From Calabria with 🖤

I have a tendency of randomly deleting my tumblr and starting over. I always regret it. I've done it so many times I don't remember my previous names.

• 30's

• Minors DNI

• She/ Her / They ~ Genderfluid

• Queer

• Calabrese + Arab. 2nd Gen. New Jersey born and raised, but residing in the South against my will financially.

• Diagnosed : Adhd, Autism, Cluster b but I don't typically speak on which one, bipolar 1 with severe mixed episodes + ultra rapid cycling and psychosis episodes, Cptsd, DID, Anxiety, Severe depression, OCD, ED, ( Chosen to get consistent help and assistance for the past 3yrs, hardest thing to stick to, not going to lie. ).

• Survivor : CSA, CP, CT, Illegal Adoption, WWASP Cult, Adult SA/ R*pa/ DV

• Sober: 5yrs

• Chronically ill. Some stupid new diagnosis every other week. Diagnosed disabled 2019.

• I lean more to the masculine/ dominant side, but I do have my switch-y moments

• I usually get on, spam reblog, get off. It takes me a minute to go through my notifications, I tend to get a lot. I promise I'm not ignoring anyone.

• Asks are always open, so yes it's ok. Please put age in when sending.

• I HATE small talk, please don't.

• This blog is PRO : Mental illness/ mental health. Absolutely zero judgment. Negative or judgmental commentary will be deleted and blocked. I will not support taking away an open and safe space. PRO : Sexuality of all spectrums, pro kinks, pro sex work. ( As long as it is legal ). Same statement as the last one. This is a no judgment blog. BUT this is not an invitation to bring it into my DM's unsolicited. Please respect my boundaries. PRO : Any form of poetry, writing, photography, art in any form. Please share! If you want to DM please do! If you want me to post it with a tag please tell me, if not please also tell me 🤗 I always love seeing other people's art. There is no such thing as ' bad ' art and I absolutely love seeing it and feel so honored when someone wants to share it with me. 💓

• Negativity or needing to have an open and safe space to openly talk about mental health issues that you are going through and need to reach out to someone, need support, need advice or just want someone to listen PLEASE do not hesitate. You are not bothering me, you are not a burden and you absolutely are worthy of taking up space. Reaching out is not selfish and no, other people are not ' going through more ' so yours doesn't matter. People's trauma and depression is not a competition. It just looks different for everyone.

• Stay off of my blog if any of the following apply : homophobes, transphobes, trump supporters, racists, pedos/ maps (*), if you support genocide in any form or fashion, any type of ED being glorified or romanticism or anything posted similar that leads to being pragmatic or a strawman argument. Judgment and negativity when it comes to other people's lives ( unless it applies to these things ). Crossing boundaries, making excuses to cross the line of verbal consent, displays obnoxious behavior when trying to get my attention. What I post on my blog is not an open invitation giving you access to me.

• My PROS and CONS lists will most likely grow or become more distinct as time goes on.

• Likes : Understanding and being taught different mental illnesses and how individual ones effect people differently. Weird people. Weird and people with uncommon interests. Tell me what your current hyperfixation is! Sherlock Holmes. Hannibal. Vintage and antique furniture. Horror, thriller, murder mystery, true crime, psychological horror themed books. Random trinkets. Amphmau and Meowchi's. Littlest pet shop. Mini brands. Puzzles. Legos. Writing. Blankets. Italian ice. Pink, yellow, Tiffany blue, neutral colors. Daisies and peonies. Anything that smells like pine trees, strawberries or patchouli. Anything Commodity makes. The lion king. Jasmine. Neon lights. Science, research studies, quantum physics. National Geographics. Cozy games.

• Dislikes : Literally everything in my cons list. Lying. Lavender. The sun/ heat. Anything Dark Romance. Vanilla sex. My apartment looking the same for too long ( usually longer than 6 months). Constant medication that doesn't work and big pharma. The ' how does that make you feel ' therapists ', especially because now I understand why they do that. Having ultra rapid cycling during my mixed episodes from bipolar + major depression + adhd + medium functioning autism. It's a combination I wouldn't even wish on the people that traumatized me. Tomatoes. Surface level conversations.