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Occasionally I write (vsmp) fic! Find me at my AO3 or find all my fics tagged under #cat writes!
Ongoing:
The Work-Afterlife Balance - Legs & Owen survive VSMP and are employed by Abolish's organisation. Nobody is remotely normal about this. Regular updates.
Remains to be Seen - After surviving an attack on his life, Louis follows after Owen, only to find Oakhurst empty. Very much an AU, with an epistolary-styled, found media narrative. Slow updates due to the style of the fic.
Oneshots:
Bloodlines - an "almost au" where Morcant takes Abolish in, with plans to raise him for the slaughter - only to come to care for him.
i've grown a mouth so sharp and cruel - an AU where newly-turned Legs catches up with Owen and Abolish on their way to the beacon.
make a mercy out of me - fake vampire Legs gets shot, and help comes from an unexpected corner.
Reapercussions - post ep 5, multiple people have Opinions on Legs' recently announced 'vampirism'.
Tabula rasa - Owen turns Legs, in an AU where being turned erases all human memories, and gets more than he bargains for.
we're not getting out of this dead - the humans of Oakhurst discuss their inability to die. The implications are not reassuring.
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ya know Trustbites has always been hilarious to me because
a. It is theoretically canonically possible that Louis could revive during the timeline as this Minecraft and he wasn't staked, only burned at the stake so he isn't perma dead.
And b. If Louis came back before the Doc and Owen chatted in Ep 3, Owen would cling to him and not talk to anyone else at all and Bloodletting would probably never happen in that timeline.
But c. If Louis came back after the chat in ep 3 Legs would check in on Owen if he just vanished with no explanation and probably find Louis and Owen curled up next to each other. Louis would then somehow extract Legs entire life story from him somehow and subsequently adopt him. This can be taken as both romantically and platonically because as much as I love the threesome of them, I feel like 2 ancient beautiful vampires and the old man they adopted is objectively funnier.
his sexuality crisis would NOT involve him researching micro-identites to find the exact one to label his attraction. he's a forty year old man, he's calling himself gay and never thinking about it again
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Anyway. Now thinking about 2006 Drift (who has managed to move out and keep relative distance from Scott but who is still too afraid of him to try and cut him off entirely and is just trying to become so unimportant in his life that he forgets about her) psyching herself up for the annual Oakhurst trip because spending a week mentally preparing is the only way she can cope with being around him for a couple of days.
She doesn't know why. He's Literally Nice. He hasn't hurt anyone in a century. It's fine. It's fine. It's fine, she's supposed to be better now. Stupid. He'll notice--
It's fine. She's fine. She can do this. Again. (but for how much longer?)
And with the way she's been sidling out of the picture...why would she know?
both tags via @uncannyfig
The mental image is incredible. Apo is just staring at Drift, who is just like 'wow it's crazy we're both here, right? huh. Huh. nervous laugh.'
(Why is Apo near Scott Goldsmith? Oh man. AU where Apo doesn't really work for The Organization but they do ask occasional favors of her in return for emergency blood supplies, and they've asked her to move somewhere in the New York metropolitan area...)
Yeah Scott Goldsmith surviving at all is pretty despair-inducing but the thing that's really bleak is that he never even dropped out of tier 3 in the finale (unlike his fledglings, including the ones he claimed to be taking care of). He didn't give up anything.
See, I don't think that Doc planned or expected to live through the war. Not after the first few months.
He could stomach doing what he did in part because he was convinced he'd die for it soon enough, and it wasn't his fault, really, he was just following orders, just a cog in a machine, so no need to think or feel or question, because doing any of that would just open up everything he'd shoved down--
Getting fixated in a piece of media will make you very curious about things you have never once in your life cared about beforehand just bc it's relevant to said media
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See, I don't think that Doc planned or expected to live through the war. Not after the first few months.
He could stomach doing what he did in part because he was convinced he'd die for it soon enough, and it wasn't his fault, really, he was just following orders, just a cog in a machine, so no need to think or feel or question, because doing any of that would just open up everything he'd shoved down--
"We are literally in the middle of a truce," Scott says. "Do you get what that means? No killing, no desecrating, no turning, none of," and he gestures loosely to the grisly tableau before him, "this."
The coven collectively considers the corpse dumped on the table between them.
The doctor is very dead.
Owen scowls, which isn't particularly noteworthy, since he's been scowling since he dragged the cadaver into the castle. "It's not like you intended to keep the truce," he mutters.
"Sneaky. We were meant to be sneaky about it," Scott says. "Not whatever weird three-day waiting time your bloodline has going on!"
Owen proffers a perfunctory growl at the insult, but it's somewhat distracted by the very deceased elephant in the room.
"Maybe the humans won't notice–" Pyro says.
"Of course they'll notice," drawls Scott. "What, do you think they'll somehow miss that their doctor has taken a weekend sabbatical? Congrats, Owen, I hope your temper tantrum was worth it."
"He started it."
"Let's just drop him down one of the crypts," Pyro says. "He's human. Old. It's not so unlikely that he missed his step and broke his neck."
"The beacons bring the humans back when they die, idiot," Owen retorts. "If you could try to keep up at the back there, that'd be great."
"Do the..." Shelby falters, but already there is a strange tone in her voice, like she's sidling up to an idea and trying not to spook it. "Does town actually know he's dead?"
"I hardly killed him in the town square."
Scott hums. "You two do seem to keep vanishing off together."
"Only," and Shelby definitely sounds like she's sneaking up on the Lesser Spotted Questionable Idea with the world's biggest net, "we could just... keep it from them. That he's dead." She registers the expressions of polite skepticism, and barrels on. "I mean, I know he's dead, but he's not, like, dead-dead. He's not going to decompose. I read it in a book once, where there's these two guys, and their boss invites them to his home, only it turns out he's hired a hitman to take them out, and–"
Shelby realises she's losing her audience.
"Anyway, it worked out for them, and they weren't even dealing with a supernatural corpse."
There's a belated pause.
The doctor remains so very, very dead.
"Humans can't even hear heartbeats," Scott says, after a long moment.
"Oh, you cannot be thinking about actually trying it," Owen snaps.
"Then perhaps you should've tried thinking before turning the good doctor," Scott replies, dangerously pleasantly. "Be thankful we're willing to clean up your mess. Now, you and Shelby can escort our guest back to town, and make sure he, ah, settles in okay."
Owen makes no attempt to hide his displeasure. "Why us?"
"Well, I can hardly show my face about town," Scott says innocently, "and Pyro seems to make the mortals uneasy, although I can't imagine why."
Pyro makes a face that's clearly aiming for disgruntled distaste of the humans, but landing closer in embarrassed territory. The whiteless eyes do little to buffer the expression.
"But they appear fond of Shelby," and Scott's voice softens, betraying the sentiment isn't town-specific, "and as for you... well, it's known the doctor has – well, had – a soft spot for you. I'm sure you can convince the townsfolk you're staying only out of mutual concern."
Owen is less sure.
There is a note in Scott's voice, however, that brooks no arguement. And thus, he later finds himself hauling the dead weight of the doctor, alone, while Shelby skips alongside him.
He's even less sure he wants to try.
"And you killed him," Scott finishes, in that same perfectly amicable tone.
"You could help, you know."
"But we need to convince the town that you care," Shelby says, eyes wide and almost managing to sound wholly sincere. "Anyway, he's too tall for me to support his other shoulder. I'd drag him the whole way."
Owen eyes Shelby. Scott has mentioned, in that off-handed, understated way of his, the nature of the literature she gravitates to. He wonders, warily, if she's planning on drawing inspiration from real life.
"Don't make this... weird."
Shelby blinks innocently. "I'm not."
"I'm only doing this to avoid the truce being broken."
"Right."
"I don't care about the doc."
Now it's Shelby's turn to eye her companion, gaze slipping to the corpse propped up by adjoining shoulders. She starts to speak. Falters. Tries again, and is visibly working to keep a straight face. "I promise you I will not be the one to make this weird."
@valleyshrike this tag cracks me up everytime. Designated plot point by tags. You've heard of the Sexy Lamp Test; now get ready for the Dead Lamp Test!
[completely misunderstood the story] I always interpreted it as a sort of found family narrative myself. Like the frog is the scorpion's baby and she loves him very much :)
It's been fun jumping from Leg's ep to Owen's because it feels like the doctor is doing his best to sever/ignore their previous connection (really giving off the "we're divorced, get out of my house" vibes) and then you switch to Owen's ep and it's like *lingering shots of the doctor* *keep the doctor in view while talking to Abolish* "you have a soft spot for the doctor" *talk Avid and Pyro out of trying to kill Abolish and Legs* *specifically naming Legs as the one he wants to talk to about taking the blame for Avid's death* *asking all the humans to claim Avid's death but taking the doctor's answer as final*
Like. One of them is dealing with the divorce so much better than the other
Again, coming back to this because I cannot express how funny it was to watch Leg's ep first and come away from his pov like, oh we're on the ignoring part of the divorce arc, okay, possibly even moving on, they want nothing to do with each other now
And then watching Owen's ep and realising that oh Owen's not moving on, not even a lil bit
In an effort to remind myself I can do whatever I want forever, I let myself get distracted again and wrote a snippet for my bloodloathing divorce au
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He had intended for his stop into town to be brief. A quick check that there was no one who needed his services immediately, and then he could make his way up to the Castle — whatever was left of it — get what he needed, and never set foot in this cursed place again.
He had said that last time. Never again. That night under a Blood Moon when he had given in to his fury, and finally said no more. He'd said he'd never return.
Then he got the news.
Scott Goldsmith was dead.
Fucking finally.
He should have gone straight to the Castle, when he had seen the scorched ruins that had once been Oakhurst. But there had been voices, and he had been drawn in by them. That was how he ended up stuck socialising, blending in with a mismatched collection of strangers who had all arrived at the ruined town at the same time, for different purposes. An odd occurrence, certainly, but Legundo had more important things to concern himself with. So he smiled, and introduced himself, and answered questions, as all the others were doing. He withheld a grimace as a loud, young person just about threw a handful of garlic bulbs at him — he hadn't expected to have to deny the existence of vampires so suddenly upon arrival — and offered assistance to a quiet, also young noble who claimed to have been abandoned by his family. And the whole time, he waited. He just needed a moment to slip away, and get up to the Castle, and then he could be gone. But every time there was a break in conversation, every moment he thought he had an opportunity, someone else pulled him into their discussion and he was trapped once more.
(And he couldn't help but note that the young man in the butler uniform seemed to be in the background of every conversation Legundo was dragged into).
He thought he might finally have an opportunity, when he noticed the butler was being distracted by the garlic-thrower and the farmer, but just as he was about to slip away he heard a voice that would have made his heart stop if it had been beating at all.
"Well isn't this a sight for sore eyes?"
Venom filled Legundo's mouth. It took all of his centuries of practicing self control to stop the vicious snarl that wanted to rise in his throat.
He was supposed to be dead.
"Oh, do you two know each other?" another voice asked brightly, as Legundo turned slowly to face the approaching figures.
Beside the young girl with the too-big glasses, was the man who could have been Legundo's redemption, but had become his ruin.
Goldsmith was smiling ethereally, his eyes on Legundo filled with he same hunger he had always watched him with. His bright, teal eyes. Not red. And his hair, that had once been so devoid of colour it had glistened like starlight, was a shocking, unnatural blue. Every sign of Goldsmith's immense power was stripped away from him.
He wasn't dead.
But he wasn't fucking far from it.
Legundo wondered if the idiot with the garlic might have a stake.
"Stay the fuck away from me," he hissed, when Scott made to step towards him.
That certainly changed the mood amongst the others, who had begun to gather around when they heard the red headed girl's question. Legundo saw someone shift closer out the corner of his eye, and was not surprised to see it was the butler. (Though he wasn't sure why a butler would need so many concealed weapons).
His fury, as always, did not deter Scott. He smiled wider, and pressed a hand gratefully to his own chest, like Legundo had offered him a compliment.
"Missed me that much, did you, my dear?" he said sweetly.
Legundo was going to kill him.
"I'm leaving," he snapped back, and turned on his heel. Scott would try to stop him, he was sure, but if he didn't leave then, there would be bloodshed. So he strode out the ruins of the town gates, at a speed he didn't normally let himself reach in sight of humans.
Scott did not follow him.
It was only when Legundo all but slammed into an invisible wall deep in the forest that he realised why.
The furious scream he let out startled the crows from the trees around him.
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For reasons that will become clear very soon, I've decided to post Abolish's POV from To Sever a Bond onto Tumblr. Congrats to anyone who hasn't been able to read my stuff because they don't have an ao3 account - now's your chance!
What happens to a fledgling when their sire dies?
Abolish was well educated on sire and fledgling bonds. He had read most of the organization's available text on the subject and had discussed the topic with numerous colleagues in his time working in the field. He had seen bonds take hold (both consensually and forcefully) and he had seen bonds sever. On one instance in particular, he had lost a partner when their connection to their sire was broken unexpectedly during a dicey encounter with a coven of enemy vampires — their temporary pain paralysis had left an opening for the enemy to rush in and finish them off with a stake before Abolish could interfere.
The point was, Abolish thought he knew the risks associated with agreeing to become Legundo's fledgling.
He was wrong.
Abolish sits at the base of the town's central tower, mere yards away from where the holy beacon pulses — its harsh waves grating against Abolish's senses. He could step away — move himself just outside of its range of influence, closer to where the remaining vampires and Pearl are conversing.
But he doesn't.
If he doesn't have the persistent scratching of the beacon's power to focus on, he will be forced to pay attention to a far more unsettling feeling. Hesitation. Doubt.
Is this right?
Abolish had always prided himself in his ability to make difficult decisions quickly, and accept whatever consequences followed with grace. He knew how to calculate outcomes, prioritize logic, and mitigate risk — he was good at it. He got the impression the doctor was similar (ignoring the obvious blind spots that were his own self preservation and Owen, of course). Even though years working with patients away from a military conflict had certainly softened Legundo, Abolish could still make out the shadow of the soldier he once was.
So when Legundo had turned him and the connection between the two of them fused into place, the emotional flood that poured from the bond had surprised and nearly drowned Abolish.
There was so much fatigue.
There was so much self hatred.
There was so much regret.
It was the regret more than anything else that had truly shaken Abolish. It was an unfamiliar feeling, and it had taken every ounce of self discipline to not react.
Legundo had noticed his distress, of course. Abolish was too inexperienced and too overwhelmed to possibly attempt to hide anything from his new sire. The emotions rushing down the bond had slowed, and the Doc had planted his hands on Abolish's shoulders until the fledgling could stand without swaying.
"You're going to be okay, I've got you," the Doc had said, repeating similar phrases until Abolish's primary emotion had shifted to one of annoyance. The Doc had smiled, sensing the change, and finished bandaging up his arm (Abolish had not reminded him that it wasn't needed — the bite wound would heal into a scar in a few minutes).
Then Martyn and Ren had died, and the wave of painful emotions returned.
It had taken longer for Legundo to recover after that. In his defense he had tried prioritizing keeping as much away from Abolish as possible; however, it wasn't enough to stop Abolish's mind from feeding off the foreign thoughts.
Am I being selfish?
"Abolish, be careful. Be good," the Doc had said, just before he took Cleo's hand and left the town.
Is this good?
Abolish stands abruptly and walks into the tower, closing the door behind him. He doesn't want to be near the others when it happens. This deserves respect. It deserves privacy.
And it wouldn't be necessary if you weren't afraid.
He had been offered vampirism before. Multiple times, in fact (some in more nefarious contexts than others). He always had the same response: too much paperwork. It generally got a laugh, and allowed the conversation to move on. It was a logical answer. One most people expected from Abolish.
It was also a lie.
Yes — there are good vampires, and there are bad vampires. Yes — there are good people, and there are bad people. Yes — being a vampire doesn't inherently make you a bad person. Yes — many of the most important people in Abolish's life are vampires. He knows all of this. He truly believes all of this.
… And yet.
There is a small part of Abolish's psyche buried deep — so incredibly deep — that was locked away years ago when he was taken in by the man (the vampire) who would become the closest thing Abolish has to a family. It contains the memories of a child who learned the fate of his parents — the knowledge that the thing that killed them was a creature of the night. A creature that, up until that point, had only existed in horror stories and fairy tales.
A child that asked, "how can I become the monster that killed my family?"
It is illogical. Abolish knows this. Up until now, he had gone out of his way to make sure he never needed to confront that small part of him still driven by emotion.
But now a man, a good man, is going to die for it.
Abolish sits on the staircase, staring into the pulsing light of the beacon. Perhaps the power making his skin crawl has nothing to do with the vampirism at all. Perhaps it can sense his hesitation. His guilt.
And yet, he can't bring himself to do anything but wait.
When Legundo dies, Abolish does not allow himself to cry out. He does not allow himself to seek comfort. He does not allow himself to flinch. The pain is penance for letting his fear control him.