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if she WERE, she’s absolutely the type to wander around the woods teaching you about rocks and plants, all while ending up in the most magical looking places that are somehow impossible to locate

they find concerning things a little too often. They have Detective Drift on speed dial at this point.

people like her for her autistic swag and the occasional hints of how actually fucking wild her life is

like. someone comments on one of her videos “wait. weren’t you like a missing person’s case as a kid” and she responds with 👍

this proceeds to blow up for several weeks. people add it to their conspiracy boards right next to the singular mention of them busting a cult that one time. theories are made. Apo only ever says things that encourage the chaos because she has -3 charisma. and also admittedly the frantic red string is kinda funny, even though she really doesn’t like the attention.

Cherri has taken it upon herself to be editor, camerawoman, and built-in annoyance. Everyone thinks they’re together but they don’t actually confirm it for like 8 years, despite the extremely obvious flirting. the rpf-ers are eating good.

Also it’s deeply important for this AU that you know Apo’s day job is still architecture, and she is very good at it. Nobody connects the wildly successful architect married to the equally if not more successful designer/costumer/woman of many hats Cherri, to the intrepid river-exploring rock nerd and her personal menace of an editor.

Apo also has no pr training. People keep trying to cancel her for stupid reasons. Like three extremely dedicated fans absolutely tear these attempts to shreds every time. At least one hater seems to just have an unspecified personal grudge. It gets added to the conspiracy boards.

Someone keeps theorizing that Apo’s a fugitive on the run from…something. Several people have pointed out that having an internet presence as a fugitive would be a fucking stupid idea. Somehow the theory lives on.

OH ABSOLUTELY!!!

Cherri smells blood and starts dropping more hints of it being The Famous Fucking Author, M Sausage.

[Original Oneshot] // [First] // [Prev]

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The human returns.

The soldier has always known it was a danger. Whatever the mortal is, human or otherwise, a threat like him doesn't just vanish. Yet another reason they should have disposed of him when they were blood-sated and at the height of their powers. Instead, both soldier and superior smell his arrival while ill-fed on wild beasts and fowl.

At least I’m exploding onto the screen and not. Screaming in real life. Because that wouldn’t be great.

‘“Please, let me help.”. JMMJMJMNJNJEDJNEHB

Cleo. Cleeeeooooooohhhh nooohhhhh. ‘She steps— then falters.’ It says so much. ‘Everything needs to drink, after all.’ Yessss lovely description. CAT I CAN’T WAIT FOR THE NEXT PART CAT

Thank you so much for continuing this au because this is. So. Good.

If you are getting gender affirming surgery, especially if it’s your first major surgery, PLEASE be aware that you can become SEVERELY depressed afterwards ESPECIALLY if you have a history of depression or suicidal ideation.

Post op depression is a natural reaction to the crazy mix of hormones your body goes through after major surgery as well as the stress and anxiety of recovery. Think of it like an adrenaline crash, but dragged out longer.

For me it kicked in about 6 weeks after top surgery and the worst of it lasted until about 10 weeks post op. EVERYTHING felt IMPOSSIBLE. None of the skills I’d been practicing worked. I thought everything was going to be bad forever. I didn’t attempt, but I was in the hospital. If it wasn’t for my support system I probably would have attempted.

This is not regret, but it can feel like it. I remain happy about my results to this day (going on six years later).

This is not you failing to maintain your mental health, but it can make you feel like a failure.

Things are not hopeless, but through the haze of this depression they can feel hopeless.

It can be terrifyingly sudden or it can sneak up on you. I didn’t even realize what was going on until after the depression finally passed and my mental health went back to normal.

I am writing this post because nobody told me about this before my top surgery. I was caught completely off guard. For my subsequent surgeries being aware has made all the difference. Being able to treat those symptoms as an expected and normal part of the healing journey has made them far easier to deal with. Because even when my emotions go to dark places I *know* they will pass. I have been able to tell the bad thoughts to take a bad seat and focus on healing.

They want total control over you. Not just trans people. Not just queer people. You. Everyone.

Trans people are just a scapegoat. They want total control over everyone's self expression. They want the right to mold you into their perfect little cog in their dehumanizing machine.

Do you think Louis got to see kids? Get to play with them. I bet he never got to have friends for more than a year or two otherwise he'd risk them noticing that he just.. wasn't getting older. How lonely do you think that must be? To age so slowly while everyone around you gets to grow up, gets to keep those friendships their whole lives, and get to grow old together.

You are Glass || fnafvs animatic

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So hunger games au thing

We mostly agree that Legundo is a victor in Apo's district, but what if he wasn't the only option, what if there was another.

Enter Owen. Owen is the complete opposite of Legs when it comes to his victory. Instead of winning for survival/ perceived method of mercy killing, he won cause of his down right anger.

Why? Cause he was reaped twice. The first time he was so sickly everyone knew he wouldn't survive, he was written off almost immediately. He was barely 13 , wire frame and recked by disease. Victors in their district was rare enough, wood was not a luxury for the capital so no one was paid as such, there was no money for training careers so reaping was often a death sentence, even if you weren't ill.

So it was a shock when the mayor's son raised his hand.

Louis loved Owen the way any teenager loves their first love, wholly and undeniably. It was the right thing to do in his eyes.

The capital was enraptured by this story of love and sacrifice. After all, romance makes for a good story, especially when it bridges divides of poverty and power. A prince and the pauper. Louis becomes a popular tribute within the capital, painted as a bleeding heart lover boy.

But love isn't enough, Louis is killed towards the end of his games. It causes a great disappointment in the capital viewers. Flowers are sent to his home, and somehow, someone funds Owen health care that he recovers. He becomes stronger than he ever has, turning his grief into rage which he funnels in his lumberjacking, as it is all he has left.

The months pass by and Owen finds himself once again in the district square/plaza and now 14 he hears his name called again.

He thinks it must be a cruel trick of fate. He screams and thrashes until he is restrained and pulled away. No one meets him to give him a memento.

While in the capital it becomes clear to the viewers who this is, this is the mayor's son's lover. And he is angry. He gets very few sponsors much to the annoyance of his mentor. At one point his mentor has to pull him aside to tell him if he keeps going the way he is that the capital will have him silenced.

Owen can't have that. He has to win. For Louis, to prove to everyone the mistake they made.

It was one of the shortest games in history.

With the use of his trapping and tracking knowledge from hunting, his brute strength from labour and a wicked sharp axe he finds, Owen carves a bloody path through the arena. He is not merciful as there was no mercy for Louis. The capital wants a monster so they are going to get one.

Of all the victors, Owen is seen the least. He is never chosen to mentor for fear of the ideals he will instil. At age 16 he watches Legs poison the water.

He views legs as naive at best and a cowardly monster at worse.

As much as I love Legs or Owen being a mentor, I’d love it even more if they were both in the game with Apo. Let me explain.

A year after she survives the massacre that was the Fernsfield arena, Apo finds herself reaped. Again. Because this year, contestants are pulled from the pool of winners. Legundo just wants to help people survive as long as he can. He wants to help. (Is this just a ploy to get people to trust him?) (He’s too self-sacrificial for that to work as a marketing tactic, unfortunately. His team tries to frame it that way to spectacularly bad results.) With the cast of characters before us, it very quickly goes from a death game into more one of politics. Who will betray who? Who’ll be the first to crack? Tensions are high.

This au leans heavily into the cult nature. Scott is feared and ruthless and charming and sweet, and with the carnage that Scott left in the wake of his victory, Owen forms an alliance with him to kill as many people as possible. Scott manipulates Pyro, guilting him about Czeslaw yet praising his potential, and threatening to drown him if he doesn’t obey. Shelby stays in ‘town’ longer than the rest of ‘the coven’ after they’ve split off, but the rising tensions means she feels safer staying with a small group of people who seem to care about her than a whole lot of highly skilled strangers who seem about to turn on each other. At first there’s one faction as everyone works together, feeling each other out, but they don’t last long as a single unit.

Individual breakdown time! I love this bit!

Shelby won her game accidentally. It really was just coincidence, there was no skill involved, and nobody in the town respects her because of it. She’s sweet, and gullible, and not as much of a burden as everyone thinks. She’s sharp and, under Scott, refined into a weapon, should she want to strike. Not being able to hurt someone and choosing not to are very different things. They’ve been alone a lot— her Dad left to do something great right after they won her game— and she’s the one who convinces everyone during training to keep a truce and form a settlement at the start. She knows they’re in a death game. She understands that people are afraid! People are generally reasonable, it’s just fear and a lack of understanding that’s making them think she’s dangerous for being around Scott. Scott’s nice! Yeah, he’s scary if you don’t get to know him, but he hasn’t killed anyone yet! (This time.) (She never killed anyone.) And… Maybe they can all win. Maybe if they all trust each other completely and refuse to hurt each other, they’ll all be let go. That’s good television, right? Everyone loves an underdog story!

It just… doesn’t work out that way.

Apo won her game by… doing what she had to to get back to Cherri. When reaped again, she knows they have to win. But everyone is cooperating, and v!Apo both genuinely cares so much about others and has canonically anti-establishment undertones, so they are fully on board with sticking it to the Capital and working together. Which is made a lot harder by whatever double-crossing Cleo is doing!

(I’ll go into more detail for Apo later, this is just baseline motivations)

Cleo won their game after being enslaved by the male counterpart from her district. It came down to a final three with Alaric, herself, and a third person. The two of them took each other out and she ended up winning because of it. They know how to be compliant and quiet and play by the rules, which ultimately means that nobody knows how cunning she can be. (They’re done with playing ‘fairly’. None of this is fair, deal with it.) After winning, she went home to their district to find her people in shock. They’d been expecting, hoping, for their victor to be Alaric, and had cheered him on in everything he’d put them through. She has no loyalty for the home that has no loyalty for her, and is playing purely for their survival, and for the survival of Pearl.

I’m not sure yet if they knew each other beforehand, since victors have certain responsibilities that may mean they spend time together. Either way, star-crossed moonrot!

Abolish works in the shadows and the background. He won his game by turning people against each other and leading them into traps with such subtlety that even the audience chalked it up to a series of luck. He’s shown that he can survive, but no extraordinary skill. Morcant is, and was, his mentor, having brought him up after the death of his parents from their work in the rebellion against the Capital. Being in the rebellion, being reaped was annoying; he’s an asset but winning would shine a spotlight on him, and thus, what he works for and what he does. Winning in a way that made people ignore him was hard and tedious. Being reaped a second time was not just inconvenient, but rude. He came into this expecting to have to let himself die (since he’d be trapped in here with people no ordinary victor could take down) but really hoping he didn’t have to. When everyone agreed to work together, however, he saw an opportunity. Stay overlooked while keeping as many people allied and alive as long as possible until the rebellion can break them out and start a revolution. It’s a tricky balance— there are more keen eyes on THIS game than ever before— but he’s here to do a job, and a job he’s going to do.

Pearl is Katniss Everdeen but with more whimsy. Their impending doom is part of why she’s so determined to find joy in the little things. Dying is one thing, dying miserable is another and something she’d really like to avoid! Like Katniss, she’s a hunter. Back home, she’s self-sufficient and no-contact with her family, so being so relied upon to feed everyone is a nice change of pace. With her hunting skills and Cleo’s farming, they work together a lot to prepare food and supplies. (If it weren’t for Pearl, Cleo probably would’ve taken a leaf out of Legundo’s book and poisoned the cookpot ages ago, but that would be a big betrayal Pearl would not forgive.) She’s optimistic but reasonable, and a fan-favourite because of her silliness and prowess! She won her previous game after being ganged up on and swiftly taking them all out, and mostly acted in self-defence, always trying to merciful. Pearl’s used to people wanting something from her— more than her fare share with her family, then attention and money as a victor, and now… now..?— but she’s honestly used to it, and cares less about it than she used to. She’s all about doing the best with what she has.

Losing Elle, his best friend and female counterpart from their district the year she should’ve won, really messed Avid up. Being reaped a second time was the final straw for his mental health. Given his situation the paranoia and unwitting manipulation is justified, but not helpful.

Drift is a coward. She is also a survivor. These aren’t mutually exclusive.

In her game, everyone worked together, much like in the current one. It was very much a murder mystery. ‘Play along at home!’ It was a great year for betting, since the identity of the blue orchid killer was obscured. They were a close-knit group, and one of them was a murderer. Somehow, even with someone on watch, people kept dying, and the murderer left a flower as a calling card with every corpse. The hope was that it would get easier to identify the culprit as more and more people were picked off. The hope was that it wouldn’t be her.

Drift was the main investigator of the bunch. One day, she received a blue orchid. She wasn’t dead yet, but the message was clear: she would be, soon.

So she ran. And the murders stopped. It was obvious! Of course the killer was the detective, she’d been covering her tracks! The people at home were delighted, and she got a LOT of sponsors and attention. Everyone teamed up to chase her down and ‘relieve her guilty conscience’, but her mentor had sent her a bomb. She deployed it cleverly, killing everyone and crowning her the victor.

Explosives were banned the next year.

It was left ambiguous who the killer really was (the Capital returned the bets, to much disappointment). She really didn’t do it. But that wasn’t good for publicity. After being reaped a second time, though, she finally got to be adamant that she was framed.

(Does it really matter, though? She’s only telling the truth because it makes her less of a target. It’s the first time she’s been glad that people might think that she’s a murderer because it suggests that she’s not necessarily someone you want to cross, whilst also not being a threat.)

She never got any closure. She can only hope that this time works out differently.

Anyway, yeah! Here’s half the cast! My og mountain of text was longer and probably better professed, but I hope this gives an insight into where I’m going with it— I’ll hopefully get to the other half soon, and maybe think about how the plot would go down? 👀 The hunger games is SUCH a fitting setting for these characters. Yes! Put them into a torment game canonically

yk how it is: butlerbolish on the mind

Shelby makes little pride badges for all her friends. They’re a little janky but in a very cute way. Drift wears hers constantly. Scott makes a comment about it clashing with his outfits, but he still wears his, cause Shelby made it so of course he loves it. They send some to Cleo and Pearl, who both adore them. And then she tracks down Abolish and hands him some. He thanks her and pockets them, because he will never admit to her face that he has *no idea* what they mean.

he spends that whole night researching, three little pins sitting on his desk in front of him.

After a series of searches like “pride flag purple grey” and “asexual meaning” and “romantic vs sexual attraction” and “can you not have a gender?” he ends up with a lot of answers to questions he never even realised he had.

he doesn’t wear the pins, because any kind of identifying element is a risk in his line of work. But he gets one of those little magnet displays for his desk.

Lord Morcant Thornvale

(he/him)

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