Regaining Focus

I was explaining my new symptoms I was experiencing to someone. They responded “You are unlocking new character achievements.” 💀💀💀

I don’t know about y’all but the October slide is October sliding a little early this year.

After matching with a guy on a dating app, we had chatted for a little bit as we got to know each other. I finally decided to just tell him my chronic illness. Not going to details, but just tell him that I have a chronic illness just to rip the Band-Aid off. To my surprise being asked questions about my illness, which was fine. however, he asked the question “does it affect you every day life?“. And at this point I was already scared because I knew that once I answered this things were going to change so I said, “yes it does affect my everyday life.” he immediately unmatched me.Obviously I’m disappointed because my fears came true. I am learning to accept myself, I wonder will anyone else accept me? There has been a little piece of me in the back of my mind who is scared that no man will want me. I don’t need a man. I will be fine without one. But with all this isolation, I can’t help but fantasize about the idea of having someone who loves all of me. I don’t wanna be alone forever.