there are places in the world today that are experiencing 40°C for the first time in recorded history. of course there's no way to know whether chucking billionaires into volcanos will appease the sun god but i feel we're doing the scientific method a disservice if we don't at least try
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Was just scrolling AO3 and was internally lamenting that the story I was enjoying hasn't been updated yet, and then I realized: it's my story, I'm sad that I can't read the next chapter of the story. That I'm writing. Because I haven't written it yet. I think my brain is broken đŤ
The 'compromising' of Bashir - 7x16 Inter Arma Enim Silent Leges
[Disclaimer: as of writing this I've only watched as far as 7x17 Penumbra]
Inter Arma Enim Silent Leges (IAESL), though he did call it 'an excellent show', was something of a disappointment to exec producer Ira Steven Behr:
'it doesn't have all the levels it should have. We thought we'd do a show about the compromising of Bashir. Unfortunately, it doesn't do that. At the end, Bashir winds up making this angry, pointed speech to Ross, which is a lot less interesting than the situation at the end of 'In The Pale Moonlight'. There a man is trying to deal with his own culpability. And this is a show that demanded, I felt, Bashir's culpability. And he gets to walk away clean, with him being the one to point the finger.' - Behr, Star Trek: Deep Space Nine Companion, p.661
On reading this chapter immediately after watching the episode, I was kind of shocked that Behr didn't think it packed the punch that was intended, so I want to discuss my two issues with this quotation: the idea that the episode doesn't 'compromise' Julian, and the direct comparison to In The Pale Moonlight (ITPM).
While comparing Julian and Sisko's arcs and episodes is hugely compelling, the way it's done in this quotation seems to overlook the reason why this pairing is compelling: the differences. I don't think IEASL failed in 'compromising' Julian, because I don't think 'compromising' means the exact same thing for Julian as it does for Sisko.
ITPM is interesting because it reminds us that Sisko is a dynamic individual who can never be completely confined by a set of ideals or values, even the ones he is actively protecting. In that sense, he is 'compromised' by the end of the episode; the version of him we thought we knew is undone and remade by seeing his acknowledgement and manipulation of the fragility of Starfleet's ideals. He acts in a way that contradicts the values he protects, and thus compromises his role as a Starfleet officer (referring here to the utopic idealist version of a Starfleet officer and not the more complex muddied version these arcs work to expose).
Crucially, Julian's arc with Section 31 isn't the same story. I'd argue there's two reasons for this. The first (and slightly less relevant) is that the values Julian is most dedicated to are not those of a Starfleet officer but those of a doctor. (Hippocratic Oath probably demonstrates this best - despite the Jem'Hadar being enemies of Starfleet, Julian still sees the opportunity to cure them of their addiction and jumps for it. He says he's thinking about their potential as allies, but considering the thing that made him start cooperating with Goran'agar is seeing the other soldiers in pain when the drug is withheld, I'm inclined to think he was trying to justify his decision to help them (that of a doctor) by making sense of it through a Starfleet lens.)
The second reason ties back to how 'compromising' Julian doesn't mean the same thing as 'compromising' Sisko, because their arcs take different viewpoints of Starfleet. Julian's arc through a number of episodes (Hippocratic Oath, Doctor Bashir I Presume?, Statistical Probabilities, Inquisition, The Siege of AR-558, etc.) is shown to be an increasing disillusionment with the Starfleet ideals that formed so much of his worldview for so long ('frontier medicine' etc.). IAESL is the nail in the coffin because it forces Julian to confront the thing he spends the entire episode up until his fight with Ross staunchly denying: that Section 31 is Starfleet. After a steady buildup of him learning time and again that Starfleet is not the infallible force of good it once appeared, he is struck with overwhelming evidence of corruption. Sure, he gets to avoid actively causing someone harm firsthand, and he gets to confront Ross, but neither of these things constitute winning for Julian here. He still loses, because the vision of Starfleet that he dedicated himself to doesn't exist to him anymore. Julian's 'compromising' is on the level of perspective rather than action: Sisko commits acts that oppose Starfleet ideals to defend those ideals, but Julian acts in a way that aligns with those ideals and in doing so comes to realise that he isn't defending what he thought he was.
I care about this distinction and don't like the idea of so directly measuring IAESL up against ITPM in this way because I think Julian's position in DS9's critique of Starfleet is so important for numerous reasons. It's no coincidence that, of all the Starfleet officers in the show, the one who has this storyline of Starfleet disillusionment is the character who is explicitly othered by Starfleet. Every main character in DS9 is an outsider in some way, but Julian is the one that holds this precarious position of being in Starfleet but not entirely accepted by it, and it's important for him on an individual character level to learn that the institution that others him isn't the pillar of righteousness he once believed it to be. It doubles down on the fact that they are wrong to cast him out, or to make him feel he has to work overtime and hide so much of himself to deserve his place among them. (In a more allegorical sense, it's a very neurodivergent position for a character to be in.) It also works to highlight his privilege and consequent complicity that stems from his having grown up in the Federation (see @fatalism-and-villainy 's section of this post for a more detailed discussion of this.)
I also think that having Julian as a Starfleet officer who doesn't go through this same process of having to break his moral code to defend Starfleet, but instead learns that Starfleet is willing and able to break his moral code, is what allows Starfleet to be heavily imperfect without destroying the idyllic future Earth that Star Trek as a franchise tries to create. It allows the audience to maintain faith in individual people that make up Starfleet, in officers like Julian, even if their faith in Starfleet as an institution is shaken. Julian remains 'good' and uncorrupt by Starfleet standards, and is instead 'compromised' personally, in his own perception of the world and his place in it. While he doesn't do anything unworthy of a Starfleet officer, he arguably begins to perceive himself as less worthy of that role as it's becoming increasingly clear that the truth of said role doesn't align as perfectly with his own core values as he once thought.
A final quick note in terms of 'culpability': I think Julian absolutely saw his actions contribute to a negative outcome. His interference in Sloan's plan involved Cretak, of course, but more than that, his believing he was a step ahead and failing to recognise the depth of the connection between Section 31 and Starfleet Command was what turned him into a working cog in Sloan's plan. As Sloan says in the final scene, he was counting on Julian 'being a decent human being' who 'would only go so far'. Sloan's success depended on Julian being uncompromisable, and it therefore compromises his belief in that quality of himself. He did everything right, he refused to cross the line, and it didn't matter, because the institution crossed the line for him. His being a model Starfleet officer in the idealist sense was the very thing that created the circumstances for Section 31's success. Doing the right thing, even just defending life, is no longer something that is largely simple or easy to ascertain, which is huge considering Julian's core values as a doctor. He's absolutely undone by this episode/arc, and although it's subtler than ITPM, I don't think it's less effective.
(Also for your consideration: this is quite possibly the most 'compromised' looking man in the universe)
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If Julian met Lore at exactly the right moment, say season six when he's becoming super withdrawn and barely anyone has even noticed, Lore could turn Julian dark. Like a Hannibal and Will Graham situation.
It would be fascinating, and no one would be safe.
Also the contrast between that episode and Birthright Part 1, would be excruciating
Garak is the one who realizes something is up and saves the day. This happens between Honor Among Theives and Change of Heart. Conveniently a few episodes before In the Pale Moonlight. This causes Sisko to believe even more that Garak can be trusted, which causes the twist of the knife to hurt that much more when absolutely nothing in that episode changes.
So I had this thought, about how Garak is kind of allergic to talking about and naming his feelings. And just because he and Bashir get together post-canon, that doesn't change. So Garak has all those ways of calling Julian special, "my dearest", "my darling", "my dear husband" - but for all of that, he never actually manages to tell Julian that he loves him. "I love you" is just something that can't make it out of his throat. He keeps telling himself that he'll figure it out one day and then it just keeps not happening.
("Would it kill you to say it?" Julian asked, once, not angry, not exactly upset, but also not teasing. Just--resigned, maybe.
"I don't know," Garak replied truthfully, because some days he felt like it could, like it would suffocate him, this love that he felt, and oh, putting that in words would be impossible. "Would you like to test that?"
Julian didn't.)
And then, one day - Julian dies. It's a stupid freak accident of the kind that happen every day but you always think they happen to other people. Julian kisses him in the morning, grabs an ikri bun and goes to work, and then never comes back. And it's all so sudden, with no way to prepare oneself, one minute he's there and smiling, the next minute there's law enforcement at their door and someone with an appropriately sad expression is telling Garak that they're so very sorry for his loss.
His loss.
Their house is so cold and empty and quiet now, and Julian is dead and he died without ever hearing that Garak loved him. He--he knew though. He knew, he must have known. Surely. Surely he knew. But it's one thing to know, to infer from evidence, and a whole different thing to be told. To be confessed to.
Garak clutches Kukalaka to his chest as he sits curled up in Julian's favourite armchair, trying to ignore the house's oppressive silence.
"I love you," he whispers into the bear's threadbare and wet fur, "I love you, I love you."
It's no longer hard. He doesn't know why it ever was. Or if.
Here's the full animatic (so happy with how it turned out!!!)
Also check it out on YouTube - Star Trek DS9 Animatic | A Stitch in Time
A Stitch in Time is a book written by Andrew Robinson which forms part of the DS9 relaunch series. This is just a part of the audiobook and is a nightmare that Garak is experiencing. I do plan on making the rest of it later.
I really wanted to make an animatic for a long time but never followed through. A recent rewatch of DS9 made me feel nostalgic to create something for my favorite character Elim Garak. To my surprise there was a book about Garak written from his pov by the actor himself that I never knew existed!!! So, when I came across the video of Andrew Robinson (Garak) narrating the book I knew I had to make an animatic of it. It gave me the push that I needed to create this short animatic.
This is my first time creating something like this, hope you like it.
I'd really love to see a Bashir/Felix fic where we realize that Felix is not the fun, holoprogram-gifting academy bestie that we may assume, but an older student who was low-key emotionally abusing Julian in a romantic relationship. Julian didn't see the abuse though, cuz he is of course not good enough and too much, so he accepted the bad/repressed it and left for ds9 with seemingly decent memories of their time together.
Cut to Felix coming to DS9 for a prolonged stay (say, after DBIP, when Julian is extra vulnerable and off-balance). He and Julian resume the relationship. Everybody loves this guy, he's so charming and witty. But a lizard/tailor starts to notice something is not right. As much as Julian claims to be happy, his light seems to be dimming, his smile no longer reaching his eyes. He starts spending even less time doing the things he loves than the war has made necessary.
Garak starts watching, he gets protective. But he has to find a way to get Julian to see Felix's abusiveness without causing Julian to double down on the relationship. However can our spy friend do this? How can he show the dear doctor that love is not supposed to feel like Felix makes it feel?
And of course, how does the lizard make sure Felix never comes near his doctor again?
And Garak noticed.
Felix's compliments always had a subtle edge. "You're so enthusiastic, darling, though sometimes you do need to read the room."
He'd casually mention failings from years ago. Affectionate anecdotes, on the surface, but each leaving Julian slightly diminished.
Even his praise managed to chastise; implying without his early guidance, Julian might never have developed his skills properly.
And he noticed the way Julian accepted it all.
At one point, Julian excused himself to check on something at the Infirmary. The moment he rounded the corner, Felix sighed, shook his head fondly.
"Julian's special," Felix announced to the table at large. "All that energy, all that idealism. But God, its..."
"Endearing?" Chief O'Brien suggested. The unspoken exhausting that he'd use in any other situation didn't go unnoticed.
"A handful," Felix corrected. "Even back at Academy he needed someone who knows how to channel it properly."
Jadzia frowned. "He's always shown himself capable of managing just fine."
"Of course, of course," Felix waved a hand, the universal sign of disregard. "I just mean, Julian tends to get ideas. It's endearing, sure, but someone needs to be the voice of reason. I've always played that role for him. He knows he can trust my judgement."
Garak stood. Some things surpassed even his training.
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I donât listen to podcasts, but I would if these three had one. Honestly would love to have a girls brunch with them. Bitching with these three would heal me of everything.
Currently working on a garashir fic and my computer keeps autocorrecting Garak to Gary. Now I can't stop imagining the looked he'd get on his face if Bashir called him Gary in the throes of passion.
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Some personal favourite fics about Garak and Bashir having sex for the first time during the earlier seasons of DS9.
The First Impression by Retro_Hussy (retro_hussy)
A Warm Welcome by Sasa_Q
Cultural Differences by unopposablethumbs
Doing Science by wanderingwriter87
Open-Minded by NeurotropicAgentX
Past Prologue re-interpreted by Anonymous
And a couple of my favourite post-canon ones:
How to Get Laid in a State-Honoring Way by cemetrygatess
Having and Holding by tokidokifish
(Check tags on each, these vary from sweet ânâ fluffy to wonderfully indulgent kink smut and several combinations of that, and itâs like a coin flip for genitals with Bashir and a roulette wheel with Garak, aliens and all, yâknow.)
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Nothing greater than crawling into bed and reading fan fiction about the same two people falling in love in every conceivable universe. My yaoi time is sacred.