Cosmic Thoughts

Anyways! HERE'S YOUR HANDY GUIDE TO WHAT CAN COUNT AS EYESTRAIN! I'm pulling this straight from the Artfight rules page about what needs to be labeled and filtered as eyestrain because it's VERY helpful and VERY accurate! I also know not everybody has an AF account and might not always have access to this handy guide, and this is an important resource; That's why I'm sharing it here! (under the cut)

PLEASE TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY!!! THIS IS ABOUT THE HEALTH AND SAFETY OF OTHERS!!!

image 1: table titled Cheat Sheet. On the left is the Needs Filtering column, which contains the following items: Large amounts of bright colors, including backgrounds; High contrast bright colors; Chromatic abberation; Optical illusions; Fast-flashing or bright animations; and Intense glowing effects. On the right is the Doesn't Need Filtering column which contains the following: Small amounts of bright colors, Slow flashing animation (under 3 per second), and Minor glowing effects.

image 2: A set of 6 examples under the title Visual Guide to Eyestrain filters. All use the same base drawing of a grey person with big eyes. The first is labelled Small amounts of bright colors with a check mark under the title. The person has a splash of cyan on one hand and a splash of magenta on one leg. The second is labelled High contrast or bright colors with a warning sign under the text. The person has stripes of bright contrasting colours across the torso. The third is labelled Bright/neon backgrounds with a warning sign under the text. The person is standing in front of a magenta rectangle. The fourth is Chromatic abberation or glitch effects with a warning sign under the text. On one side of the body there is a magenta outline with horizontal glitch lines into and out of the body. On the other side the same style with cyan. The fifth is Intense glow with a warning sign. The person's eyes and heart have a large bright cyan glow effect around them. The final is Clashing patterns & optical illusions, with a warning symbol. The person has a black, yellow and cyan checker-board pattern on one leg and a spiral optical illusion pattern on one arm.

Even though I am a narcissist, I have come across other narcissists who I consider bad people that I would not like to be friends with. I am often told I am a "good narcissist" by egotypicals trying to affirm me, especially when I was in the early stages of accepting I have NPD and terrified about being viewed as a bad person. What I found comforting then—being told it's fine I'm a narcissist because I'm a good person—I now wish was being told narcissists who don't fit the egotypical definitions of goodness are still human.

A "bad narcissist" deserves treatment.

A "bad narcissist" deserves access to resources for their mental health.

A "bad narcissist" deserves their humanity.

People love to tell me "I support narcissists!—except the bad ones."

From this, I wonder what their support means. I wonder how much they care about mentally disabled people if they can pick and choose who they want to dignify as disabled and who they want to write off as scum.

Is it any different, I wonder, to misgendering a bad person because they just so happen to be trans? Do they not deserve the dignity of their identity for their actions?

autistic abuse was very prevalent in my household as a child. my autistic brother had meltdowns in which he hit me and violently threw stuff at me. i recently had an horribly toxic autistic friend who couldn't communicate their emotions even though i told them several times that my mental illness symptoms are triggered and worsened when people don't communicate, and they avoided doing so on purpose -- these two are examples of what we call autistic abuse, and it is valid as a form of abuse and much more common than you believe.

these are signs to look for in order to know if a person is an autistic. if you know any person who has these patterns of behavior, it is likely that they are autistic: you must watch out for them and, if possible, completely cut them off from your life:

- seems cold and unfeeling

- can't communicate their emotions

- has poor emotional regulation skills

- is unintelligent

and didn't that make me sound like an ableist asshole?

isn't it obvious that while being autistic doesn't mean u get to throw shit at people, equating one autistic person throwing shit at me to autistic people having any direct correlation with abuse is only leading to bigotry and prejudice?

weren't those "signs to know if someone you know is autistic (so that you can prevent being abused by them)" not only invasive, but extremely stereotypical, bigoted, hurtful, straight up not neccessarily true?

isn't it clear that if i had meant a word of that, i would've been very fucking stupid?

Until they try looking for support and suddenly it's "There's no support for autistics like us", and "All the support is for high support needs autistics and I can't relate to them at all. It'll be uncomfortable being around that", and "They only make resources for children and high support needs autistics", and "I can't handle being around higher support needs. They make me angry. They're so annoying. Why can't they act normal", among so much more.

we are expected to include every single possible nuance in our posts despite how many autistic people struggle with black and white thinking.

we are called self-centered when we talk about our lived experiences despite how autism is characterized by a delayed or inhibited development of theory of mind (or the ability to put yourself in someone else's shoes)

one post that is easily misinterpreted or uninformed opinion and we are incessantly bullied and driven off platforms. even if you're autistic yourself, that's not the right thing to do. autistic people are as diverse as any other group of people, don't expect every one of us to properly convey YOUR opinions or experiences regarding autism, especially with a disorder that affects social communication and speech