bpd thoughts

might cancel this whole healing thing and start listening to the voices

I pretend to be lovable but I know, I know I’m not.

it’s so heartbreaking to realize that i’m not getting better.. it’s just phases of good, then bad, then repeat.. no matter how good i think i’m doing, it always seems to get bad again..

do you guys also ruin every good thing in your life or is that just me

"Your disorder doesn't define you! Your personality does!" - I don't know how to break it to you Norman, but this thing is called personality disorder.

you know it’s getting bad again when it’s harder not to relapse, every little things annoys the shit out of you, you want to crawl out of your skin, the distractions don’t help anymore and not even your favorite special little treat makes your day better

they will replace me so easily and never remember who i even was

maybe in another universe, I can ask for help when I need it.