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the online identity and gimmick-ifying of autism is so odd. I'm diagnosed with autism and yet I barely identify with any stuff I see about it anymore. It feels like autism is being rebranded as the Silly Guy Disorder that gives you smart and beautiful hyperspecific interests. it's not that I mind silly jokes or being lighthearted about being autistic- but when the entire social movement is based around marketing us this way, I just can't help but feel isolated from it. it feels like I'm not the right kind of autistic. I'm not marketable and digestible to common audiences, and therefore I am discarded by the movement in the name of progress and acceptance. it feels foul.

also - the amount of high-masking ASD1 representation has made people (who spend a lot of time online) assume that, when i say i'm autistic, that's what i mean. when i have a meltdown because it's raining, something is wrong. when i stim with my hands while i dance, it's wrong. my SSD is weird and abnormal. for a lot of people, being autistic doesn't mean anything. maybe it means they take things Kind of literally Kind of and would rather not hear the sound of nails on a chalkboard. im so sick of it

Your high school chemistry teacher is on Instagram. Join Pee Dog and 18 others in following them

My body is but a #sondheim temple.

In my joyful dreams I never frown. Smilent Hill

every fleetwood mac documentary i've ever watched is like "the band was at the height of their success, enjoying the fame rolling in from their #1 hit 'i know about the other woman, lindsey'. however, nobody could have sensed the tension brewing between members."

"the group initially disbanded immediately after the release of the single 'well get the fuck out if you're going to be like that', leaving thousands of fans shocked."