13h
God damnit why do emotions exist and why must I be subject to their torture
Like it’s nothing I can’t ignore but surely I shouldn’t right?
#would be helpful if I knew what they fucking were#it’s so rare but just often enough to get on my nerves#most of the time I’m thinking this is it my heart is on its way to failure then I ruminate on it a bit and wonder maybe im a little anxious#literally about as helpful but twice as annoying as a mildly itchy knee cap#annoying ass shits#also since when did i start feeling feelings#it’s so yucky#bare with me#ill think it over in like 20 minutes and think it was soo stupid to post#let me have my edgy teenage moment#maybe it’s cause I was a little sheltered before but like bruh#I feel like a fucking alien asking shit like ‘is this… happiness?’#’is this… sadness?’#‘is this… shame?’#like what#big fat load of crap#I bet you it isn’t even that and I’m just overanalyzing#God damn it can’t i just be a normal human being
