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having a freeze response to stress is so funny in the context of normal adult stressors. millions of years of evolution are trying to tell me that the email will not find me if i stay very still and do nothing

#I cried when some interviewer asked why it took so long to make the 2nd movie and Winona said 'we were waiting for her. We were waiting for#her to be born. '#I love them

actually i love growing older and learning how i work as a person like realizing what kinds of fabrics feel best on my skin or what brand of yogurt i like best or how I want to be touched. watching myself change, enjoying brussel sprouts when I used to hate them as a child, understanding why I got angry in that one conversation 10 years ago… there are so many mysteries inside me that i have yet to unravel and there will always be more and sometimes i think maybe its all worth it

the only reason why ten year old girls are destroying stupidly overpriced products at sephora to make “skincare smoothies” is because they aren’t being given access to a yard with a variety of mud, sticks, rocks, puddles, and old ceramic planters to make potions in. the children yearn for the apothecary

shame is so frustratingly paralyzing. like oh i'm ashamed i didn't do this thing im supposed to do and the guilt and embarrassment is cooking me from the inside out so bad that i can't face the thing or do the thing, even tho doing the thing would mitigate the hot boiling lava of shame currently giving me an ulcer