Cicis/Cheeze

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Trans boy Semo who kind of decided to live his life as a boy—cut his hair, copying the style of the boys around him—when he was like 6 and in the orphanage, because it felt right, and most of the kids just went along with it

He was still the weird kid who never had real friends, but the shift from being pushed to make friends with girls to being pressured to befriend boys was rather obvious

The only pushback was from some of the adults because to them, he was still a “she”, but after a while, they relented.

Then, years later, when he meets the twins and Dingyo and then everyone else, it takes a while for it to click inside his head that he’s genuinely just a boy in their eyes

and the only person out of the entire team who knows he “used to be a girl” is Limo bcs Limo obviously has access to all Semo’s legal documents

And then the first time he actually goes through gender dysphoria is because he goes through puberty and it turns out his biology doesn’t align with his identity.

Then he finally gets to start having actual gender affirming care, not just cutting his hair short every time he starts looking a little too girly for his comfort.

It’s bliss, getting to have his body obey his mind finally.

And they try to affirm (is that the right word? I can’t English) his masculinity by. uh. caring even less abt him getting hurt ig. Because “he’s a strong masculine guy, he’ll be fine”.

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Trans girl Semo who gradually starts becoming uncomfortable with everyone treating “him” like a handsome “boy”.

Cringing whenever the boys bring “him” along to hang out and call it “boys’ night”, skin crawling whenever Limo introduces “him” as his son or Hansu refers to “him” as an older brother

Then meeting Dingyo again and hanging out with her more often without the other boys there. And they’re all pretty sure “he”’s into her.

Until “he” finally comes to the realization that all she wants from Dingyo is to teach her how to be seen as a girl.

She doesn’t come out yet, but starts copying Dingyo and Yujin’s mannerisms. How they walk, how they move their hands when they’re talking, etc.

She starts buying more feminine clothes. Not full-on dresses and skirts yet, though. More like cardigans, turtlenecks, etc etc. Anything to make her look softer.

Starts growing her hair out, but not really styling it other than tying it with a cute hairtie (like, one of those fuzzy pastel ones, for example).

Then finally coming out publicly after the boys pressured her to tell them why she’s been dressing and acting differently lately

They accept her. They love Semo. It takes a while for everyone to shift to using feminine terms and pronouns for her, but it does end up happening.

She gets HRT, the adults buy her dresses, she’s allowed to hang out with girls more often and take up more ‘feminine’ hobbies without being judged. And she’s so happy.

But they still treat her like shit, don’t get me wrong. That’s kind of Semo’s fate. They just treat her like feminine shit now.

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Nonbinary Semo who notices how everyone treats them as the gender that is more convenient in each situation.

Most times they’re treated like a boy, in how people expect them to not be too emotional in emotional situations, and to always be ready to be the strength people need.

Sometimes they’re treated like a girl, in how people treat them only as an extension of their relationships—especially as Limo’s child—and only see them for what their body can do and how pretty their face is.

They hate that.

But sometimes, they do get treated neutrally. Not masculinized, not feminized, but just neutral.

People giving them gender-neutral nicknames, telling them they’re good-looking instead of specifically pretty or handsome, etc.

They love that.

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Agender Semo who truly does not give a shit and is pissed because everyone keeps trying to push them into all these boxes.

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I tried giving lashes. An attempt was made. It sucks but an attempt was made.

I drew highlights. Decided “No actually, the dull look is what I’m going for”

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// Translation:

Final Grade/Score: 89.38

Distance: 521703.97 meters