cravingberries

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“You showed.”

“Mercedes said you wanted me to meet you here after school. Are we really going to talk about it this time or are you going to get another imaginary text from your mom saying you have to go home?”

“That was…just whatever. Look, I wasn’t ready to talk about it yet. But I am now, and there’s something I need to get off my chest. I can’t keep holding it in, so hear me out.” Quinn took Rachel’s silence as a green light. “I’m not… I don’t… Girls. I don’t like girls. That kiss… I don’t even know what that was. It wasn’t me. I wasn’t being myself, I guess. I don’t really know why it happened. It just…”

“Did?”

“Yes,” she nodded affirmatively. “It was an accident. I didn’t mean to kiss you in the first place! “

“Quinn, I don’t recall you tripping and having my lips break your fall. Kisses might be mistakes but they are rarely accidents.”

“Well it was, okay? I didn’t mean to. I shouldn’t have… It was wrong! It shouldn’t have happened.”

Rachel took a step closer, drastically narrowing the space between them.

“You don’t regret kissing me,” the brunette suspected knowingly. “I can see it in your eyes.”

The blonde let out a shaky, nervous breath, and Rachel knew she was right.

2) pure desperation

good choice ryan. since when did you do things RIGHT?

Finn Hudson, love of Rachel’s life, has told her she looked like a sad clown hooker when she dressed up for him, said he has to work hard to pretend to be listening to her, told her that she talks too much, and talks about herself too much, laughed when Santana insulted her, said her boobs aren’t that great, told her she should ‘work on that’ when Rachel said people don’t really like her, called her a 'controllist,’ told her she was being selfish for wanting to perform instead of saving his ego, told her she was selfish for disregarding his dreams in favor of her own, and has generally made her so insecure about 'the parts of her that she doesn’t like,’ that she’s changed to please him (and everyone else.)

Quinn, who had admittedly contributed to Rachel’s self-esteem issues in the past, spent half of their junior year and the entirety of their senior year telling Rachel that she doesn’t belong in Lima, that she doesn’t have to be afraid of the future, that she has an amazing life ahead of her, that she’s a shining star, that Quinn admires her ambition. 

Quinn admires her ambition.

Quinn admires the parts of Rachel that Finn doesn’t like.

The parts of Rachel that Rachel doesn’t always like.

Quinn has become the person who likes Rachel for everything that she is.