thing. i never liked buying something together with anyone cause in my head something is either mine only or it's not mine at all. lol. anyway in this relationship i truly don't give a fuck about any of that and somehow it feels like whatever mine is is his and vice versa and it's crazy. sometimes it feels like we're one person. is that normal. is that just how it is being in love.

i know it's just the have-only-been-dating-for-4-months of it all speaking in me but i feel so secure and sure in this relationship that most of the time i don't think about being alone again bc we break up i think about how maybe he will die before i do