ERYKA

i just wanna stay in bed forever. sleeping feels easier than being awake

i feel so lonely

shit i guess it’s depression episode again

i just realized i don’t have a best friend. somehow, i’m always the second choice, and that hurts more than i expected.

Everyone only wants you when you're happy, energetic, looking good, and never a mess

okay no one hates me

it’s been forever, but I finally feel that hypomania again and none of my friends are answering me. do they hate me or just don’t wanna talk? my good mood is already turning into irritation, and this is really not what I fucking expected…

i just wanna be loved back

the other day my mom told me no one needs me, no one loves me, that i don’t even have a boyfriend or anything, right after i told her how much that already bothers me. thanks mom. i don’t think i’ve ever felt worse

i recently thought that i’m not bipolar at all and i’m fine so i stopped taking my medication. needless to say i’m seriously fucked up

i wanted this page to be like a diary, but so far it's more like "i only remember this place when I'm depressed"

i keep feeling bad that the people close to me have to deal with my bipolar ass, somehow handle me… but they don’t

i mourn the family relationships i never had

i feel like i’m gonna die soon