see the girl dance in her man-skin pants

(01/50) X-Files scenes → 5.12 “Bad Blood” + Bonus

a little dose of jealous!steve because there’s not enough jealous!steve and i feel like season one has proven that steve has jealousy issues. this is dedicated to my boo @benalras who had a bad day and i love her and wanted to give her something that maybe makes her smile. enjoy!

Steve never had jealousy issues until Nancy. Until he actually had something he cared about losing. His parents barely gave him the time of day, and any girl before her had only been good for a couple fun romps in the sack, nothing more. Hell, he didn’t even experience platonic jealousy, never giving a shit what Tommy did or who he did it with.

But then Nancy showed up and she was beautiful and sweet and so fucking good, too good for Steve. Maybe he was insecure about it more than he thought. Maybe that’s what made him see red when he saw her and Byers sitting on her bed. Byers who took pictures of her while she was undressing. Byers who had creepy eyes, always kept to himself, and walked around like he thought he was better than everyone in this town. God, Steve had hated him, and he’d hated the idea that maybe Nancy wanted him more than she wanted Steve.

He didn’t hate him anymore, but it hadn’t done shit for Steve’s insecurities when Nancy ended up leaving him for the guy. He could hear that nasty voice in his head going i told you i told you i told you, over and over again. But.

He got over it.

He got over it because he cared about Nancy, and he ( eventually ) cared about Jonathan, and he wanted them to be happy and he was trying so fucking hard to be a better person than he used to be.

Then he became friends with Billy Hargrove. 

Then he became more than friends with Billy Hargrove.

My shrink calls this STOP. It’s a DBT Distress Tolerance skill: Stop, Take a Step Back, Observe, and Proceed Mindfully. Once you get out of your trance, you can shut your eyes, check in with yourself, and DECIDE what to do next instead of just getting carried a long. Don’t pick something HARD to do, pick something very easy but active and that will give you a sense of accomplishment, no matter how small. If you really need to, you can go back to the distracting activity for little breaks but try to set a timer so you don’t get entranced again.