Just another rainy night

I just fucked up and ruined my entire relationship.

Im starting to loose myself again and this time im not sure I have the energy to find me again.

I had the kind of love that you dream about. The kind that I thought was fake, only for fairy tales. The kind of love that was endless, the kind of love where I felt like I was the only person to walk the earth that you saw. I had your complete love and I crushed it. I opened up and when I did that I flooded the fairy tale world that you had created with me and I brought darkness with me. I brought the kind of darkness that kills everything in its path. I kept trying to get the darkness and the water to leave and no matter what, it wouldn't. So, I left our fairy tale land full of love barren and full of darkness.

I ruin everything

The emptiness is growing and I am growing tired of hoping people will notice it before it's too late.

I refuse to be left behind to fit your narrative of who I should be. I didn't survive my life for you to try to erase me.