self-explanatory

thing is i dont think the heated rivalry fandom is uniquely bad its just Big. there's more bad apples bc theres More apples

Thank you divorce for all you've done for music

“but you know me, i’m lazy” “i don’t know that side of you at all” kills me. i can’t even talk about it

i don’t know you so i’m not saying it’s not there at all. but i have known your body and your company and your relentless pursuit and the pleasure it brings for years and you have splayed your heart out for me and it is an ugly and twisted and jealous thing and neither of us knows what we want. but i don’t know that side of you at all. eight years, if there is that side to you, i haven’t seen it. little do i know that in your mind that’s all there is to you. i don’t know that side of you at all.

i am so ashamed. and everything i am and have is tinted by the grime of some deep and dark failure that only the people who despise me most and know me best are keenly aware of. what i have i don’t deserve, what i don’t have i’ll never be good enough for. you know me, i’m lazy. but maybe this. the thing nobody knows about, that no one can touch or judge or peer into, maybe this is true. so i offer up my shame and hope you’ll take me anyway. you know me, i’m lazy.

also i love pussy brother what’s up!!!!!! #lmao

As long as I keep my desire under control I’ll never have to tell the secret of just how deep it goes. As long as no one sparks the flint I’m safe.

conçois feels like a distant memory at this point like i sincerely hope he was fucking that old— [remembers some of my mutuals are around françois' age] Age appropriate— [remembers there's nothing wrong with the natural process of aging] old man

and then with shane it's just like. oh this guy's life is perfect. i wonder what's wrong with him. and then the very next second it's like does shane think a suit and tie is necessary for all sex??? or just gay sex???

they should invent a more pleasurable way to be a creature of discipline

hollanov divorce AU, they still carpool to practice so the team doesn't find out that shane moved into one of his investment properties and left ilya in their haunted house with their wedding photos on the walls and lube between the couch cushions and the jumpscare of shane's stupid fucking protein powder each time he wants a glass from the cabinet. and he could should would throw it away but the flavor's been discontinued and it's shane's favorite. ilya feels pathetic about this until the day he can't find his mouthguard and before he can say anything, shane's crossing the locker room with one of ilya's spares in hand like he's been carrying it in his gear bag this whole time

I need 2 scruff him