Floating in Space

Eve, the mother of sin, who held the world in her hands and was cursed for not knowing.

Eva, director of the task force, who now holds the world, and still must curse man to save it.

Yanessa said not to worry about Einfasen until they smile

She spent 70 years mourning her family, her god, her faith and her own being, wondering about gods, life, death and so on.

She met Occtis, what, ten days ago and followed him because of the hope he gave her for resurrection.

She had, in a split second, to choose between what she needed most and what the whole world needed most.

She spent 70 years mourning her family, her god, her faith and her own being, wondering about gods, life, death and so on.

She met Occtis, what, ten days ago and followed him because of the hope he gave her for resurrection.

She had, in a split second, to choose between what she needed most and what the whole world needed most.

Becuase to me Bolaire is clearly going through a similar trauma repose Occtis is when it comes to his father

Like Bolaire expresses how bad Thjiazi treated him constantly, how Bolaire was horrified of Thjiazi, how he didn’t feel like a person, exclusively an object to Thjiazi and maybe that’s why he keeps insisting to Azune he is just an object because he was made to feel like that for so long

To me when Hal said “at some point you’ll have to let go of him and start dealing with us” (and yes Hal has a lot on his plate and while that was a terrible thing to say I think he regretted it later but even so) when Hal said that that was kind of like telling a victim of abuse to “get over it”

And when Julien came to Bolaire’s defense “it’s hard when he won’t let us go” (and while everyone took that as a joke/said that’s exclusively Julien’s problem even tho it’s really not) everyone brushed it aside but it’s true.

Thjiazi won’t let these people go; he was going to use Hal’s theater, Valeus’s relic, and even Thaisha’s help with the old path at some point according to Mara

And more specifically he was going to use Bolaire’s sister as an anchor as well — and I also have a gut feeling that if she wasn’t going to suffice Thjiazi would absolutely use Bolaire as a tool as well.

So yes, while Bolaire’s opposing opinion on Thjiazi can be seen as annoying or driving the plot in a negative way, or even causing “unnecessary discourse” I still see Bolaire as Thjiazi’s victim.

Whether or not everyone will acknowledge it — because everyone is glazing this man even though it’s been confirmed Thjiazi has been known to use people and rob and just do his own thing — Bolaire is a victim.

I truly don’t see a motive for him to lie about why he hates Thjazi. Everyone’s reaction(in game) and fandom that are just hating on Bolaire/doubting him while continuing to glaze Thjiazi as this perfect man who stood up to the sundered houses and even in death continues to fight for freedom

Bolaire is left yearning to be human, depressed when he realizes how quickly that isn’t true when Thjiazi is back, and now just back to being hopeless he will ever be perceived how he wants to be.

It’s not the exact same thing as what Occtis is going through, but the similar body language and verbal language of a victim is there.

I appreciate that even though Azune does hold Thjiazi in a minor spotlight, he is lowkey the only one willing to hear Bolaire’s side on this and the only one who is still not treating him as an object despite the fact that Bolaire keeps insisting to Azune he is.

I don’t ship them, but there is a special bond between Azune and Bolaire I pray they explore more. Azune is really the kindest most loving character at the table, and his kindness and optimism to Bolaire warms my heart.

I want their friendship to grow

Also this is not a hate post to people who hate Bolaire, you’re allowed to have your opinion.

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