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Elk A. Scott
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Elk (they/them). Writer of fiction and poetry in range of genre and style, but always seeking to capture the beauty in darkness. elkambrosescott.carrd.co
Hi there, and glad tidings. My name is Elk Ambrose Scott. Iβm a speculative fiction writer, poet and full-time creature of the night. By that I mean, of course, that I willingly chose the night shift and the vampirism allegations are completely false. Welcome to my primary Tumblr home, where I post thoughts on writing, tiny pieces of beautiful darkness, and occasionally Berserk shitposts.Β
My work is primarily focused on dark, macabre themes but not without moments of hope and lightness. The wound is the place where the light enters, after all, according to the poet Rumi. I approach my writing from my lens as a queer and disabled person, and I also had to promise that Iβd include references to blood or death in everything when I signed my paperwork to be alt.Β
I think it goes without saying, but AI does not touch my work in any capacity. If they want my work, they need to pay me.
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Iβve been on Tumblr since around 2013 in various ways. I have seen a lot in my time here, but I keep coming back like comfort watching the same video of a puppy running into a mirror. I am the puppy. Tumblr is the mirror.Β
I have to be careful about research so I donβt fall into a rabbit hole. Shout out to my friend [REDACTED] who helps me with anything tech related, and to my husband for being my living action figure and standing in ridiculous poses or dragging me across the floor by my leg to get the nuance of a scene juuust right.Β
I have been publishing work long enough that some of it is out of print. This is unfortunate, as some of the only copies exist on the hard drive of the other contributors and in the annals of my file systems. One day Iβll share some of it here, with commentary!
I will soon be posting more about it, but I have a series of pieces that I donβt think will find a home with traditional publishing, and I am going to post them here. The series is called Adamantine and is a collection of novellas focused on Greek mythology. The series is queer, dark and based on a short story that Iβve had published (Runneth Over--link to the publication in the carrd above!).Β
Synopsis:
In Ancient Greece, following the death of Zeus, heroes and monsters of myth and legend face the twilight of their world and their past sins colliding as they navigate a world where only the most powerful force of all is promised: love.Β
Here's the project announcement page. <3
I will be posting this on Royal Road at https://www.royalroad.com/profile/974091/fictions
Tags will be updated as more of the project is posted.
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In art, we stand on the shoulders of giants at all times. This is especially true of retellings, which are a staple of storytelling media since time immemorial. Iβm preparing to share my own retelling myself very soon (!!!) and I wanted to highlight the shoulders that Iβm standing on. Here are some of the people here on Tumblr whoβve been inspiring me on my journey through writing this:
One of my most recent favourites that I want to highlight is @artefarte and their project, Flowers for the Messenger God. Iβm enjoying the art, both the art in their comic and the art they post on their page, and they have so much talent?! Like what?! The way theyβve characterized these figures is really interesting, and they really bring Ancient Greece to life (as far as I know, I havenβt been to Ancient Greece before).Β
@alisalikestodraw is so talented itβs unbelievable. I enjoy their rough sketches a lot, the emotions and facial expressions they capture are really expressive and emotive and makes you see these figures in a new way. They did a gorgeous piece of Dionysus and itβs justβ¦no words. So good.Β
@community-gardenss was a huge inspiration for the way I characterized Asterius in Adamantine. In fact, their art of the beloved little cow boy kind of kicked off this current iteration of my retellings because of how tender and sweet they are and the tragedy of it all andβ¦their style is so beautiful and theyβre so versatile, every piece is so gorgeous. Thank you for inspiring me, Gardens.Β
I never had to ask to knowβ
like breath, like pulse, like something
pressed deep into bone.
It has always lived in me.
There was no revelation, no sudden bloomβ
only the slow untangling of what was always there.
But you look at me like overgrowth,
like something unwelcome curling through cracks,
roots pushing up through pavement, breaking the lines
you traced in stoneβ
unnatural, you say,
though it grows all the same.
And I will not apologize for the way I wish to hold her.
You donβt know why it unsettles youβ
only that it does.
That it takes up space
where you never meant to leave any.
You mistake my hands for something reaching too far,
my mouth for something tainted,
because they love gently and without shame.
You say love should not feel like thisβ
as if love must bend to your will,
must bloom only where you allow.
But love is wild by nature.
It does not yield to walls built from fear.
It moves in ways you do not expectβ
it is soft and unshaken,
pressing against my ribs
and against a body
you swore I was never meant to love.
When she looks at me, I feel it like sunlightβ
heavy and warm where it rests on my chest.
You see the way she holds me,
and it bothers you, though you cannot say why.
Still, you call it unnaturalβ
as if love were a thing to be tamed,
as if it needed your permission to exist.
As if the rain asks before it falls.
As if the ivy begs before it climbs.
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I follow people back and im just sending an ask to say hello. Also that i have stalked your profile and you seem insane and wonderful and its my honour as a new tumblrina to be moots :)
Stay safe and write well
Hi Crow!
Thank you so much! I'm delighted to be moots. I stalked your profile as well and I love your art and calmly chaotic energy. Looking forward to being on this Tumblr journey together, and I wish you safety and wellness right back. :)
What does it mean to be cursed? What does it mean to be controlled? What would you sacrifice for your own freedom?
First official game from MXFT Studios, the brainchild of myself (lead writer) and @yfnh (tech lead, co-writer) about Diarmuid ua Duibhane, knight of Fionn from the Fenian cycle. Pay what you want, and support a small indie studio because you're attractive and cool.
Please heed the content warnings.
More projects coming soon. Thank you in advance for taking a chance on us. <3
Wow thought I could avoid using my opposite action skill today but here we are. Feeling a bit hopeless, but in the spirit of flagellant: kill the Junko Enoshima in your brain. you are not purposefully ignorant, you are putting your mental health first. you are not being naive you literally know the value of hope. make dirt easy dill pickle chip dip and dunk a ripple chip in and maybe you'll feel better
This is an Elk special: better than TikTok dill pickle chip dip (more aesthetic than a jar full of dip with pickles sticking out the top and getting dip all over your table and not where it belongs...on your chip)
Ingredients:
Garlic dill pickles, chopped (5-8 pickles)
Sour cream (full fat) - 1 cup
Mayo (full fat) - 1 cup
Fresh dill, chopped- 12 sprigs, but add that with your heart
Black pepper (sprinkle, to taste)
Ground mustard (1/2 teaspoon to start, to taste)
Garlic powder (1/2 teaspoon, to taste but don't get crazy)
Salt (1/2 teaspoon to 1 teaspoon, but again: don't get crazy, there is salt in the pickles)
Splash of pickle juice
Mix all that shit together and let it set for four hours at least and then bingo bango bongo, you have delicious chip dip that will keep for about a week (could keep longer, but it has never lasted that long in my house)
And there you have it. Kill the Junko in your brain with the power of chip dip.
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βDo human women really wear...this, to prove their devotion to their mates?β Ankla asked, wiping her fingers on her tattered pants. βIt seems a little pointless, doesnβt it?β
The undercity doesn't reward kindness, and Ren knows better than to get involved. She survives by fixing broken machines, keeping her head down, and never, ever letting anyone close. But when she finds a discarded pleasure android slumped in a filthy corridorβstill powered, still waiting for orders, still offering a service no one asked forβwalking away feels like becoming the thing she's spent years trying not to be.
The android has no name, no concept ofΒ want, and no script for a human who refuses to use her. Ren has a history that makes every touch a negotiation and every kindness suspect. What begins as a reluctant rescue becomes something quieter and more difficult: two people, one synthetic, learning what it means to have a selfβand what it costs to let someone else see it.
Chapter 1
The rain down here wasn't rain. Rain came from a sky. This was condensation from the levels aboveβgreasy, chemical, picking up whatever it dripped through on the way down. Rust, mostly. Sometimes piss. Sometimes something that had died in a vent and was still in the process of becoming a smell. Ren had learned years ago not to look up when a drop hit her neck. You didn't want to know.
She kept her head down. Habit, mostly, but also math. The emergency lights on this level were failing again, their glow barely enough to separate puddle from solid ground, and a twisted ankle meant lost work. Lost work meant skipped meals. Ren's boots knew the difference anyway. Thousands of hours walking these corridors had taught her feet their own kind of vision.
Her forearms achedβa deep, specific throb along the seam where flesh met the reinforcement plate. Always the first place to complain. She'd spent the last two hours hauling a generator up three flights for a mechanic who'd paid half what he'd promised and acted like she should be grateful for the exposure. She'd known the job was bad math from the start. She'd taken it anyway. That was the part that stuck in her throat.
She shifted the strap of her utility vest. The capacitors inside dug into her spine. Inventory, such as it was. Scavenged wiring. A couple of data chips she hadn't tested yet. Nothing worth the weight. The neural jack at the base of her skull itched where her collar rubbed the seal. She'd need to clean it when she got home. Add it to the list.
Just get home. Patch the cell. Sleep for four hours. Repeat.
The prayer ran on a low loop in the back of her head. Almost comforting. Four walls, a workbench, the quiet hum of her charging station. She didn't need anything else. Didn't want anything else. Wants were a liability. Wants made you stupid. She had learned that the hard way, back before the mods, back when she'd wanted things she couldn't afford and paid for them in ways that still surfaced in her dreams without warning.
She hated being out this late. The upper-level drones had been sweeping the main alleys againβcops or corporate or whatever passed for authority this weekβand she didn't have the patience for another scan-and-question routine. Her ID was clean enough. Her mods were all registered, mostly. But the questions always lingered too long on the neural jack, on the reinforced hands, on the way her jaw sat just a little too sharp under the right light. Better to risk the derelict blocks than get clocked by some bored security rig with a hard-on for power.
She was halfway down the corridor when her ocular implant pinged.
Faint heat signature.Barely above ambient. The diagnostic overlay flickered on her view automatically, she'd set it to manual trigger months ago, but the implant had its own ideas about what was worth flagging, and apparently a cold corpse of a power cell didn't qualify. A cool violet-blue glow pulsed from the junction up ahead. Steady. Not the arrhythmic stutter of a dying strip. Not the flicker of a fire. Something still running. Something still powered.
Ren slowed down.
Probably a drone, she told herself. Crashed. Good salvage. She'd check it, strip the usable parts, and be home in an hour. Clean. Simple. A transaction.
She stopped anyway.
The pause stretched. Water dripped from the edge of her vest and hit the cracked floor with a sound like a metronome counting down to nothing. The only other noises were the distant hum of the city far above her and the quiet buzz of her ocular implant trying to focus through the dark.
She took a step. Then another one.
The glow resolved into a pair of dim eyes.
The android was slumped against the crumbling concrete like someone had simply dropped her and kept walking. Long silver-white hair, matted and streaked with grime, clung to her face and shoulders. Pale synthetic skin, ugly tears across her left shoulder and thigh, exposing delicate lattices of glowing blue circuitry beneath. The damage pattern was wrong. Not impact damage from a fall or a fight. Deliberate. Someone had ripped the outer layer away.
Her elegant frame, clearly built for upper-level clients, looked painfully out of place among the filth and broken pipes. What little clothing remained was torn black lace, barely covering anything, soaked through and clinging to her body like a second skin.
Companion model, Ren's brain catalogued automatically. CX series. Looks like an 8, maybe. Someone paid sixty, seventy thousand creds for this unit. Definitely more than what i make in a year
And then they just threw her away.
The androidβs head shifted slightly at the sound of Ren's boots. Violet-blue optics flickered, struggling to maintain focus through the rain and low power. For a second, Ren thought she might be completely offline, that the flicker was just residual charge bleeding from a dying capacitor.
And then, she spoke.
Her voice was soft. Modulated. The kind of voice that had been designed to sound pleasant no matter what condition the unit was in.
The kind to make you feel served.
βDesignationβ¦β Her voice was soft, almost gentle despite the damage. βCX-29 Unit. Serial 49 Primary systems at eleven percent. Motor functions compromised.β
Ren didn't answer. Her tongue felt thick, glued to the roof of her mouth.
The android continued, her tone disturbingly calm, like she was reciting something sheβd said a thousand times before.
βThis unit remains capable of providing companionship and pleasure services. Please state your preferred configuration, orββ
βS- Stop.β
The word came out rougher than Ren meant it to.
The android went silent immediately. Her glowing eyes stayed locked on Renβs face, waiting with an eerie and uncanny kind of patience.
Ren felt a cold settle on her chest.
She knew that tone. That automatic offering. The way someone could be trained to present itself like an object the second another person got close. She shook her head, tring to not think, to not remember, this past. She exhaled slowly through her nose, her jaw tight.
βIβm not here for that,β she said, quieter this time.
The android tilted her head slightly, processing. A thin stream of water ran down her cheek from her wet hair.
ββ¦Query,β she said after a beat. βYour intent?β
Ren looked at her for a long moment.
Every rational part of her brain telling her to turn around and keep walking. Androids like this didnβt end up discarded in places like this without reason. She was probably tagged, or glitching, or worse. Getting involved was asking for trouble.
But the way she was sittingβ¦
The way she was just... waiting. Like she'd already been thrown away and hadn't figured it out yet.
Like she expected to be left in the dark and wasn't going to waste power hoping otherwise.
Ren's hands uncurled at her sides. She felt the faint click of her finger joints realigning, the soft hum of the micro-tools settling back into standby. Her voice, when it came, was rougher than she intended. Not angry. Just tired.
"Intentβ¦" she said, "is to get you out of this corridor before your circuits fry. If you'll let me
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Welcome to DBT tools with Elk, where we do the opposite action of how we feel so the horrors don't drag us to hell! On today's episode: instead of doom posting, dog posting! My dog Princess usually looks like she's having a panic attack or has seen through time in every picture I take, so please enjoy these pictures of my dog where she actually looks like she's enjoying life