oh. is there a word for what it feels like, watching someone you loved dearly, even if only as a friend, watching them just… go. like not pack their bags, not leave in a huff, just slowly drift off with their more exciting people, forgetting to speak to you, forgetting your birthday, forgetting they said they loved you too. is there a word for the way the beetles come live in your bones during that. how you feel stuck, stuck like the universe is expanding just to get away from you, like this massively important person never saw anything important in you
















