*Stutters Agressively*

and i know that both Kakashi and Iruka (my faves) are very much indoctrinated and therefore hypocritical in the sense that they're both pseudo pacifist but both teach children how to kill people regardless

and i know that in a better ending, neither Kakashi nor Iruka have to forgive the people that hurt them, don't have to love the village that constantly ruins their life, nor do they feel the need to teach their precious little brother/son to also forgive the hand that repeatedly struck him

anyway we like pacing around together and ranting in the attic but sometimes instead of pacing one of us will just hang on the pole and spin, and the other person will watch on the beanbag, which makes for these really goofy conversations where the person on the bag will say something that gets the other persons goat, such as, hypothetically, that xylophones do not belong in rock music, and then the other person will go on a tirade about this, but they'll actually only be facing the Hot Take Speaker half of the time, what because of the pole, so the response will sound something like

I can't believe

you would even suggest such

a stupid opinion. You've

been to a Danny Elfman

concert! How can you

have heard Oingo Boingo

live and say with a straight face

that they alone do not justify

rock and roll xylophones

and then that person will continue until they get too dizzy, then they'll get off the pole, and by unspoken agreement, the person on the bag will get up and trade places with them to deliver their rebuttal while also spinning and it just creates this sort of crazy strip-court lawyers debating absolute nonsense for no reason kind of vibe that frankly just really does it for us.

8,299,156,200 people currently here. More born every second. More die every day. Too soon, too long, inevitable, preventable.

8 billion people on the planet. 8 billion lives that flash across our screens or papers or daydreams everyday. 8 billion reasons to keep working toileously, hoping, demanding, praying, screaming.

We want to live. 8 billion people who just want to live in a world that's worth it.

8 billion people, 52 billion hours from homo sapiens' first introduction.

And somehow,

Some way,

I found you.

I was born with a will to learn, and I chose to learn how to love. And I choose to love you. I choose to love you until I can't- even then, a part of me will still love you anyway.

I'll love you in the way we make our coffee.

I'll love you in the way we still complain about fast fashion that isn't even good.

I'll love you in every single what-if, every if only, every yes, and-, that we deign to think... even if only to ourselves

I'll love the you that you don't talk about. I'll love the you that you cringe at. I'll love the you that you hated becoming. I'll love the you that can't bear to love yourself. And of course, I'll love the you that does, as well.

I was born with a will to learn. And 8 billion lives to love. And 8 billion lives to learn about. And 8 billion lives to cry for. And hopefully, a couple lives that stick close me to remind me what love is. How. Why I still should. And to love myself, because 7.00099 billion doesn't have the jennies (je ne sais quoi)(I love you for that too, by the way.)(I hope you laughed).

I was born with a soul that wants to learn how to love everything I have and will ever see!!

I'm so, so happy I can love you. Thank you!

Thank you that I'm here. With you, loving you until I can't anymore. Don't worry though, death is only as permanent as you think it is. I sigh CO2 into the air like my grandfather did. I smile at a lovely, verdant tree- that will convert it back into oxygen- like my aunt did. I laugh like my sister and I love like my mother and I cry like my childhood friend and I hurt like my other that I still wish I had made myself love just a bit more.

May I present the best apple:

And for those people who have access to mobility devices but might benefit from a second chair they can abuse without risking expensive damage…

Erik Kondo has made a website, Open Source Innovations, that details plans for DIY wheelchairs. These wheelchairs can be made from common materials like wood, plastic, and pvc. They are lightweight and can be custom fit to the user allowing from the same degree of movement you would get from a custom chair. And they are durable and easily repairable. (he has been stress testing his latest design by dropping it down stairs, dropping it out of a car, launching it across a driveway, and throwing it off a deck). Its 12lbs and I think he said its was in the $200 ish range for parts.