Unexpected Incoherency

“You’ll be kissing the flagstone soon.”

i’m so good at the drinking games bUT that dice game is too much for my one functioning braincell

YES THANK YOU

like yeah sure having a brain wired to want to sleep from 2am to 10am wouldn’t suck if society didn’t make it suck, but you know what would always suck?

-having a hard time making friends because i miss all the social cues and have no volume control, talk over other people, and have no filter to stop me talking about inappropriate topics

-difficulty maintaining relationships with people you don’t see every day

-constantly lose things

-personal hygiene is Hard

-can’t focus on doing something i WANT to do unless it happens to be the most engaging thing around at the moment. If it’s also something i NEED to do? oof.

-can’t follow through and complete long-term projects

-can’t plan for future

-shitty spatial reasoning

-shitty emotional regulation

the arguments of “oh but hyperfocus would be so USEFUL for persistence hunting!” or “no attention span so you’d notice berries!!” just do NOT hold any water for me because

-do you know how goddamn fucking BORING persistence hunting would be. Newsflash, i don’t control what i hyperfocus on, it just kind of HAPPENS. And whatever it is has to be a constant source of dopamine. Following around a deer for a few hours or days would be SUPREMELY unlikely to be a constant dopamine hit. Forcing yourself to attempt to do something that is NOT engaging the brain is almost physically painful to an ADHD brain. We’d be way more likely to get distracted by something else and lose the deer.

-”notice berries” no?? that doesn’t even make sense? Attention jumping around doesn’t mean you notice everything, it means your focus jumps to the most interesting (read: brain stimulating) thing around. Other people notice the same things, their brains just don’t force them to immediately devote all of their attention to it. and tbh berries are only occasionally going to be the most interesting thing around, with how my weasel brain works i’d be way more likely to walk right past the berries 80 times without ever seeing them

Day 16: Shrike

fetch quests ft. this quest that made it kind of look like my worgen was carrying this baby tauren in a basket in her mouth because her hands were completely free and it was hovering in front of her face

also ft this strange little model of a baby tauren that just Stares

My father is leaving on a road-trip to do some construction work for a client early in the morning and woke me from a nap to say goodbye. I got to my feet, hugged him, and heard him say, “Take care of yourself and your mother for me.”

The next thing I knew, I was lying on my back on the living room floor. I was first aware of the sound of my own breathing—loud and heavy and ragged—and the little sliver of consciousness that was afforded to me thought, Oh no... my parents will hear me and think I’m having sex!

Then I noticed that I was still convulsing and both my parents were kneeling over me, screaming and cradling my head. “I’m... so sorry...” I whispered, mortified and embarrassed. Once I realized what had happened (convulsive vasovagal syncope) I started laughing hysterically, which did not seem to reassure my parents.