cora

i was thinking about before i got into the law. you know when you imagine steamy scenarios before you go to bed for fun? i know you know what i mean. i used to do that every night in 2020 (even now) with the same scenario bc it was fun. keep in mind that i didnt know about the law at this point so i obviously didnt intend for it to "manifest". a year ago when i started to understand states, i used to think back to 2020 and wonder why those scenarios didnt manifest since i kept visualizing and imagining the same thing. last week i randomly remembered about how i used to wonder that and i immediately knew the answer: i wasnt changing self.

when i was visualizing/imagining, i wasnt becoming the person who actually knew i was experiencing it. i was not being someone who was experiencing those steamy scenarios. in order words, i was just daydreaming.

daydreaming

in my own words, i think daydreaming is visualizing something while being someone who knows they dont have it. for example: visualizing owning a car while knowing that you dont have it. so you are just visualizing it for fun, not for the purpose of changing self but for the purpose of just experiencing something in imagination (via visualization) just for your own enjoyment. daydreaming is like visualizing for fun, without changing states/self. this "knowing" i talk about is based on what state you are in, so if someone knows they dont have a car, they are in that state.

i think daydreaming is always visualization but visualization is not always daydreaming. daydreaming is for fun, without the intention of "manifesting" or changing states while visualization is changing states whether or not you intent to do so.

so i was visualizing my freaky scenes as the version of me who didnt identify with those freaky scenes (aka daydreaming). i wasnt identifying with it or using it to change self. same thing applies to when i used to repeat positive thoughts 100k times but i didnt identify with them. those are called vain repetitions and can be used to change self but if they just dont change self/states, then it is just daydreaming/vain repetitions. you can change self/states without realizing too which is why i think people put so much power onto techniques by thinking the techniques themselves are doing something, when its only self (imagination/you) that is changed by the techniques. those techniques were the things that consciously or unconsciously made you change self. regardless, self/you will always be the thing manifesting.

realize that regardless of everything, your state/version of you you are being, will always determine the "3d".

visualization ≠ imagination

visualization is a tool to change self / imagination. you can visualize things but that doesnt mean you are identifying with it or accepting it as true. i think of visualization as a smaller form of imagination but its very small compared to imagining/imagination itself.

imagination is what you are (aka self). imagination is not a tool like visualization because you always are operating in imagination since everything is self. you are always being a version of you. you arent always visualizing. visualizing can be daydreaming if you arent visualizing that thing to change self.

when you imagine something in a law of assumption context, imagining = what version of you you are being.

imagination is not limited to visualizing. there are some people in this community who have aphantasia and think they have no imagination and therefore "cant manifest", etc. but they just cant visualize. imagination is not equal to visualization. no matter what type of or stage of aphantasia you have, you will always already be manifesting.

visualizing and thinking without changing self means nothing. changing self means being a new version of you who knows they have (insert whatever desire).

self changes everything

so back to my story, i was just visualizing me and my imaginary bae, i wasnt being the person who was experiencing what i was visualizing. this is why it didnt manifest. i like this idea because that is just more proof that self changes everything, who ever you are being in imagination will express. it also means i have control bc i can daydream anything for fun and control whether or not it expresses bc i dont have to identify with that version of me who is experiencing whatever i am daydreaming.

i hope this makes sense and if it doesnt, dont stress. just focus on changing self, be the version of you that has whatever it is you want. i made this post because its been on my mind and hopefully it can help someone else realize that changing self is all you ever have to do.

lol it's a meme, originated from how tough ao3 writers are, how ao3 writers will write through any challenging time in their lives.

their house being on fire? they still write fanfics

them just losing their job? they still write fanfics

them going through homelessness? they still write fanfics

them getting hit by a car? they still write fanfics

them being hospitalized? they still write fanfics

them having just given birth? they still write fanfics

them being put on trial? they still write fanfics

and the list goes on.

because these are the kind of life updates ao3 authors often share in author's notes section to give their audience a bit of an insight into what goes on in their lives or why the updates are being slowed down. sometimes you can literally see them being like "lol sorry for the slow updates guys. my house burnt down", and most of the times, it's not even a joke. they literally go through these challenging times in their lives and they are still writing fanfics, they are still prioritizing their fics and they still feel like they have to apologize to their readers for the lack of updates. they still try their absolute best to write through any challenges life throw at them.

like not in a “you’re doing fandom wrong if you don’t” way, more in a “you are missing out on one of the most unhinged and delightful corners of the entire reading experience” way

because finished fics are great, obviously. they’re complete, they’re clean, they’re ready to be devoured in one sitting at 3am while you pretend you’re going to sleep at a reasonable hour. but in-progress fics? in-progress fics are a living thing.

because you’re watching it happen in real time. you’re there when the author is still figuring out what kind of emotional damage they’re about to inflict. you’re there when they post a chapter and you can practically feel them hovering like “so… thoughts?” through the screen.

and then you comment. and suddenly it’s not just reading anymore. it’s you and a stranger on the internet collectively losing your minds over fictional people like it’s a shared research project.

you start recognising usernames. you start waiting for updates the way normal people wait for weather. you get replies from the author that feel like inside jokes forming at lightning speed. sometimes you’re not even sure where the fic ends and the group chat energy begins.

it’s chaotic. it’s intimate in a very fandom-specific way. and i think people underestimate how much fun it is to be part of a story while it’s still becoming itself.

anyway. read more wips. leave comments. become slightly unwell about chapter updates with the rest of us.

Professor Emma Anemone knows

That’s 1972

29 years before AVEN was started online,

and 47 years before the present.

And that’s only the date that Manifesto was written, so asexuals as members of a community must have existed at least some time before that.