Calling all Shadowhunters creators--it's time to dust off your notebooks, sketchbooks, laptops, drawing tablets, and other creative instruments.
Welcome to By the Angel Bingo!
What is By the Angel Bingo? By the Angel Bingo is a Shadowhunters-themed event where you request a grid of prompts in the layout of a bingo board. The goal is to fill the prompts until you get a traditional bingo (filling 3 or 5 in a row, column, or diagonally) or until you blackout your entire board!Ā
Do I have to be a part of the Malec Discord Server to sign up? No, being a part of the Malec Discord Server Community is not required to be a part of this event, but it is highly encouraged if youāre looking for friends to bounce ideas off of, if you need help finding a beta reader, or if youāre just looking for Shadow Fam to hang out with.Ā
What is the schedule?
Sign-ups open: February 1st
Sign-ups close: February 29th
Last day to request prompt changes: March 31st
Masterpost due by: September 30th
Have more questions? Join the Malec Discord Server or keep reading under the cut for official rules, minimum requirements, and other FAQs!
How will it work? On Thursday, February 1st, sign-ups will open for a bingo card. In your sign-up, you will be asked a few questions including what size bingo card youād like (3x3 or 5x5). You will then receive a bingo card from one of the Mods to your preferred method of contact within 3-5 days. Sign-ups will remain open until Thursday, February 29th.Ā From there, youāll have until Monday, September 30, to complete what you can on your bingo card!Ā
What if I donāt like my prompts? You may request 3 (for 3x3 cards) or 5 (for 5x5 cards) replacement prompts at one time. If you need more than 3-5 prompts replaced, you will be sent an entirely new card. This can only happen once. If you receive a new card, you can request 3-5 replacement prompts again for the last time. You can request changes to your board until March 31st, a month after sign-ups close.Ā
Can I sign up if Iām under 18? Yes! Anyone is able to receive a bingo card, but you must be over the age of 18 to request NSFW prompts or submit NSFW fills. You also must be over the age of 16 to join the Malec Server.Ā
Are there any content restrictions? This bingo is open to all creations; fic, art, gifs, videos, moodboards, playlists, cosplay, physical art, etc. All bingo fills must be Shadowhunters-related. Any ships/characters/ratings are permitted as long as they are properly tagged. RPF is not allowed for this event.Ā
Am I required to get a bingo or blackout my card? Not at all! You can fill as little or as many prompts as you have the time/energy to complete. This is low to no stress. Low risk, high reward. HAVE FUN.Ā
Can I combine prompts? Each prompt needs to be its own fill, but you can post a multi-chapter fic or art series with one prompt per chapter/piece.Ā
What if I black out my entire card before the final posting date? Congrats! You did it! You can either be done OR ask for a second bingo card.Ā
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Fic: 500 words
Digital/physical art: 1 piece
Photomanipulation: 1 piece
Gifsets: 2 gifs
Moodboards: 4 images
Video: 30 seconds
Playlists: 10 songsĀ
Podfic: 500 words (with authorās permission)
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You must be over 18 to request NSFW prompts and submit NSFW fills. You have to be over 16 to join the Malec Server.Ā
Any Shadowhunters-related ships/characters/ratings are permitted as long as they are tagged appropriately.Ā
You may create works based off of the show, books, or movies, but no RPF is allowed.Ā
You may request a 3x3 card (8 prompts) or a 5x5 card (24 prompts).Ā
You may request 3 (for 3x3) or 5 (for 5x5) replacement prompts at one time.Ā
If you need more than 3-5 prompts replaced, you will be sent an entirely new card.
This can only happen once. If you receive a new card, you can request 3-5 replacement prompts again for the last time.Ā
You can request changes to your board until March 31st, a month after sign-ups close.Ā
Each card has one āFREE SPACEā to be used as a wildcard where you can submit any creation that follows the rules of the event.
Each prompt needs to be its own completed fill, but you can post a multi-chapter fic or art series with one prompt per chapter/piece.
Each fill must be NEW during the bingo posting period. No past creations may be used as a fill.
Fills can be combined with other events (i.e. Femslash February, Any Fandom Bingo, Trope-specific bingos, etc.) only if the other event allows it and you meet the minimum requirements for both events.
Prompts can be interpreted as literally or figuratively as you like (I.e. A/B/O meaning a frat house, or falling to your knees in the sense of lust, despair, clumsiness, etc.) If you think it fits, it probably fits.Ā
All bingo fills must be added to the AO3 collection. If posted on Tumblr/Twitter, the Malec Discord Server must be tagged (@malecdiscordserver/@MalecServer).
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I've seen a steep rise in the phenomenon of AO3 readers leaving comments that, frankly, read as demanding and entitled and leave authors with no desire to write more fic, if that's the reception they're going to get.
To paraphrase Hanlon's Razor, I try never to attribute to malice that which can be adequately explained by incompetency, and therefore assume that these commenters are coming from a genuine place of enjoyment which they simply don't know how to communicate well.
Consequently, I intend to dissect an example of such a comment, and then provide an example formula of what to say instead.
[Image ID: A screenshot of an AO3 comment. The comment text reads: "Oh my God finally please post as soon as possible I can't wait to see Bruce reaction [four pink heart emoji] please please please update as soon as possible [four pleading face emoji] /end screenshot ID]
So what's wrong with this comment? The commenter said "please," after all... Three times, even! Surely that must be polite enough!
Let's dig in:
"Oh my God finally" - the use of the word "finally" carries the implication that the commenter has been waiting a long time for an update, and they feel entitled to this, and all subsequent updates. Even if a fic hasn't been updated for years, authors don't owe you updates. Period.
"please post as soon as possible... please please please update as soon as possible" - as previously established, the author doesn't owe you an update. This comment was posted 10 hours after the previous update - not even a single day had gone by! Authors are people, with jobs and lives and schedules of their own. Some authors have regularly scheduled updates, and keep readers apprised of such via author's notes or posts on their blogs, and some post updates when they can, as the inspiration strikes and schedules allow. In all cases, updating is a choice an author makes, not something they owe you by default, and certainly not a trick to be performed on command.
Everything in the comment is about the commenter - "I can't wait to see Bruce reaction" is the only mention of any of the chapter's contents. At no point in this comment did the commenter express gratitude to the author for posting the chapter, respect for their time, skill, energy, creativity, effort, etc., or even mention what they liked about it. Instead, the only thing the commenter talked about is what they want to see in future chapters, which yet again carries that same sense of entitlement of "this is the story I want to see, write it for me!"
So how do we do better?
Express gratitude to authors and artists for their work. Something as simple as "Thank you for this latest chapter!" goes a long way to making an author feel appreciated. Note that I use the word "chapter" and not "update" - using the word "chapter" shows that the reader understands that this is a labour of love, and the author is making a choice to share it voluntarily. Conversely, using the word "update" gives the sense that this is Content Creationā¢ļø, something the author is doing as A Task, a chore, or a job, something that they implicitly Owe Someone.
Mention what you liked, in detail if you can, or more generally if you can't. It can be as simple as "I really liked this chapter!" or as detailed as "I really liked when [character] did [thing], it felt so in-character, as if it was a deleted scene from the original [movie/book/etc.]." The important part is showing the author that their work is appreciated, that people are reading it and resonating with it. The body of the comment should be centered around the author, not the commenter.
Express your excitement for future chapters/artworks/etc. As mentioned previously, avoid words that make it sound like you feel the author owes readers more writing, and try to stick more to expressing your feelings of excitement. If you want to add speculation of what might come next, be careful not to come off as demanding that the author write it Exactly That Way - they are the author, not you, and if you want the fic to go in a specific direction, there's nothing stopping you from writing your own fic!
Avoid emoji-only comments. These make many authors feel like you're only commenting out of a sense of obligation, like "if there's enough comments we can get a new update." You can use emoji in comments, but try to also include some verbal expression of gratitude, and maybe even details of what you liked.
Here's a possible formula for how to write a non-demanding comment that doesn't come off as entitled, and some examples:
[Expression of gratitude to the author] + [Details of the story which you enjoyed] + [Expression of anticipation for where the story is going]
Your comment could be simple: "Thank you! I liked this chapter a lot. I'm excited to keep readingā”"
Or more detailed: "Thank you for sharing this newest chapter! I really liked the way you show Alice going through the stages of grief, it felt really genuine and real and heartbreaking. I can't wait to see what happens with Alice, Bob and Carol after this!"
The important part is that you arenāt making the author feel like you think they owe you something, because that's a surefire way to make them stop writing.
If you've read all the way here, thank you for your patience and willingness to listen, and I hope we can all help make AO3 comments a better experience for authors and readers alike!ā”
Tagged by @junemermaid! ā¤ļø
Rules: Post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! Then tag as many people as you have WIPs.
I'm in the middle of posting two Shadowhunters fics and one RWRB fic at the moment so I'm gonna skip those. These are a few of the fics across a few fandoms that I actually have something to talk about beyond just āØvibes⨠I guess š
Legends Only (Shadowhunters)
Salt & Burn (Shadowhunters)
Paradise Lost (Shadowhunters)
Every Me & Every You (Shadowhunters)
a love like this (č²č±ę„¼; Mysterious Lotus Casebook)
who you are is someone who leaves (RWRB)
dirty deeds done dirt cheap (éę 令/ééē„åø; The Untamed/MDZS)
No pressure tagging: @rebelren, @sfjessii, @kasper-tag, @dani-dabbles, @sasamelons, @dragongirlg-fics, @crankyfossil and anyone else who wants to play!
Tagged by @la-muerta ā¤ļø [I have casually screenshotted your list so I can look out for these titles when they release]
Rules: Post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! Then tag as many people as you have WIPs.
I have...several Shadowhunter WIP's in development.
Here we go
In Many An Eye That Measures Me (Shadowhunters)
Grains of the Golden Sand (Shadowhunters)
My Words the Music of a Dream (Shadowhunters)
Chaos and Eternal Night (also Shadowhunters)
Untitled43 (Shadowhunters? I'm too scared to open this one)
I'll drag in @lazinesswrites for this one, and anyone else who wants to hop in!
the ābad guysā in hallmark movies end up always being the most respectful men ever.
because they will find out their girlfriend of 3 years (that they were about to propose to) went off to a random farm in minnesota, hours away from were the two of them built a life together, and she decided to just⦠stay there without even consulting him.
and then he decides to take a trip to make sure sheās okay, because this is generally alarming behavior, and then sees that she literally fell in love with her ex within one (1) week- and he wasnāt there, but you can TELL that theyāve made out a couple times.
and then she just strings him along for a few days, until fucking christmas eve, when she just breaks up with him and is like āi know we used to have the same values, but iāve never loved you. mark makes me happier than you ever did. and you ONLY care about work, whereas i like christmas and fun, like a Good Person.ā
and then, after finding out his entire relationship was a lie and he had his life turned upside down in a week and he got dumped on christmas, this guyās just like āok yeah that makes sense. i only wish you the best of happiness with mark. i hope you guys build a great life together in christmastreefarmville. thank you for everything.ā
An AU where two Hallmark Christmas Bad Guys are both getting flights back to New York after being dumped by their respective Smalltown Blonde Girlfriends, and they bond over their shared experiences and fall in love in the departures lounge
Probably he is still in shock. Right? He looks out of his taxi window (it's not technically a taxi, just some guy named Corey who offered him a ride to the airport, because Uber doesn't operate in fucking Tinyville, Bumfuck Middle-Of-Nowhere, Utah) and tracks water droplets racing each other down the glass, because of course it's raining, and his bad knee is killing him.Ā
Levi sniffs and rubs at his eyes and then pulls out his phone and books a ticket back to New York, wincing as four hundred and twenty-six dollars are deducted from his bank account.Ā
And, like, he should definitely be more upset.
He just got broken up with. He was engaged, for God's sake. A four-year relationship⦠over. Just like that.Ā
Corey says, "Ten minutes to the station."Ā
Probably he'll be more upset once he's home. When he starts packing up Anika's stuff into boxes so she can come collect them after New Year's. He'll have to do all that processing and he'll put away all the pictures that are up and probably he'll remember all the good times they had together and flashes of their relationship will play out in slow motion in his mind. Like a movie montage.
Levi catches his reflection in the passenger side window and starts, pulling his thumb out of his mouth. He hadn't even noticed he'd started biting the nail.
Corey drops him off at the train station and he books a ticket to Salt Lake City and Levi wants to tip him for the ride but when he turns back the car's gone, and it's started snowing again.
He re-wraps his scarf so it covers his ears and turns back. He has to jogāow ow owāto catch his train.
Once arrived at the airport, Levi's gotten over being baffled and has started being mildly pissed.Ā
You're obsessed with work, Anika told him. You barely make time for us anymore. Yeah, he'd had to pull some long hours for the last few months, but for good reasonāhe'd been working towards a huge promotion and a raise and he thought she'd be happy for him.
He'd gotten the promotion, by the way. Editor in chief. He'd tried calling her first, a whole bunch of times, and then she hadn't picked up, so he'd decided Well, fuck it, and flew out to Doodootown, Utah to break the news himself.
He thought it would be nice. Spend the few remaining days before Christmas with Anika and her family in their hometown, then flying back home for Christmas and New Year's and starting 2023 off with renewed vigour and excitement.Ā
Then, of course, Anika told him that she wouldn't be flying back with him for Christmas. Or at all.Ā
Which, well. Okay.Ā
She didn't even congratulate him.
He checks in, and the lady at the desk asks him whether he wants to drop off his carry-on luggage for free, since the plane is very full, and Levi shrugs and says okay and watches his suitcase disappear behind black rubber flaps.
His flight leaves in four hours.Ā
Levi decides to pay the extra fee so he can stay in the fancy lounge, because he thinks he probably deserves that at this point. It's quiet here, though, so he orders a tea and claims a table over by the window, stretching out his right leg with a contented sigh.Ā
There's an empty table in front of him, but at the next one sits a man who looks so miserable it's impressive.
The man is slouched in his chair, dark hair mussed and suit a little ruffled. The cuffs of his slacks are damp, and so are his knees. He's leaning his head against the window, eyes closed, holding a bloody tissue to his nose. A purple bruise is starting to form on his cheekbone.
Levi stares.
Damn. And he thought he was having a rough day.Ā
Should he say something? Probably not, right. Like, that would be weird, right?Ā
Then he notices the small, black velvet ring box the man is fiddling with and it's like all the air's punched right out of his lungs.
Damn.Ā
Levi looks down and takes a sip of his tea, then hisses and curses under his breath because it's still way too hot and he's an idiot.Ā
When he looks up again, the man is eyeing him with mild amusement.
And there are a hundred thousand ways that Levi could have handled the situation, but before he can think about ways to not embarrass himself further he hears himself say, "Ouch. Haha."
Somebody please shoot him.Ā
The man raises an eyebrow. Levi gives an awkward cough, then takes another sip of tea and somehow feels betrayed when it burns his tongue again.
"Maybe you should give it a second," the man says.Ā
"Maybe," Levi says, "I should." His ears are burning.Ā
It's Beginning to Look a Lot Like Christmas plays over the speakers.Ā
Levi desperately wants to ask about the ring box. And the bloody nose. And whether there's a correlation. But then again it is so definitely not his business, so he just stares down at his tea and watches steam rise.Ā
There's a sharp sigh from across the table. "She said no."Ā
Levi's head snaps up, ready to defend himself, because it's not like he actually asked, but then the guy looks so tired and bitter that he immediately deflates and feels both like an asshole and an idiot.
"I'm sorry," he offers, which still feels lame but better than whatever he had going on before.
The guy gives a wry smile. "Gonna, you know. Return this. She, uh, said no to the whole relationship. So."
Ah.Ā
"I'm sorry," he says, running a hand over his face, "I don't mean to dump all this on you."
"Oh, no, it's okay," Levi says quickly, and then before he can think about it too much, he adds, "I get it."
The other guy looks immediately doubtful.Ā
Levi bites the inside of his cheek. "Four years," he says with a shrug. "Engaged and everything." He gives a thumbs down and blows a raspberry.Ā
"Aw, shit, dude," he says, sitting up straight. He removes the tissue from his face, and seeing as he's no longer bleeding, stuffs it in his pocket. "That sucks."
Levi shrugs again, suddenly weirdly self-conscious. He traces the rim of his teacup with a finger. "Yeah, well. I didn't get beat up about it." There's a moment of silence, then he sneaks another glance. "Levi, by the way."
A corner of the guy's mouth twitches. "Xavier Ortega."Ā
Again, Xavier almost smiles. Levi thinksāLevi thinks he'd like to see Xavier smile. Properly.Ā
And then he thinks, What.Ā
No, he's justāXavier just looks like he could do with a cheer-up. That's it. And, well, so could he, really. They're both in similar boats. Although it looks like Xavier got the shorter end of the straw here, Levi thinks, considering his ruined suit and, you know, face. Still a nice face, though. Symmetrical. Strong cheekbones. Dark eyebrows over dark eyes and a straight nose andāwhatever.Ā
Whatever.
He just got broken up with.Ā
God, why's he trying to justify this to himself? Why is he feeling weird about this? He's not even gay. And even if heāeven if he was, it's not gay to acknowledge that a guy is good-looking.Ā
But, like, it's fine. He's notāwhatever.
Xavier has a split lip, he notices now that the tissue's not hiding half his face. "Got you good, huh?"Ā
Xavier rolls his eyes. He looks away for a moment, hesitating, then stands up and pulls the chair from the table between them, spinning it around and flopping back down at Levi's table.Ā
Levi thinks he must look quite surprised, because Xavier says, "I mean, this is easier for conversation purposes. Unless you're fine with the yelling across tables situationā"
"No, no," Levi protests. "No, you're right, this isāeasier." He clears his throat and says, "So, what was her name?" before mentally kicking himself, but Xavier just looks at him weird.
"Well, her name is Chloe. We just broke up, she didn't die."
Levi nods, puckering his lips. Right, yeah. Yes. "Is she⦠nice?"
"Well, she cheated on me."
"Ha," Levi says with no humour. "Samesies."
Xavier lets out a dry chuckle at this, then rubs at his eyes. "Wow. Happy Christmas to us, right?"Ā
Levi raises his teacup and gives a ghost toast. "Merry Christmas to us." He downs his tea, which is at a palatable temperature now, then says, "Do you want a drink?"Ā
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So Chloe and Xavier had been together for almost five years. The whole story is⦠disturbingly similar to Levi's whole deal, actually. Chloe decides, two weeks before Christmas, to take a trip back to her hometown, gets pissed when Xavier can't just take ten days off work to come with her, goes anyway on her sister's advice, meets up with her childhood nemesis who turns out not to be so bad after all and also cleaned up unfair nice, and then when Xavier went after her because hey, she hadn't been answering his texts and he was planning to pop the question over the holidays, she decided to dump him.
"She looked me in the face," Xavier says, head in hands, "and told me she was happier there than she'd ever been with me." He looks up and runs his fingers through his hair. "And I mean, sure, we'd had our rough patches, but, you know. We were gonna work it out."
Levi hums. "Yeah, no. I get it."
"So I said, Are you fucking serious right now, and I guess I raised my voice a bit, and then Mr Goddamn Farm Guy comes storming out and squares up to me and I don't even know who this dude is, and I tell him to get out of my face, and he fucking decks me. Like, completely unprompted."
"Rough," Levi says solemnly.Ā
"Yeah," Xavier says, exasperated. "And he didn't even apologise."
Levi whistles low. It's quiet for a moment while they both nurse their drinks, then Xavier vaguely gestures at him and says, "So what's your Christmas Tragedy?"
Levi gives a lopsided grin. "Well. Anika goes home to Middle Of Nowhere, Utah, 'cause she said she wasn't feeling great. Wants me to go with her, I can't 'cause I'm pulling long hours for an upcoming promotion, she's pissed. When she gets back there she rekindles things with her exā"
"Augh," Xavier says. "Brutal."
"āand last I heard the plan was for them to start a combination bakery and tearoom together. So." Levi grits his teeth. "Hope that works out for them."
Xavier looks at him over his glass, then, after a moment of careful silence, says, "You're allowed to be mad at her, you know."
"Fuck her," Levi says immediately. "Like, seriously. Why even get engaged to me if she was so miserable? Just break up with me instead of, fuckin', cheating, and then acting like I'm insane for going to check on her after she just ignores all my calls and texts and goddamn emails. We were going to get married in February, for fuck's sake. Fuck her." He presses the palms of his hands against his eyes til he sees stars.Ā
There it is. The upset. Figures that it's the saying it out loud that really drives home how betrayed Levi feels. Especially when he's talking to someone whom he doesn't have to explain it to, because Xavier gets it. Xavier gets it better than anyone ever will, probably.Ā
It's not quite the movie montage Levi had been preparing for. Rather, what Levi remembers now are all the moments that Anika said things that cut, or did things that bruised. How she'd roll her eyes when Levi got so excited he got the wiggles. How she refused to entertain the idea of getting a dog, even after he begged. How she'd get annoyed with him when his knee acted up and told him to suck it up and stop being such a crybaby. How she'd give him the cold shoulder when she was upset with him and he couldn't read her mind about it and let it build until she exploded out of nowhere.Ā
Little things that didn't seem like such a big deal in the time, but that added up to something like a balm for the sharp sting of betrayal.
Because that's what it is, at its core. That's why Levi is angry.
More betrayal than heartbreak.
And even though it will hurt for a while still, there's something that tastes oddly like relief at the centre of his chest, cool and welcome like a breeze on a suffocating July afternoon.
Xavier stays silent. After a moment Levi blinks hard and opens his eyes and finds Xavier looking at him strangely.Ā
"Yeah," he says quietly. "Fuck 'em."Ā
Levi's stomach squeezes.
He glances wildly around, trying to find anything to look at that isn't Xavier's face, and settles for the screen hanging from the ceiling that displays flight information.Ā
"Oh, look at that," he says. "I should get to my gate."Ā
"Right," Xavier agrees quickly. "Yeah, of course, so should I." He picks up his leather briefcase. "Where are you going, by the way?"
Levi laughs. "How wild would it be if we were on the same flight, huh?" He stands up and winces, ignoring Xavier's questioning look. "New York City. The 9:15. You?"
They make their way over to gate B9 mostly in silence, a general air of What the fuck is happening hanging between them. Not quite uncomfortable, but definitely baffled.Ā
"So this is weird, right," Levi says, dropping into a boarding zone chair. "Like, really weird."
"Right," Xavier says softly. Then, eyes trained on the huge Christmas tree and determinedly not looking at Levi, he adds, "Cool, though."
Levi isāLevi is a little speechless. "Yeah." He feels kind of floaty. He can't stop looking at Xavier's ears, because the tips have gone red. "Yeah. Pretty cool."
God. Fuck.
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Their seats aren't next to each other, because that would have been crossing the line from freaky coincidence into absolutely fucking insane, but Levi pulls some strings and switches seats with the nice lady whoās next to Xavier, because itās an exit row seat with more leg room and he has a bad knee. He tries not to look too pleased with himself as he sits down.Ā
Xavier gives him a look. āSo do you actually have a bad knee, orā¦ā
Levi slaps a scandalised hand to his chest. āI canāt believe youād accuse me of such a thing. You think Iād lie about being disabled?āĀ
āI donāt know you that well.āĀ
āAnd here I thought we had something.ā Levi sighs. āI broke my kneecap when I was a teenager. Never healed right.āĀ
āAh. Sports? Donāt tell me you were a football kid.āĀ
Levi doesnāt know why he feels suddenly bashful. He always feels kind of stupid telling people how he got his injury; the reactions usually range somewhere between mild disapproval and straight up judgment. āUh, no. Parkour. Actually.āĀ
Xavierās eyebrows vanish into his hairline.Ā
After a moment of questioning silence, Levi shrugs. āI misjudged the distance between ledges. Fractured my kneecap. But I was stupid and an idiot, also, so I didnāt wait for it to fully heal before going back out, and now I am a human weather antennae.āĀ
āHuh.ā Levi would say Xavier looks almost impressed. Mostly sort of exasperated, though. āYou know what, now that you say it, I feel like that checks out.āĀ
Levi narrows his eyes. āWhatās that supposed to mean?āĀ
āI donāt know, maybe you look like the type who would break his kneecap doing parkour.ā
āAnd what kind of type is that?ā Levi is halfway to miffed and sort of offended, but then Xavier grins wide and he forgets to be annoyed.Ā
āYou tell me.āĀ
It sounds too much like an invitation to be a coincidence.Ā
Levi canāt remember the last time he spent so many hours talking uninterrupted. Or, well, talking to someone who was actually listening to him and actively engaging in conversation. Someone who was interested in him.Ā
Levi canāt remember the last time he enjoyed talking to someone this much.Ā
He cracks a joke that makes Xavier laugh softly, and the noise goes straight through his spinal cord like an electric shock, and then it becomes a game, a challenge, trying to make Xavier laugh like that again.Ā
Xavier shows him pictures of his dog, a wonderfully fluffy brown-and-grey mutt named Captain, and Levi thinks he might actually pass away over how cute he is.Ā
āI always wanted a dog,ā he says after cooing over a picture of Captain showing his belly for ten minutes. āLike, really bad. I want a dog so bad. But Anika doesnāt, so it never happened.āĀ
āWell,ā Xavier says loftily, āNothingās stopping you now, is there?āĀ
That is an excellent point. Levi tells him so.Ā
Then he starts thinking about how nice it will be to have the apartment to himself for a while, and then he feels guilty for being relieved about it, about Anika not being there, and then he ponders how weird itāll be to be alone for Christmas.Ā
Levi's never been alone for Christmas before.Ā
His family lives in Alberta, and he can't really afford another short notice round flight, and anyway the plan this year had been just him and Anika, and they'd had a reservation for brunch on Christmas day, and Levi thinks he should probably cancel that, and that's just a fucking bummer.
After a moment of thinky silence, Levi quietly asks, "What are you gonna do for Christmas?"Ā
Xavier blows out a long breath. "I don't know. I think I'll try to see my sisters. They live a state over, though, and it's all very last minute, Iāweāwere supposed to spend it at Chloe's, and I'm not big on Christmas celebrations myself, you know, my family's culturally Jewish, so⦠I'm not sure."
Most of the rest of the flight is quiet, and a little sad, but also nice, and when the seatbelt light flicks on and the crew announces the imminent descent Levi can't help but feel a pang of disappointment.
The plane lands. Impatience in the cabin spikes; everyone wants to get home, it's the holidays, it's cold. Levi gets up and winces, catches Xavier's eye as he reaches for his bag and hands it to him.Ā
Xavier is gonna call a cab. Levi is as well.Ā
They're standing outside.
Levi shoves his hands in his pockets.Ā
"Well," Xavier says.
"Right."
"It was nice meeting you, Levi. The circumstances were⦠less than ideal, maybe, butā¦"Ā
Levi looks at him. A purple bruise is blossoming on his cheekbone, crawling up around his eye. The tip of his nose is red from the cold. His eyes are dark but if he pays very close attention he can tell where the iris ends and the pupil begins.Ā
And okay. Okay.
He might be a little gay.
"But nice," he whispers.
Xavier smiles, looks down. Is itāwould it be totally weird to ask for his number?
But then Xavier's cab is there, and he tips an imaginary hat at Levi before turning away. He hands the driver his luggage.
The sharp stab of panic between his ribs takes Levi totally by surprise. As does the fact that when he blinks he's closed the distance between him and the cab and is holding onto the door.
Xavier looks at him, eyebrows raised.
Levi didn't plan this far ahead, or at all. He blinks, feeling rather sheepish, then when Xavier's eyebrows start disappearing into his hairline he blusters, all at once, "So I have a brunch reservation. On Christmas Day. I was, you know, supposed to go with Anika, but, you know. And it would suck to have to cancel. And it doesn't have to be weird, or anything, we're just two guys being dudes, getting brunch." He snaps his mouth shut, absolutely horrified. What the fuck was that?
Xavier's mouth parts a little.Ā
God. Shitballs. Fuck. Abort. "But that would be weird, right? You know what, never mind, it's fine, forget I said anything, it'sā"
"Levi," Xavier says, exasperated. He covers his face with his hands. Then he says, muffled, "Yeah, okay. That sounds nice. I'd like that."Ā
Oh.Ā
"Are youāare you sure?"Ā
He must sound really incredulous, because Xavier snorts. "Yeah, I'm sure."Ā
Slowly, Levi grins. "Okay."
"Okay." They stand there for a moment, and then Xavier's eyes go wide and he says, "Wait, I shouldāhold on." He digs in his pocket and pulls out his wallet, hesitates, then pulls out a small rectangular object and holds it out.
Levi's grin goes lopsided. "Xavier Ortega. Are you handing me your business card right now?"
To his credit, Xavier looks away sheepishly. "My phone number's on there."
Levi accepts the card, hoping passionately that Xavier doesn't notice his hand is shaking. "Okay. I'll text you, then."
"Okay," Xavier says. Then, tentatively, "See you soon, then?"
Levi takes a deep breath and steps back, cheeks burning, and probably not just because of the bite of winter chill. Something in his stomach twinges, and he says, "Yeah. See you soon."Ā
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Name: Ness
Sign: apparently pisces (sun), cancer (moon), virgo (rising)
Time: 19:59
Last movie: I have no idea. I donāt remember. Unless cod mw3 playtrough counts
Last show: Avatar the last airbender (this time in english)
When I created this blog: I think early this year?
Other blogs: a commander Fox rp blog (tho i dun use it atm)
Do I get asks/may you ask me something: U can send asks anytime. Tho it can happen that I wonāt see it or take a while to answer it
Average hours of sleep: 7 hours I think
Instruments: I tried to teach myself how to play the guitar in middle school. I canāt play nor read notes kfnnxnx
What I'm wearing: dark gray sweatshirt, black sweatpants, gray socks, cat ears for Halloween
Dream job: I donāt know
NPT: @commander-sunshine @moonsika @t3mpest98 @ihaventpickedausername @errondaperson @echos-girlfriend @techs-stitches @the-bad-batch-baroness @captainrexshusband & everyone who wants to do this
Name: Stitch (Stitches if you want to call me that tooā¦)
Sign: I believe Aquariusā¦idkā¦whatever goes with January 23ā¦
Time: 7:09 pm
Last Movie: I donāt remember the name but it was background noise practicallyā¦it made me depressedā¦š
Last Show: āØSTAR WARS REBELS⨠(me be simpin for the blueberry atmā¦š„“) also Loki because heās my favorite Marvel character
When I Created This Blog: I believe in late April of this year
Other Blogs: a Glitch rp blog at @wired-assassin (it gets attention every once in a while)
Do I Get Asks/May You Ask Me Something: Iām always up for a chat or an ask! It make take me a couple hot hours to get to it, but I always try to answer!!
Average Hours of Sleep: uuuhhhhā¦idkā¦10? I honestly have no clueā¦
Instruments: currently learning the cello and will (hopefully) learn guitar and piano!!! (Wouldnāt mind learning drums eitherā¦I blame Awsten Knight for my wants to be a talented musicianā¦)
What Iām Wearing: grey long sleeved shirt from a theme park and dress pants (donāt judge!!! Iām comfyyy!!!)
Dream Job: UHMā¦idkā¦professional musician? Voice actor? Comic artist or author?
NPTs: @coraex @raevulsix @kimiheartblade @nobody-expects-the-inquisitorius @photogirl894 @crashqueenxx @arrthurpendragon @totally-not-your-babe @ele-millennial-weirdo @thrawns-teef-weef @vimse and anyone else who wants to join the chaos!!
Last Movie: IT Chapter 2. This may be an unpopular opinion but I actually liked it better than the first one
Last Show: Loki and I'm also binge-watching Staged because I miss Crowley and Aziraphale
When I Created This Blog: April 2022
Other Blogs: Nope
Do I Get Asks/May You Ask Me Something: Hell yeah you may!! I'm terrible at responding to asks sometimes but I love receiving them, I'm always down to talk to my mutuals
Average Hours of Sleep: 7ish
Instruments: I can play piano and violin! I also know how to play guitar and harmonica but I haven't tried since I was about 14, I really want to pick it back up again
What Iām Wearing: Jeans, plain black t-shirt and cardigan
Dream Job: Some kind of animal conservation idk
NPTs: @oh-three @stardustbee @littlesoka7567 @padawancat97 @metalatl @flyiingsly @anxiouspineapple99 @babygirlbridger @phantom-of-the-501st @eyecandyeoz and anyone else who wants to join!
Last Movie: Iām not gonna lie. It was Cars. I watched Cars while editing my fic.
Last Show: Stargate SG-1 (Iām finally on season 8)
When I created this blog: uhhhh like a year and a half ago??? I think!
Other blogs: a few but theyāre all for different fandoms and purposes. They donāt really get used anymore since I have this one š
Do I get asks/May I ask you something?: please do send asks! I love getting asks. I love getting tagged in stuff. If it takes me a bit to respond itās usually bc my life is busy at the moment but Iāll get to it!
Average hours of sleep: 8 usually. 9 if Iām lucky.
Instruments: I have played the piano nearly my whole life and I dabble in guitar (although Iām not very good with the guitar lol)
What Iām wearing: a big green sweater and some polar bear socks āŗļø
Dream job: I donāt have one. Iāve never really had a dream job.
NPT (also sorry if youāve been tagged already): @floundrickthewayfarer @gentle-hero-blog @saturn-sends-hugs @alabyte
Thanks for the tag, @gentle-hero-blog! Sorry it took a while to get around to it š
Name: Laz
Sign: Capricorn. I... have no idea about sun or rising or whatever, and can't be assed to find out, sorry.
Time: 19:10
Last Movie: Watched Nimona with my best friend last week! ā¤
Last Show: Uhh. Something Star Wars. I've been watching snippets of TBB for fics, and I rewatched some of TCW recently as well. Also watched.. a couple episodes of Andor? kinda stuck with that one though.
When I created this blog: Pfffff no idea. Years ago. Long enough to remember 'color of the sky' from it's first go-around, I believe.
Other blogs: @lazinesswrites for writing stuff
Do I get asks/May I ask you something?: I mostly get asks on the writing-sideblog, but sure! In either place!
Average hours of sleep: Uhhh. I try for 8-ish but it's probably more like 6 or 7, and then random bouts of 10+
Instruments: I.. started learning to play the piano years ago but never really stuck with it. I prefer singing, anyway.
What Iām wearing: Uhh. Long black skirt (so flowy!) and a loose black t-shirt. Also my red-and-black/black-and-white scarf/blanket/thing.
Dream job: Hell if I know. Something with text or craft, with relatively set hours, and which doesn't take up so much of my time/energy that I can't work on my own stuff too. Preferably something that doesn't require too many e-mails and phone calls (I say, as someone with a Masters in Communication......)
NPT: Hmm, let's see if there's anyone who hasn't been tagged yet š @sunkissedclones @whimsicalmeerkat @crankyfossil & anyone else who wants to!
Took me a second to realize NPT is probably short for 'no pressure tags' and not the place I interned at last year... š
Name: Jess/The Wise One/ The Fountain of Wisdomness/deathblade8/Cranky Fossil
Sign: Leo
Time: When I was born or...? It's two-ish right now.
Last Movie: RWRB
Last Show: I have no memory of the last show I watched. I don't think I've watched a show in the last two months.
When I created this blog: The fine folks at the @malecdiscordserver made me do it for the mini bang thingy. Blame them for my existence here.
Other blogs: I can barely run one blog, thanks. I would one day create a fan-blog dedicated to me, though.
Do I get asks/May I ask you something?: You can ask me nothing, Laz. I am in a cone of silence and will reveal nothing at all.
CONE. OF. SILENCE.
Average hours of sleep: Next question.
Instruments: I thwack a spoon against a pan pretty spectacularly. (I enrolled in music lessons as a kid, but they were too "holier than thou" so I quit a few weeks in. )
What Iām wearing: My Black Jeans of Utmost Productivity and a Grey Henley.
Dream job: I am a Tech Bro (Tech Sis? that just sounds weird. Tech Sibling?) I think it's alright, as far as jobs go. Algorithms are predictable, and that's beautiful.
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*cracks knuckles* i've never been one to be unique, so i shall dabble in this as well
if this post gets to 20k notes by the end of november (see the impossible deadline?) i will finally get cracking on my novel and put it up on wattpad when its done
i love impossible deadlines, especially when i'm setting them <3
Ok yet another OP I don't know, but I have just chosen to always participate in making people push themselves to be better and really accomplish their goals... Squad, attack!
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If you know anyone who seems really chill to the point of being virtually indestructible, like nothing could ever bother them in any way, could get hit by a train and just shake it off and be totally fine, laughing it off as soon as they've dusted themselves off and stopped bleeding, but who occasionally just randomly falls apart to complete fucking smithereens with seemingly no cause nor warning, only to get back up again a few minutes/hours/days later like "ok yeah I'm fine again that was weird lmao", and you've ever wondered what the fuck is up with that:
They are actually not ok and most likely are not ok at any point. The whole "hardiest person you know who just collapses randomly sometimes" thing isn't a deliberately constructed faƧade, as a matter of fact it might be something that they actually personally believe themselves to be. But in reality this is somebody who's either unintentionally learned or has been deliberately trained to hide negative emotions and mask symptoms at all costs, as the #1 priority that goes over any other survival needs.
So even though it may look like they go from 1 to 100 completely at random and unpredictably, and then swing right back again to being totally fine, you have no way of knowing how long they've been at 95% before the last line of defense broke down and the system collapsed. And once they flip back up, odds are that they just managed to scrape their shit back together again just enough to get their backup masking systems running. The "check engine" light never turned on because the wire was clipped years ago.
If this is you, this is your callout to seek some sort of help. I'm telling on everyone in this room including myself.