YOU BLED THAT BACK INTO ME

maybe the problem isn't other people and i should work on my paranoia...... no that don't even sound right.

people need to stop talking about how they lost their sex drive with their partner or whatever tf because i get paranoid it's gonna happen to me tomorrow, whole time me n my girl are in our third year of acting like we're in the honeymoon phase.

was taking a shower and i had a blood clot so huge i wondered if i wasn't pregnant.

i really distrust one of my cousins' husband because one day we were playing the imposter game and the word was Love and her husband was the imposter and idk what the fuck word he had but on his turn he said my cousin's ex boyfriend who passed away's name and i heard the breath she let out and she didn't ask him what tf he meant but what ELSE could he have possibly meant and it just felt like such a subtle moment of emotional abuse (because no one else in the group knew the guy's name) and i really distrust him since then.

i am an ex gcestie in the sense that i'm still a gcestie but 1. i'm currently bored with it and think noel should do another 15 years of estrangement & 2. hate y'all.