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Gaming Dice.

I know where some of this has come from (looking at you, gaslighting workplace), but it's reached its way into the most stupid places? My therapist didn't respond to an email promptly so my brain was like "you're being ignored"???

It's just hard when it feels like I bend myself into knots in order to make and maintain friendships, and then if I don't open a conversation with someone it just,,, never happens? feelsbadfam.

(I don't expect this to go anywhere, I just wanted to vent and I don't think any of my IRL peeps know about here lol)

(also if you're seeing this please know you're loved and worthy of attention, care and compassion)

I wanna know what it's like to be crushed on, to have someone flirt with me and tell me that I'm desirable to them, and in a way that's more than just "pity for a friend" way yk?

I wanna know that someone wants to talk to me, that they enjoy my company and being around me.

Another thing to consider is when your brain is going “you’re being ignored,” what it’s really doing is signaling your need for comfort and human connection. This whole ‘burdening,’ people thinking needs to be reframed. Everyone takes up space, time, energy, emotion. You’re allowed to have a shoulder to cry on, to have a trusted friend to rely on. If you think you are a ‘burden’ to a friend then maybe that friend doesn’t have the capacity to be a close friend to you where you can have that deep connection. It’s okay to have those friends too, but maybe try looking elsewhere for deeper friendships.

I know where some of this has come from (looking at you, gaslighting workplace), but it's reached its way into the most stupid places? My therapist didn't respond to an email promptly so my brain was like "you're being ignored"???

It's just hard when it feels like I bend myself into knots in order to make and maintain friendships, and then if I don't open a conversation with someone it just,,, never happens? feelsbadfam.

(I don't expect this to go anywhere, I just wanted to vent and I don't think any of my IRL peeps know about here lol)

(also if you're seeing this please know you're loved and worthy of attention, care and compassion)

I wanna know what it's like to be crushed on, to have someone flirt with me and tell me that I'm desirable to them, and in a way that's more than just "pity for a friend" way yk?

I wanna know that someone wants to talk to me, that they enjoy my company and being around me.

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