Arthur

I just wanna be skinny in the way a cis guy is

it is actually mind-blowing to see the ppl around me looking at food and not seeing calories. just straight up not thinking abt food until they’re hungry & eating till they’re satisfied automatically. like their lives don’t revolve around food and calories and numbers and they don’t feel the urge to binge bc they went 5cals over their limit and they’ve ruined everything and they don’t have panic attacks over going to a restaurant,?

healthy coping mechanism are so boring like bitch I don’t want to color I want to do drugs

Most thinspo is like “rich thin woman in dainty gold jewelry and lace drinking champagne” but I want “little rat ghoul boy” you kno?

i want stupid little goth boy thinspo please

you’re not alone on this. there’s a feeling of control unlike any other when i restrict. it’s honestly like a coping mechanism for me, and if something bad happens in my day i can always fall back onto it. it’s always there for me in a messed up way. 

Wait this is actually realistic. I have to do this.