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june is her birthday month so our goal is to make this the best birthday she's had yet! 💞🎁💐

please put "for 🙏" in the text box about the payment (and especially don't mention hrt anywhere!) 🫶

its that time of the year again folks! soon my brother and i need to choose between renewing our lease in our tiny apartment, our moving somewhere slightly bigger so my dad (who is in a delicate housing situation) can move in with us. its a whole thing and i wont bog you down with the details. the short of it is: we need funds!

im physically incapable of working so you see where our problems begin! my brother works 3 jobs and is in charge of most our finances. i can only afford my many medications for my many conditions by the grace of generous friends and donors.

go HERE if you want to help!

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hey if we dont raise enough befour JULY 15TH we're in big trouble btw. my brother is raising some money on his own through his multiple jobs but he cant do it all himself. please share and help if you can. i'm not above begging.

i do art as well!!

i might be a bit slow given the aforementioned turbo disability, but i'll draw your blorbo! i'll draw you! i'll draw me if you want that for some reason! go HERE for that!

I Am Not Your Asian American Doll: a comic for AAPI Heritage Month 2023

I usually spend a lot of time editing and fine-tuning my comics so that they come across as polite and inoffensive. But honestly, I’m really tired of the way Asian cultures and countries are treated / talked about while Asian people themselves are excluded, and thought it was about time I really let my rage out lol.

My main inspiration was the work of feminist artist Barbara Kruger, who you may know from “your gaze hits the side of my face” and “you construct intricate rituals which allow you to touch the skin of other men.” I wanted to pair really shocking, striking words with high-contrast monochrome images as she did.

I chose eyes (and lack thereof) as a central motif. In conversations about art and media history, the “gaze” of the audience is a way to exert power. Who is made into the passive subject, and who gets to be the all-seeing viewer? Who is the subject being portrayed for? Hiding the Asian figures’ eyes demonstrates their lack of agency and establishes them as the subject rather than the viewer.

The skyline on page 5 includes Namsan Tower, as some readers pointed out. (You may have also been clued in from the page’s respective alt text, which describes this as the Seoul skyline.) Though numerous Asian countries have been victims of imperialism several times over, Korea was specifically in mind here. It was Western powers who Korea was split into the North and South, and their colonization and exploitation has led to extreme poverty even today, despite the country’s glamorous facade and rising international stardom.

As many guessed, pink was chosen for its association with sexualization and femininity, although of course fetishization of Asian cultures affects all genders. I also wanted to pick a dark, shocking pink that reminded the viewer of blood; in fact, it is used to color blood here on page 6. I was really happy that the color palette was limited but still legible. (But drawing the large food spread on page 4 with only three shades of pink was definitely a huge challenge.)

Here are some thumbnail sketches I made when planning the comic. You can probably recognize some of the final pages — and see how others evolved!

I want to thank everyone for their overwhelming support for this comic. I never could have dreamed of such an amazing response. To my Asian siblings across the world, you made me feel less alone. To non-Asian allies who lent me their ear, thank you so much for standing with us and listening to our struggles.

Usually I’m extremely careful to write my comics in a palatable tone, but for this piece I decided to not restrain my anger. I understood that by making this decision I would be sacrificing readership, and that many people would be much less willing to listen to me because of my tone. Nevertheless, I truly believe that any and all of the harassment I received was a small price to pay for such an honest piece to be seen.

Thank you all, again! Please consider supporting my most recent fundraising project, an Inumaki Toge themed fundraiser for aid in Gaza.

A bill has been introduced in the US that would make all pornography a federal crime. Owning it. Creating it. Distributing it.

Under this law, fanart of nude characters would be a federal crime.

Under this law, depictions of homosexuality or simply being transgender, would be considered pornography and a federal crime.

This bill is not going to pass.

However, the reason for this bill is to continue to push the "overton window". The reason for this bill is to make banning pornography seem more and more normal to everyone until they can actually do that.

And remember, they consider depictions of gay characters and transgenders characters "pornography" in any context, including platonic.

They have been working on this for a decade now and it has been working.

If you are one of the people in fandom who thinks that "nasty" porn on AO3 should be banned because it's "icky" or "immoral", then this mental scam is working on you.

Censorship is never about protecting people.

Censorship is always about control.

Do not let the rising moral panic affect your mind and make you weak to propaganda that lets others control you and control what you watch and read.

Do not fall for the scam.

No hand-holding or kisses between characters of the same gender in fanart or fic. That was "sexually explicit," while it was perfectly fine to write shippy Aragorn/Arwen stuff or to roleplay a pair of Dwarves eloping. (But not horse girls of Rohan). There was a forum function that let characters be forum-married, but NOT if the players or characters identified as the same gender. (Nonbinary? Genderfluid? What's that? Never heard of it.) Not a whisper of discussion of Legolas/Gimli or Sam/Frodo or any Silmarillion ship.

I pushed back hard in the admins' private forum, saying that there were gay teenagers. I said members like me resented the fact that our very existence was not deemed "family friendly. " We were part of the community, too. That the double standard of what was called "sexually explicit" was ridiculous.

My fellow admins honestly were progressive folks and sympathized, and a few were good friends, but they said they just couldn't take the legal risk. There were still anti-gay laws on the books in many states, and it was a US-hosted site.

Since our forums allowed teens age 13 and up to participate, we had to stick to what was acceptable in mainstream US society and not push boundaries. In the name of inclusivity, we had to make sure we followed standards that would allow all teens to be able to participate in Tolkien lore discussions and fandom, since that was the site's purpose. We couldn't afford to be slapped by a lawsuit or have authorities sent after us by outraged parents.

Never mind that the vast majority of our 50,000+ members were, much like Tumblr, grown-ass adults. (No swearing, either)

This was one of the biggest LOTR websites during the heyday of the Jackson films.

Imagine NO GAY CONTENT ALLOWED WHATSOEVER AND QUEER FOLK CAN'T BE OUT IN PUBLIC in, say, the Marvel fandom when Winter Soldier came out.

Livejournal was one of the few places that allowed it, and it was constantly under siege by "concerned" groups getting communities wiped out by the dozens. Including RL survivor support groups of various kinds of abuse, because they mentioned forbidden topics.

That was the environment under which AO3 was founded 2 years later. A place where we could archive our stuff for the audience it served, tag it with what it was, and readers could use tags to make their own decisions about what content they wanted to read or not, instead of having others decide for them.

But as my fellow admins said, online censorship reflected the world we lived in, and vice versa.

LBGTQ+ = indecent = inappropriate to be out in public. We'd be attacked for holding hands, because think of the children.

It It still is that way for trans people in many places. Evangelicals ban porn (which they themselves probably watch), and then they expand the definition of porn to include... people. It's already happened in some states. In others, laws were never taken off the books.

it may be from the 1800s, but by golly, they'll dig it up.

Fighting censorship is like whack-a-mole.

We defeated KOSA before and we can and must keep fighting, this is true; but this isn't new by any means. Ever since the first amendment showed up, there have been people fighting to take it away.

Don't let them.

But know that our elders and ancestors in the anti-censorship community are behind us. Know that this is not a new monster at our door but a very old and tired one. Remember, the death-throes are the loudest part.

You can't ban porn. You can't ban people from existing. We do not live in a world of "should" like these fuckos, we live in the actual real world, where queer people have always and will always exist, where porn has always and will always exist.

500 MILES - Riddle Rosehearts AMV 🌹

I am writing this with shaking hands while she is still breathing beside me.

Two days without a single donation.

Because of the situation here, I cannot get her the medicine or urgent dental treatment she needs. Her condition is getting worse every day, and even her teeth have started to fall out due to pain and severe deterioration, and I am completely powerless to stop it.

I hold her hand and try to stay strong, but inside I feel like I am slowly losing her in front of my eyes.

We are running out of everything food, treatment, strength, and time.

Please don’t let this become another silent loss.

If you can help, even a small donation can make a difference right now.If you cannot, please share this so it reaches someone who can act.

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we are out of money on two accounts (spent the last today) and we need to eat. our EBT has not been approved. reblogs appreciated

if you want to buy my longform erotica for $5 each: fluffy transmasc soft dom/transfem sub bottom pool smut, and/or transfem sub bottom POV reader x transmasc dom top werewolf x transfem domme bottom vampire smut

setting a goal to be able to pay june rent and eat, so: