i feel like i may never be able to lock in again. i feel like my brain is a rock in a shallow tidal zone, rapidly eroding

Y'all understand that it is a patient's right to refuse treatment, yes? You understand that this extends to psychiatric treatment? That there is something deeply troubling about immediately dismissing a patient exercising their right to refusal as Symptoms™? It's very important to me that you understand this.

This may seem like a really trivial thing compared to most disability struggles but: maintaining long hair is so hard is you are chronically ill. Have you ever tried brushing long hair after you haven't had the energy to deal with it and have just left it to its own devices for a week? 😬😬

It can be easy to confuse the two, but you don't actually "wish you were more disabled", you wish your disability was taken seriously and was properly accommodated and that you had access to the support and resources you need - and that desire is so valid. You deserve more. But the sad truth is that no level of disability actually guarantees a sufficient level of support. So you have to work to separate your very understandable desire for more support from the incorrect assumption that other disabled people are consistently receiving what you aren't. All of us are getting fucked over in this society, and no group of disabled people actually has it easy.

oh sick someone paved this whole road with good intentions. i wonder where it leads

i feel isolated n forgotten today in my sickbed in my dark room so i’m reaching out mentally and picturing all the other disabled people stuck in beds and rooms and facilities who are also reaching for someone. we can be that someone for each other. we understand one another. I love you all