BPD™

i’m just tryna have a nice time despite knowing facts and information

Go easy on me, I'm suicidal and anything can be the end of me

what is meant for you will not go looking for someone else.

Just because you don't have a "thing" to show for all your hard work, does not mean you weren't working very hard. Plenty of things like clarity, knowledge, or balance, are not tangible, but very worthwhile

“i love your personality” thanks it’s a disorder

It's okay to want a 'simple' life. You don't need to be someone who gets up at 5am, goes to the gym, does this and that. You don't need to have the most 'optimized' life to be allowed to be content. You decide what is important to you, not the people online or the people around you.

i need a capri sun and then i need to be shot

You are brave enough for what you need to do. You can be scared and you have the ability in you to do hard things.

“why can’t you be normal” I can’t. because of. my disordered ass. and because i’m so full of hate and rage

You don't have to force yourself to bounce back so quickly. I read something recently that said "when you come in from a rainstorm, you don't expect yourself to be dry and warm right away", and it really resonated with me. It's okay to take time to dry off and warm up. Take the time you need to process what happened to you.

i don’t know how to keep my problems to myself. some part of me always wants my pain to be seen by others. i just want someone to see that i’m hurting and understand.

mfs be like "I can handle your disorders" until your disorders disorder disorderly