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Relevant Alter Intros

all progged alters have been deprogged enough that it's safe to post this. blanket TW for CSA, RAMCOA, chains/puppet imagery, dogs, horror imagery, blood, and CSEM.

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aaand to lighten things up, some alter intros for the non-progged parts who run this page :)

Solace

they/she, 22, daily life part/life coordinator

song: cassiopeia (bears in trees)

Sophie

she/her, 6-7, deprogramming coordinator/information holder

song: see ya! (timothy heller)

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Happy

she/her, 5, result of mine's fusion who gets to be a kid now

song: my body's my buddy (tessa violet and brye)

#alter intros

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t4timekeeper

everyone start treating incest survivors with basic human decency now

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i would say “everyone be kinder to incest survivors” but apparently that is too high a bar so i’ll settle for not being fetish mined or treated like a punchline or a sex object for once

these past few days as a ramcoa/itbc survivor is like DO YOU FUCKING BELIEVE US NOW??? IS IT FINALLY REAL ENOUGH YET???? DO YOU FEEL EVEN A LITTLE BIT BAD FOR CALLING US LIARS?????

i know. i know you didn't want it to be real. i know your brain protected you from the reality with denial. but please imagine what it's like to have gone through something like this and being called an attention seeking conspiracy theorist every time you try to speak up about it. my childhood was not satanic panic propaganda, it actually happened. if you can believe what's in those files, you can believe me. none of what i read was shocking to me. i lived it. and anyone who called me or another survivor a liar because "that kind of thing doesn't happen in real life" owes us all a huge apology.

#ramcoa #tbmc #hc did #itbc survivor #ritual abuse #organized abuse #organised abuse #ramcoa survivor #epstein files #epstein emails #csa #csam survivor

sanifairbon-bande

me: *having a regular day*

my Hell Brain: newsflash! there could be cp of you on the internet! how do you feel about that? :-)

me:

too-many-mes

Animal-On-Child Sexual Abuse (sexual abuse which involves animals forced to abuse a child or children) is much more common than people think or realize, and I am not a survivor, but I want everyone who is a survivor to know that I promise you are absolutely not alone in your experiences. These things are hard to talk about. I sympathize and empathize with that. I want to put a positivity post out there.

I see you. I hear you. And I believe you.

#<3 #for puppy

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update: mine has fused with another child part called bingo, who held good memories from our early school days. her new name is happy, because it's what she deserves to be.

you know, looking back on it i should've realised i was a boy when a catholic priest sexually abused me. better late than never i guess #transgender

#hc did #religious trauma #csa /

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starmolts

I'm sorry, I didn't know. 2024, digital painting (clip studio paint)

A piece about having to re-parent yourself and the relationship we have with one of our youngest alters.

planesofdelusion

programming things that suck:

programmed migraines

programmed seizures

programmed arousal

flood programs

spin programs

God, everything about being programmed is awful

#programmed speech loss too :/#lasted for a few months it was ridiculous #and all because our therapist talked to anastas once

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i wonder if people who 'don't believe' in RA believe in the existence of child marriage, a form of RA that demonstrably exists. maybe they do believe it, but think it 'doesn't happen here [read: western countries]', or that because they associate RA with satanism that all RA must be SRA.

i wonder if people who 'don't believe' in RA (even though it's been 4 decades since satanic panic started) understand what a copycat criminal is. my therapist and i are fully like 'yeah they made an auction look like a satanic ritual to scare the kids into not talking out of fear of not being believed'. if this hadn't happened after satanic panic they wouldn't have done it like that.

i wonder if people who 'don't believe' in RA know that they're basically telling abuse groups that they will take their side over a child's, as long as the abuse (as described by a child) sounds 'satanic panic' enough to cross that threshold between 'normal' sexual/physical/religious abuse and RA.

i wonder if people who 'don't believe' in RA think that what happened to me didn't exist, or just that i should shut up about it.

#hc did #ramcoa #tbmc #ritual abuse #religious trauma #ramcoa denial /

my family all cried when the family therapist told them about aimee (with my permission). she told them how she died and everything. my dad said that it was murder and idk why it hadn't clicked for me until he said it. the next session, my brother said most of his individual therapy session was taken up by that. the family therapist said that our fucked up family dynamic came from my trauma and its effects on my health etc.

i wish this had never happened. i wish it wasn't a burden on my whole family. i know it wasn't my fault but i still feel like the one who caused all of their pain.

#hc did #ramcoa #tbmc #infant death /

milk5

maybe if we torture this kid harder our lives will get even more awesome

#my abusers:

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Relevant Alter Intros

all progged alters have been deprogged enough that it's safe to post this. blanket TW for CSA, RAMCOA, chains/puppet imagery, dogs, horror imagery, blood, and CSEM.

castlesdump

aaand to lighten things up, some alter intros for the non-progged parts who run this page :)

Solace

they/she, 22, daily life part/life coordinator

song: cassiopeia (bears in trees)

Sophie

she/her, 6-7, deprogramming coordinator/information holder

song: see ya! (timothy heller)

#alter intros

Relevant Alter Intros

all progged alters have been deprogged enough that it's safe to post this. blanket TW for CSA, RAMCOA, chains/puppet imagery, dogs, horror imagery, blood, and CSEM.

#hc did #ramcoa #tbmc #religious trauma #alter intros

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many-but-one

Okay everyone, I have to talk about this movie my partner and I went to see together. Some of you may have seen info about it before. It is called Wild Robot. (Trailer linked)

This movie could not get any more overt about its message about “overriding your programming.” Specifically, overriding your programming and becoming “more than what you were programmed to be” and overriding your programming in order to help each other and keep each other safe. Another big theme is deciding not to return to the programmers to “get fixed.” Although, spoiler alert, it does sort of happen, but not in the way you think. It has a happy ending.

This movie was delightful, heartwarming, adorable, and incredibly impactful for our system to see, especially our parts who are young and still a bit ingrained with their programming. While we consider ourselves fully deprogrammed in the “parts are willing to not run their programming” way, they still have to process a lot of the traumas that caused the programming and fully deconstruct the narratives they were taught about themselves. Seeing this movie really hit hard for a lot of these parts who are still struggling with this.

I highly, highly recommend this movie to any RAMCOA or programmed system who feels this sort of message being delivered in a heartwarming kid’s movie format may be of help. There’s tons of media geared towards teens and adults about overriding programming (Detroit: Become Human was a huge hit for our parts even before the lesser knowing ones even realized why, for example) but we have never seen a movie geared towards children with this message, and it may help systems whose young parts may need a different format of the same message!

#will be looking into it

angelscrucify

#flashing //#blood //#ask to tag

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