Suffer with me

Together 💗

Hm? I could never regret my apprentices! They're all very dear to me!

...

What do you mean by that.

I have nothing in my eye.

Her image — her ideal future — ate her. Nothing remained of her except the dream and the drive toward that ideal she created.

And over time — she became exactly who she wanted to be: the perfect Navigator of the Astral Express.

She stepped into that future with joy and determination. She left behind the terminally ill girl. All that fear and childhood — left behind. The girl in the wheelchair — dying from a curse — stayed in the past.

The only thing connecting her to the real Himeko is the dream — and the resolve.

And no one — looking at Himeko now — would see who she used to be.

And that eats her.

Because she knows — this is a lonely path. Her past shaped her — and her view of the world, her perspective — is colored by that experience. She is alone in her place and her pursuit.

She is a child — who had no future — only a dream.

No one knows. No one saw how she started this journey — what sacrifices, what wounds she carries. Her trauma and pain — those aren't things that belong to the present Navigator.

None of them see that hee journey starts from blood, fear, hopeless drem, sacrifice and loneliness because she want change it to "it's start from a dream...and hope"

The real Navigator isn't afraid — so she buries her fear as deep as possible.

The real Navigator is gentle and kind — so she stays gentle and kind.

The real Navigator paves the way forward — so she doesn't dare look back.

The real Navigator upholds the Trailblaze — even in the face of the apocalypse — so she throws herself into battles with monsters and never retreats.

The real Navigator isn't afraid to stand before people — no matter their position — and defend the principles of the Trailblaze. So she stands before corporation heads, Geniuses, kings — and declares: "I am the Navigator of the Astral Express — and this is the path of the Trailblaze."

In the end — she becomes the future she dreamed of.

And that eats her.

Because no one sees her struggle. No one sees her fears.

She is who she wanted to be.

She is who she dreamed to be.

And between her and others — there's an invisible wall of perfection and secrets — and it eats her.

Of course — in the end — she looks at her past.

And she has to admit — she's still ready to move forward — no matter the cost. But she doesn't have to do it alone anymore. Not anymore.

Because now — she's moving beyond the ideal future.

She can allow herself to stop being perfect — because there are people who will walk beside her.

And in this moment she finally can move forward. To become someone more that perfect navigator.

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