you are having panic attack

2026 canadian screen award winner hudson williams

technically - technically - when he breaks, the first thing Ilya does - even before saying those three words in Russian - is kiss Shane's heart ❤️

"Maybe you should... do you want me to...?"

Wishing Shane Hollander a very slutty 35th birthday

I think their competition would be absolutely supercharged because they can control for more variables. They're always playing against the same team so it's truly head to head match ups in terms of who's putting up more points. You just know they're absolutely sick with it in front of the team too like everyone alllllways knows who's ahead

I think they treat selecting/training/trading for their wingers like horse racing. Like I think it'd become a league-wide thing where everyone's sorta always auditioning. Bood's gotta retire eventually right.

orders in poutine for dinner. it squeaks! decides he likes it.

hits the hotel gym to do bicep curls.

back to his room to shower. a fortifying cigarette.

half an hour in front of the mirror trying to decide between two nearly identical black tanks. eventually picks one. examines the arms. yeah, they're good.

can't go out into the hallway in his fuck-me shirt. carefully picks jacket to layer on top.

it's eight forty. debates merits of showing up early, but not worth the risk of spooking hollander. turns on the tv for fifteen minutes to practice his english, but everything on is stupid.

eight fifty-five. last look in the mirror. should he be wearing different underwear? he doesn't have time to change. whatever. it's fine.

an aspirational condom in his pocket. the elevator doors open with a soft ding. he probably shouldn't be half-hard in the hotel elevator.

FUCK, IT'S HOLLANDER'S MOTHER.

fuck, thank god, fuck, fuck. he is no longer half-hard in the hotel elevator. ilya's heart is pounding. he needs another cigarette.

with shane on his lap a la this gif of jude law in wilde