Doing thesis work again - well, minutes before I opened tumblr and began writing this - but Iām confronted again by this horrible habit of mine. Whenever I think of putting off work, I think about my other classmates who havenāt started/havenāt submitted drafts/havenāt edited yet to validate my procrastination. And then when one of themĀ āsurpassesā my work progress I get stressed out about it! What is wrong with me? Itās super not healthy and I wanna change this outlook but when your enemy is your own mind it can get hard sometimes. I am my own enabler.
Also, itās such an asshole move, comparing my progress against those that areĀ ābehind meā it terms of work completion. Weāre going through the same thing; we get anxious thinking about when to start, we didnāt know and still donāt know how to start our writing, some of us have unresponsive advisers! How could I compare myself to that, and then - not even subconsciously - feel better about putting off work?
I need to fucking work on minding my own damn business.
