Hi this is Admin Winnie 🐻 and Admin Peachy🍑!

That seemed believable enough. "Really? A girlfriend?" Mrs. Choi asked, sounding pleasantly surprised. "Well, she sounds lovely! Why didn't he tell us this? Oh, that doesn't matter now. The important thing is that he's found himself a girlfriend and is doing well. Tell him to answer my calls, will you? Thank you so much, Soobin!"

She was quick to end the call, leaving Soobin's head spinning. Whatever the case, he was glad he saved his friend.

♡♡♡♡

"What the hell did you do?!" Yeonjun cried out as he burst through the door of his and Soobin's apartment. Soobin, who was sitting on the couch, jumped from shock. "Why the fuck would you tell my mom that I'm studying hard because I have a studious girlfriend?!"

Well, at least he finally answered her call. "What do you mean? To save your ass! Your mom called me today asking why you aren't answering her calls. She could somehow tell you weren't going to classes and being reckless, so I had to lie to make her think you're going to your lectures regularly and are just busy with something other than parties," Soobin informed him, not understanding why his friend was so pissed. "I told her you were busying studying, and then I added the studious girlfriend part so she'd actually buy it. You should be thanking me."

"Thanking you?! I should kill you! My dad has an important business dinner this weekend hosted by his boss, and now I'm expected to come with my new girlfriend. Do you know how fucked I am? How the hell am I supposed to just find a studious girlfriend in three days?! I mean, look at me! Smart girls aren't exactly rushing to date slackers like me."

Soobin hadn't been expecting any of this. Obviously, he would have come up with a different lie had he known the nature of Mrs. Choi's call. "Well...fuck!"

Kicking his shoes off, Yeonjun ran a hand through his hair. If he showed up at the dinner with no girlfriend, his mom would know something was up. He needed to pull this off so she wouldn't worry about him so much. But, how could he possibly do that?

"You just need to find a fake girlfriend," Soobin suddenly remarked, snapping his fingers. "Like in the movies! Ask a girl to be your fake girlfriend to trick your mom."

Yeonjun rolled his eyes. "This isn't a movie, and those movies are stupid. They set up two good-looking people to fall in love," he pointed out.

Waving him off, Soobin said, "Well, duh, it's a movie; that's supposed to happen. This won't be as complicated because you just have to trick your mom. Find a girl, bring her to the dinner, maybe stage some photos to send your mom for a couple of weeks, and then you can tell her you guys broke up."

He made a good point. As long as his mom was buying it, it didn't matter what others knew. The commitment wouldn't be as big as in the movies, and it wouldn't interfere with his daily life.

"Where am I gonna find a girl?"

That was how the two ended up in Yeonjun's English lecture the next afternoon. It was the only class that Yeonjun had where Soobin was free to tag along. They just hoped the professor wouldn't notice.

As students filed into the classroom, both boys began to size them up. Who seemed to fit the description Soobin gave Mrs. Choi best? Putting themselves in her mindset, which girl would she choose?

"Dude," Soobin said, sitting up a bit straighter after hitting Yeonjun's chest. Looking over, Yeonjun saw Soobin was staring at you. You were dressed in a simple blouse and cute skirt. "She's perfect...but I feel like I know her from somewhere."

Yeonjun thought you looked familiar, too, but he couldn't put his finger on it. Visually, you were perfect. You were cute, first of all, but you also appeared put together. Still, your intelligence level was the most important item on their checklist.

But, it became apparent quite quickly that you were quite smart and studious. You were one of the few students in the class that bothered to answer the questions. Aside from that, you remained quiet. Yeonjun couldn't quite gauge your personality, but that didn't really matter. All he cared about were your looks and brains.

"I remember how we know her," Soobin whispered to Yeonjun as the lecture was coming to an end. Yeonjun looked at his friend with a curious expression. "She was the class president our second year, remember?"

A look of realization appeared on Yeonjun's face. That was right! They never talked to you, but they naturally knew of you since the class president played a crucial role in the classroom. "Yep, she's perfect," Yeonjun remarked. The professor ended class and left. "Come on, it's go time."

Standing up, the two boys rushed over to your seat. You noticed the sudden presence, looking up and seeing two boys towering over you. "Um, can I help you?" you asked, feeling a bit nervous.

You didn't seem to recognize them. "You're Y/N, right?" Yeonjun asked, and you nodded slowly. "I'm Yeonjun, and this is Soobin. I don't know if you remember us--."

Cutting him off, you commented, "You're the guys that caused that explosion in the Chemistry lab."

Ah, so you did remember them. "Right. Hey, in our defense, it was an accident," Soobin remarked. "Plus, no one got hurt."

That didn't change the fact that they nearly destroyed the lab room. But, that was besides the point. "So, I know you didn't come over here to reminisce on old times...we weren't even friends in high school."

Smart girl. "I need a favor," Yeonjun informed you, getting straight to the point. "To make a long story short, I need a fake girlfriend by Saturday because of this idiot, and I think you'd be perfect for tricking my mom."

You finally stood up, hoisting your bag onto your shoulder. "Me? Why would I be perfect?" you asked, surprised by his words.

"You're smart and appear put together...that's really all it takes at this point."

Wow, how flattering. "No offense, but why should I help you? From the looks of it, you're the only one benefitting from this. You're the one that needs my help, after all."

Maybe you were annoyingly smart. Still, Yeonjun found it amusing. "I think you'll find that the dinner party you'd be attending would be quite beneficial," Soobin informed you on behalf of his friend. "You'd make many great connections."

Great connections? What was this dinner party? "I'll tell you what," Yeonjun spoke up. "If you find that the dinner party is beneficial enough for you, we'll call it even. If not, I'll give you two hundred bucks."

200 bucks? For some dinner party? That seemed like a lot. "How can I trust you?" you asked.

"Well, you're the one doing me a favor, so knowing that it's all fake is kind of collateral. If I don't hold up my end of the deal, you can tell my mom it was all fake and screw me over, so I kind of have to be a man of my word no matter what."

Hm, good point. "Are you busy right now? If you're interested, we can go somewhere and work out the details," Yeonjun added.

You were free, and you were finding this intriguing. Besides, you really wanted to know more about these potential connections through the dinner party. "Ok, let's go," you said.

Soobin left for work, leaving you and Yeonjun to discuss the details at a table in the main quad. He had ever so kindly bought you a lemonade that you were happily sipping on as you opened your notebook to a blank page.

"What's that for?" Yeonjun asked, drinking an iced coffee.

"The details. I mean, I think I should know what's expected of me if we're gonna pull this off, yeah?"

You were agreeing? "Mm, I love an obedient girl." You made a face at his joke, making him laugh. "I'm kidding...kind of. Anyway, does this mean you're gonna help me?"

Nodding you grabbed a pen from your backpack. "I mean, I have nothing better to do, and I'm intrigued by this dinner party. Now, tell me what kind of girlfriend would your mom want you to bring home?"

Yeonjun thought up a list of things his mom would look for in a potential daughter-in-law. Honestly, you thought it wasn't too demanding at all...just a nice, loving, smart girl.

"Oh, do you have any nice dresses? You'll want a nice dress," Yeonjun suddenly remarked. "We can go shopping for one together before the dinner. Besides, I think it'd be good for us to spend some time together and try to learn a little bit about one another to really sell this."

Wow, a free dinner, possible connections, possible money, and a free dress? This was a pretty sweet deal. "Yeah, that sounds good," you told him. "I think that we should also come up with a list of rules."

A small groan left his mouth as he said, "No! Don't tell me you're into those stupid movies. A list of rules is never good."

You giggled at how against it he was. "I don't mean rules like 'You must kiss me on the cheek once every couple of hours.' By rules, I mean things like 'Don't leave me alone for extended periods of time' or 'Don't mention this and that around my mom.'"

"Oh," Yeonjun said, not realizing at all that that was what you meant. "Yeah, that's smart. Let's do that."

Briefly, you guys came up with a set of basic rules that definitely needed to be followed. A smile appeared on your face as you wrote something down. "What? What are you writing?" he asked. You handed him the notebook and he read aloud, "'Absolutely no romance! Hand holding and hugs only! Don't fall in love!!!' Well, that goes without saying. You wrote that just to spite me, didn't you?"

As you nodded proudly, Yeonjun chortled and shook his head. Things were definitely seeming to go well. All he could hope was that the dinner would go smoothly.

♡♡♡♡

Yeonjun was in your apartment waiting for you to finish getting ready. He was looking around at all of your things when the door opened. "Y/N! Are you--oh, hell," a girl greeted him. It was Yeji, your best friend and roommate. "You must be Yeonjun, right? Y/N told me about you."

Well, not so much about him, but rather about the deal you two had. "It's nice to meet you," Yeonjun said, feeling a bit awkward all of a sudden. It was kind of pointless getting to know one another when this was a one-time thing.

"Ok, ok," you said, rushing out of your bedroom as you haphazardly put your earrings in. "Sorry, I'm ready. Oh, Yeji, good, you're home."

A big smile appeared on Yeji's face. "Y/N! You look so pretty!" she exclaimed. You were wearing black heels and a simple yet beautiful periwinkle dress. "This dress is gorgeous."

You couldn't hide your smile or your blush, never one that did well with compliments. "Thanks...Yeonjun picked it out for me."

Turning to look at him, Yeji found Yeonjun looking away as he shyly scratched the back of his neck. "I just thought it was a nice dress," he mumbled, unsure what to say. "I gave it to her, and it ended up looking really good."

Was he trying to compliment you? Yeji couldn't tell, and it seemed to go right over your head. "I'll, um, wait in the hall," Yeonjun added before leaving the apartment. He felt uncomfortable with Yeji around. There wasn't anything bad about her, but it almost felt like he was meeting your mom, which wasn't something he was used to.

"He's handsome!" Yeji exclaimed, somewhat lightly hitting your shoulder. "You're so lucky."

You giggled, shaking your head as you adjusted the new heels. They felt uncomfortable since they were new, but you'd manage. "Why? It's one fake date," you reminded her. "I hope you enjoyed looking at him while you could...you're probably never gonna see him again. Not around here, at least."

Ugh, sad. "Well, you shouldn't keep him waiting. Have fun and be safe, ok?"

Nodding, you two hugged before you joined Yeonjun in the hall. You were surprised to learn Yeonjun could drive, but you were definitely glad since it meant you guys didn't have to take the bus; you didn't want to risk ruining the dress.

"Nervous?" Yeonjun asked as he slid into the driver seat after he let you in first.

Were you nervous? "A little bit. I want to pull this off," you remarked. "Plus, I'll be surrounded by tons of people I don't know, so that's a bit worrisome. I'm sure I'll be ok, though."

Yeonjun watched you fiddle with your fingers nervously, making him chuckle lightly. His hand rested on your hands, stopping them from their movements. "It'll be ok. Besides, you'll have me there."

His words made you relax a bit, offering him a thankful smile.

The house you two arrived at belonged to Mr. Choi's boss, and it was the most beautiful mansion you'd ever seen. "I didn't even know there were mansions in Seoul," you said as you got out of the car. You always thought there were too many buildings to have mansions.

"Well, not downtown, of course, but in the outskirts of the city like this, they're quite a few," Yeonjun explained to you as someone went to park his car.

You suddenly felt underdressed, but Yeonjun had been the one to dress you. Glancing at him, you had to remind yourself of what he was wearing: pin-striped slacks, a white button-down dress shirt, and black loafers. It was a nice outfit, but a more casual business-like outfit.

"Are you sure I'm not underdressed?"

Yeonjun glanced at you, seeing that you seemed a bit worried. "You're definitely not underdressed," he informed you. "The parents and other employees tend to be overdressed, but you'll fit in with the rest of us."

That definitely made you feel better. "Ok," you said after letting out a shaky sigh. You held your hand out to him. "Let's do this."

He smiled, taking your hand in his own before you two entered.

"Yeonjun! You're here!" Mrs. Choi called out when she spotted her son, her eyes lighting up when she saw you two holding hands. He released your hand to give his mother a hug. "And you must be Y/N. I'd be lying if I said I've heard so much about you, but I'm certainly looking forward to getting to know you."

You hadn't been expecting her to hug you, too. Yeonjun laughed at your panicked expression. "It's nice to meet you, ma'am," you said when you separated. "I apologize that we didn't tell you about our relationship sooner. Yeonjun was just nervous about us meeting...you know how guys can be."

She nodded before saying, "Oh, yes, Mr. Choi was so nervous about me meeting his parents that we were practically engaged before it happened! I'm not surprised that Yeonjun takes after him...especially since you're his first girlfriend."

His first girlfriend? That was surprising. "Mom, I'm gonna take her to meet some of the others," Yeonjun said, feeling embarrassed.

"Oh, alright, but I will be stealing her from you later to get to know her."

He hummed in understanding before once again taking your hand in his own, leading you away. "Who are the others?" you asked, beginning to get used to the way his hand felt holding yours. It wasn't a stronghold, but it was a secure one.

Taking you up the stairs, he said, "There are other children of employees here. Most of them are younger and suck, but the boss's son Beomgyu is cool."

"Wait, you still haven't told me what company your father works for."

Glancing back at you, a smirk appeared on Yeonjun's face. It made your heart flutter slightly. "He works for SJ Group."

That made you nearly choke on your own spit. SJ Group was one of the biggest conglomerates in Seoul! No wonder Soobin said you could make great connections at the party. "I'm at a dinner party for SJ Group?!" you cried out in a hushed tone so no one else would hear you. He nodded, finding your reaction amusing. "How could you not tell me! This is a huge deal, Yeonjun! I haven't even had time to mentally prepare. Do you know how many questions I could have prepared?"

Reaching out, Yeonjun booped your nose. It made you stop talking, totally shocked by the action. "Calm down, nerd," he told you, making you scowl. "It'll be fine. Just getting on their radar is good. Plus, they'll remember you since you're here as my girlfriend."

Well, that was a start at least. Knocking at one of the doors, Yeonjun stuck his head in, finding Beomgyu on the couch in his room playing video games. "Hey, you're here!" Beomgyu exclaimed, happy to see his friend. "Right on time, too; I was starting to get really bored."

Just like Yeonjun, Beomgyu didn't care for work parties or the other children. "Oh," Beomgyu added when you followed Yeonjun into the room. "Who's this?"

"This is Y/N, my girlfriend," Yeonjun informed him.

Oh, he wasn't in on the plan? Beomgyu suddenly burst into a fit of laughter. "This is your girlfriend? Yeah, right! Come on, dude, really, who is she?"

It made you feel insecure. Were you not good enough for Yeonjun? He was quite handsome, but you didn't think you looked that bad in comparison. "I fucking hate you. She's my fake girlfriend to trick my mom...it's a long story."

"I'm, um, going to use the restroom," you said, turning and leaving before either boy could say anything. You didn't even know where the bathroom was, but you didn't care. At least you'd have time alone to search for it.

Yeonjun hit Beomgyu's arm. "Dude, you probably hurt her feelings!" he exclaimed.

That made Beomgyu's eyes widen. "I didn't mean to! I just meant that there's no way a guy like you could land a girl like her," he explained to his friend. "Just based on appearance, you guys are opposite. She's all light and precious, and you're dark and gloomy. Plus, she's too hot for you."

Rolling his eyes, Yeonjun commented, "I could totally land a girl like Y/N...she's just not my type."

But, Beomgyu made a good point. You were far more put together than he was. Plus, his jet black hair, tattoos, and piercings made him seem emo to many people. Sure, he was a troublemaker in the past, but he wasn't like that anymore. He skipped classes and partied a lot, but he wasn't causing trouble. Still, just from the few hours he spent shopping with you, he could tell he wasn't your type, too. For some reason, that irked him.

Yeonjun sat down to play video games with Beomgyu. It wasn't until the end of their second-round that Yeonjun realized you hadn't returned. "Shit, I forgot about Y/N," he remarked, standing up.

"Wow, some boyfriend you are," Beomgyu teased, earning a glare from his friend. "Come on, let's look for her. I should make an appearance before dinner, anyway."

The two left Beomgyu's room to search for you. Thankfully, they didn't have to search for too long as you were out on the patio alone with Yeonjun's mother. She must have intercepted you.

"I guess I just worried Yeonjun would never find a girlfriend," Mrs. Choi told you, making Yeonjun's cheeks light up. Beomgyu had to stifle his laughter. "He never mentioned any girls before, and it seemed that he pushed them away. I always thought girls might be scared of his appearance or something."

She thought that? "Yeonjun was quite popular in high school. A lot of the girls in our year were into his bad boy appearance, actually. He always got the most gifts during Valentine's Day, too," you explained to Mrs. Choi. "His locker would be full of them by the end of the day, but I don't think he cares for the holiday because he always threw them out. Still, he made sure to do it when no one else was around, and I think he did it to spare their feelings."

You knew he did that? He always thought he was alone when he did. "I just think Yeonjun is a bit misunderstood. He may look intense and standoffish, but he's actually really kind and considerate. I remember one day in high school when it was raining. He had brought an umbrella to school that day, but he ended up leaving it on the desk of another student that had forgotten their own. Really, I noticed he was always doing sweet things for the others, but I don't think he ever thought much about it. I think he just saw it as something natural that he didn't need to gain anything from."

Mrs. Choi was surprised by the slight sparkle in your eyes as you spoke about her son. "I never knew about any of that. Well, I'm glad to hear he was so popular. I knew you were special the moment I laid eyes on you, Y/N, but I guess it makes sense since Yeonjun chose you out of all of those girls," she told you. It wasn't true at all, and, even if it was, he hadn't chosen you in high school, but you didn't say anything. "I'm just glad he met someone that can see the real him...someone that can see his pure heart."

Yeonjun had to recover from his shock, unable to listen to you talk about him any longer. "There you are," he spoke, going outside to interrupt. "I was starting to get worried, but I guess I shouldn't be surprised that my mom stole you."

After all, she said she would. "We were having a lovely conversation. Weren't we, Y/N?"

"Yes, I was enjoying it," you commented. You were surprised to find that you meant it, and Yeonjun was surprised that you sounded so sincere.

The four of you, including Beomgyu, went to join the main party for dinner. Surprisingly, you talked to many of the other guests, and you found that the conversations were quite interesting and enjoyable. You had expected to be alone most of the party, but the conversations just came naturally.

Time was slipping away from all of you, and you were only snapped back to reality by a loud clap of thunder. "I didn't even realize it was raining," one of the guests confessed, looking outside as it was pouring. "Was there any rain in the forecast?"

It seemed the storm was an unexpected one. With knowledge of the storm, everyone slowly but surely began to leave the party. "Yeonjun," Mr. Choi spoke, walking over to where the two of you were standing. "Your mother and I have decided the road conditions are too poor for you to be driving. We insist that you and Y/N stay the night with us. We can have someone bring your car home in the morning."

What? Staying the night? That was certainly not part of the plan. Then again, neither was the storm. You couldn't blame Yeonjun for any of it. "What? You want Y/N to stay the night?" Yeonjun asked, clearly just as flustered as you.

"Well, you don't expect her to hitchhike to Seoul or get a hotel, do you? She's your girlfriend, after all, son. Besides, your mother seems quite ecstatic about having her over."

His parents had a point; the road conditions were poor and only getting worse by the minute. The idea of driving home worried you. "I'm grateful that you'll have me, Mr. Choi," you said, unsure of what else to say. "They're right about the roads, Jun...especially at this time of night."

He was too caught off guard by the sudden nickname to argue. That was how you two ended up in his bedroom back at his parent's house. The house was huge. It wasn't as grand as Beomgyu's place, but it was still nicer than anything you were sure you'd ever be able to afford.

"I assume you two are fine sleeping in here together," Mrs. Choi said, fixing the bedspread. "I mean, you two are adults, after all. It's probably not your first time sharing a bed."

She laughed at her own words, happily teasing her son. "Mom!" Yeonjun cried out, making her laugh once more. "It's late, and I'm sure we're all tired."

It was his way of telling her to leave. Thankfully, she decided to give him a break. "Sleep well, kids," she said, gently smoothing your hair before leaving.

"Your mom is really nice," you commented.

He chortled. "Yeah, it must be nice for you when she's not saying something to embarrass you every five minutes," he pointed out, making you giggle. "I think it worked, though...she seems thoroughly convinced."

There had been times even he forgot momentarily that it was all fake. "Nice job with that nickname, by the way."

You beamed at him. "Thank you! I thought it would be a nice touch."

"Why don't you wash up first? My mom left some pajamas for you in the bathroom," he told you.

Nodding, you went to the bathroom, shutting the door behind you. Yeonjun grabbed his phone to text Soobin about how everything went. As he was doing so, he saw a text from Beomgyu.

It read: I take it back...you and Y/N even fooled me tonight. You guys look cute together, and she seems really sweet. Maybe think about everything before you "dump" her.

Beomgyu was admitting he was wrong? Geez, what a crazy night. Things went well, but almost too well...it was definitely an unexpected night.

"I should text Yeji before she worries," you mumbled to yourself as you sat on one side of Yeonjun's bed after you had both washed up. "She thinks you're hot, by the way. I don't know if you were interested."

Why were you telling him that? "I'm not interested in anyone else but you, angel," he said jokingly, gently caressing your face.

Your body was on fire, feeling embarrassed by the pet name and sudden affection. Worst of all, you didn't hate it. "Stop messing around."

He chuckled, watching you get under the covers. "My mom really likes you. In fact, you were a big hit at the party. I think the other moms were jealous." Turning the lamp next to his bed on, he shut the main lights off, climbing in next to you.

"Well, I really like your mom, and I enjoyed myself tonight. I had so many interesting conversations," you told him, and he was glad you had a good time. "Speaking of which...you've never had a girlfriend?"

He forgot his mom had said that. "Yeah, yeah, laugh it up," he said, sighing softly.

You shook your head, turning on your side a bit to look at him. "No, I'm genuinely surprised. In high school, you were always the hottest guy in our grade...some girls made a list. I mean, I guess I never saw you with a girl, but I guess I just thought you dated."

"I don't really think being hot is a compliment. Like, obviously it is, but I feel like girls thought I was hot without knowing anything about me. They focused on my looks, so that was what they liked me for, nothing else."

That was actually sad, but he had a point...being hot wasn't some great compliment. "Well, I'm honored to be your first girlfriend, even if it is fake," you told him, making him crack a smile.

It reminded him of your conversation with his mom. "I heard you telling my mom you thought I was a good person in high school," he confessed to you. "I didn't know you were so obsessed with me."

You rolled your eyes and said, "Oh, fuck off. I was the class president, so I paid close attention to everyone. But, I really did think you were sweet, and I still do. I don't know why you act like you're not, Choi Yeonjun, but I can see right through you."

He sat up a bit to look at you, surprised by the effect that your words had on him. This was all supposed to be fake. Things weren't supposed to go this far...Yeonjun should have dropped you off at your apartment with no intention of ever seeing you again. He wasn't supposed to find you cute, and he certainly wasn't supposed to want to kiss you.

"Let's go to bed," he said, turning to light off.

You were surprised but didn't say anything, wondering what had gotten into him all of a sudden.

Friends.

That's all the two of you were, nothing more though sometimes it felt as if there was something more between the two of you. Though his job is nothing but intense, busy and time consuming meaning the days you saw were few inbetween. The days that you saw each other were full of tired eyes and slump shoulders, his hand trailing to yours as he pulled you to the couch next to a window, his eyes staring. Gleaming out into the night sky. The way the lights of stars swirled, reflected, in his eyes was paralyzing. The way his smile would curl at the end of his lips as he peaked over at you had a blush rushing to your cheeks. How his hand reaches, everytime, to pat the top of your head as he huffed. Hand falling to your cheek, then he quickly scolds you for the dark bags under your eyes, though his are just as bad, if not worse.

It was hard not to smash into the earth when he smiled at you.

Hwang Hyunjin.

A boy, who knows nothing but kindness. He loves his family, his members and his fans. Yet it was hard for him to love himself. It was hard from him not to push himself away from the people around him, hard from him to think of himself before others. That's his downfall.His biggest flaw. His vice. It makes him pile up his worries, his breakdown, hide them away and push the people who see them without a second glance further away. Yet you, you always found a way to push. Never letting him pull completely away. Maybe that was out of being selfish, a little. You liked being the one Chan or the other would go to when he shut off.

So here you are. A backpack over your shoulder, hair pulled up and eyes staring at the banged up champion shoes you had slipped on, waiting outside the dorm room door. When the door finally opened, Chan stood there with a beanie pulled on the top of his head as he let out a breath at the sight of you. You give him a tight lipped smile as he moves so you can walk into the door, shoes being toed off immediately as you look around. For the first time in weeks small little things of Hyunjin were around the dorms. Every time you had snuck over, nights of UNO between you Felix and Chan, or with some fast food after they had a long day of schedules, your heart had slightly cracked not seeing his things.

“He's all cooped up in their room, I've tried to push him out but he just won't budge.” Chan's voice has you nodding as he lets out a deep breath, handing running over his face as he looks at you. “I think he's nervous about his dance video dropping, and stays reactions.”

“Most likely, I'll try to get him out for dinner.” Your words had Chan smiling as you walked further into the dorm, his door suddenly in front of you as you knocked. A huff from the other side had you chuckling as you slowly cracked the door open. “Are you decent?”

“For you? Never.” Hyunjins voice had you smiling as you pushed the door open completely, his body star fished in the center of the shared bedroom. Eyes closed, a laptop opens on the Youtube page for Stray Kids, making you roll your eyes as you walk in. “Close the door, unless you're into that type of stuff.” He teases eyes opening as you kick his cafe making him grunt as he glares at you.

“No hug for your best friend?” Your words have him sitting up, hand moving up and yanking on the shirt you were wearing pulling you down making you huff as you end up with your body partially on top of him. “So how is it back being a JYP prisoner?” Your words were muffled by his shoulder, but they still had his chest rumbling with soft laughter as you pushed up and smiled brightly at him. “How was it? Being free?”

“Sickening. Obviously.”

“Cause you didn't see me and my pretty face, right?”

“Eh, your face still makes me nauseous.” Scoffing your hand swats at his shoulder, pushing him back onto the floor, as you let out a sigh and flipped your ponytail over your shoulder.

“Anyway, I'm here to tell you about my love for Choi Soobin.” Your words we're meant by you pulling out the newest TXT album out of your bag along with a Soobin photocard. His laughter fills the room, echoing out into the hallway, it was a belly laugh as his arm wraps around his midsection as he lifts himself into a sitting position.

“Like Soobin would be into a kinky freak like you.” Puffing your cheeks you glare as he flicks at your cheeks, “Single club forever.” His chin is suddenly resting against your shoulder, nose pressing against your cheek then his forehead is nuzzling into the base of your neck. “Seriously though, I missed you.” His words were soft as you nodded, body bending back to rest against his legs, falling into his lap as he smiled down at you.

“Good, cause I seriously missed you too. Those seven hooligans drove me nuts, especially those Asustrailians.” The sound of Chan and Fleix yelling out ‘Hey’ had the two of you laughing as you got up and shut the bedroom door. Facing him again you move and shut the laptop making him huff as he looked at you. “Now seriously, what's going on in that head of yours?” You tapped his forehead with your finger as you sat on his bed, his body frozen on the floor, eyes down casting to his sweat pants as he shrugs. You let out a breath through your nose, making him look at you and roll his eyes.

“Don't start.”

“I didn't say anything.”

“Y/n.” He mumbled crawling over to you, his head resting on your thigh in seconds as your hand subconsciously landed in his long black hair. It was soft against your fingers as you watched his eyes close as his arm suddenly wrapped around your leg. “I just..I just know there's gonna be hate..I just...I’m scared that stays just won’t like it or something.” His thoughts were jumbled, you could tell he was trying to truly put his feelings into words. It drove him crazy when he couldn't do it, it had his frustrations growing and you could tell with the way his hand grabs at your sweatpants.  “I don't know how..” He mumbles making you nod as you slightly pull his hair making him look up at you.

“They’ve missed you, like crazy. I wish I could show you just how much they do Hyunjin. They got so upset when they edited you out of the first episode of Kingdom, and that you weren't a part of it. They miss your lives and your selfies. They miss you.” Your words had him slowly blinking, as he placed his cheek against your leg and took a deep breath in. “They'll love it, I know I enjoyed the snippets that Minho sent me, sexy Hyunjin.” You mumbled a teasing smile on your lips making him let out a small laugh as face rolled against your leg as he took a deep breath in.

“I've missed you.” He breathed out making you smile as you bent down, your lips pressing to the crown of his head though when you pulled away his hand moved and cupped your cheek. It had your body freezing at the feeling of the palm of his hand against your skin, his lips suddenly pressing softly against yours. Your eyes are wide as you watch him pull away, the tips of his ears going blush as he suddenly clears his throat as your hand moves to his jaw. It had his eyes scanning your face slowly, the shock of his lips against yours leaving your chest as you kissed the tip of his nose then to his lips.

“I've wanted to do that forever.” You mumble pulling away, his eyes blinking rapidly as he suddenly climbs onto the bed next to you. His hands find your waist as he pulls your legs over his lap. The movements were quick and it had your head leaning against his shoulder as he fell onto the top of your head, kisses pressing into your hair, again and again as his fingers rubbed circles into your top. The silence was comfortable, it settled your rapid beating heart as you tug slightly at his black shirt. His body slightly shifts from you as he looks down at you with a slight tilt of his head. “What?”

“Nothing..just...you make me feel..safe is all.” His words had a smile lifting onto your cheeks as your hand moves up and cups his cheek, his head jaw nuzzling against it as he looks at you. “I...I l..”he pauses his words, eyes closed and he pulls you closer to him, his head leaning against your shoulder as you nod.

“I know, I like you too.” Your words had a breath of air leaving his lung as he let out go and fell back onto his bed, yet his head made contact with the wall it was against making you spit out a laugh as he groaned. You crawled quickly, body pressing to his side as his hand cupped the back of his head, your hand cupping his cheek pulling his head up as you kissed where he was holding, making his sigh and rolled over. Your body now propped up against the wall as his head buried itself into your chest, body turning onto his side as one of his legs moves to throw over you, making him slightly curled up into a ball.

“My head hurts.”

“No shit you fucking idiots, you threw your body back trusting that the wall was gonna be like a pillow or some shit.” Your mumble, your fingers running through his hair, yanking slightly making him whine as he looked up at you. “What? I thought you liked your hair pulled.”

“Shut up.”He mumbled, his cheek going red as you let out a loud chuckle when his hand suddenly squeezed your side. “Soo..are we dating?” His question had you let out a chuckle as you moved down, fingers gripping his chin as you nod.

“If you want.”

“Cool.”

“Cool? That's what I get? Not even a high five?” You teased making him look at you with squinted eyes as he shrugged. His head falls back against your chest as he nuzzles against you, making you wrap your arms around his shoulder tightening around him as he takes a deep breath in. “So no high five?”

“It isnt like we had sex or something.”

“Wait are we high fiving after sex?”

“Uh...we could? This isn't how I thought asking you out would go.” His words had laughter pooling out of the two of you, your chest rattling as you rolled into each other, suddenly the ding of a notification from your phone had you reaching. Looking to see it from the stray kids channel had you smiling, wiggling your eyebrows as you pressed on the video making Hyunjin launch himself at you as the sound of it staring had caught his attention. “Wait no.”

“You were gonna watch it anyway.”

“Not with you! It's embarrassing!” He whines as you watch your screen go black his body on top of yours as you whine as his legs end up on either side of your hips. His arms on either side of your head as his hair falls in his face, his eyes glaring down at you making you glare back. It had your hand reaching up as you flick at his nose making squint and flinching back slightly, shaking his head. “Rude.”

“I want to watch you dance.”

“You've seen me dance.”

“But not that choro. Jinnnieee!” You whined, dragging his name out making his body weight fall completely on top of you as he huffed and nuzzled against your shoulder.  “Bro I cant fucking breath.”

“I'm comfy.”

“My boobs are not.”

“I mean I beg to differ.”

“That is not what I meant.” You mumble, eyes wide, heat on your cheeks as you slap at his back whining as you feel his legs stretch out onto the sides of you. Sighing when you realize he was in fact not gonna let you  watch the video with him, nor was he going to move you started to rub his back, leading up to the nape of his neck as you ran your fingers against his scalp. When suddenly the sound of your stomach turning had Hyunjin laughing as he lifted himself up and looked down at you. “If you laugh at my growling stomach again I'll break up with you.”

“Then this would've been the shortest relationship I've been in.”

“I was in a relationship for five second once.” You mumbled without thinking, making him laugh down at you as he shakes his head.

‘With who?”

“Jin from BTS I was like fifteen on vlive asked him to be my boyfriend for five seconds he said sure.” You mumbled, blushed as Hyungjin started to belly laugh again. His eyes closing as he falls over his body landing on top of you as he rolls off though as he does you push making him land onto the floor. The sound of him groaning after his body hit the floor had you chuckling as you rolled over and peek over the bed to see him clutching the back of his head again.

“You're gonna kill me.”

“You're the one who asked if we were dating, so in the end if I do it's gonna be your fault if you think about it.” You mumble making him look at you and huff, his eyes meeting your as you give him a bright smile

“Can I retract everything that has happened in the last forty minutes.”

“No.”

“I don't think this is how that works.”

Y/n was never the one for reaching out for the people around her, who loved her, when she needed them. She was never one to talk about her complaints, her issues, she was never a confrontational person. Even as a child she took what she was given, and never complained. It drove her brother mad. It drove him to the point of him getting so frustrated that she had let him take and take, trying to find her limits. Yet he could never find it. Not till she was alone, and trying to pick up the pieces of herself, her mind racing chest moving rapidly as her hand grabbed and reached for parts of herself she had given away. It broke him, seeing his baby sister like that. Her eyes wide, dead looking as she tried to push him away when he tried to hold her together, It had his own body, mind turning wondering if he could find a way to help. But he couldn’t, all he could do was watch her break, her mind destroying her as he just held her.

He remembers vividly the day their mother had called him, voice breaking as she said her name, a cry breaking through as the world around him shifted. He hadn’t even noticed that tears were falling down, loud cries passing his lips and he was on his knees. He didn’t notice that his friend Johnny was shaking his shoulder, worried eyes as he let out a cry of your name. All he knew was his baby sister, Y/n had tried to take her life, memories and moments the two had shared together flooding through his mind. Trying to wrap around the moment that could’ve pushed her, and he couldn’t find one. When he had seen her in that hospital bed, lips chapped, hair being brushed out by his mother and her  wrist wrapped up with a motor beating, reminding the two of the people around her that you were still there. It made his mind race as he started taking deep breaths, their father sharing hushed words in the hall with the doctor as he trailed into her room. From that moment on, after seeing her so broken, and frail, he swore he was never gonna let that happen again.So when Yeji sent him a message about Y/n acting off,  her usual sunshine exterior was being drowned out by the darkness that she had mastered pushing to the side. Yeji said she was being snappy, rude and closed off. So he got a bag packed and headed to her apartment, deptermed to make sure she was safe. While he was on his way Y/n was in her bedroom,staring at one of her walls, eyes dazed over as she recalled the day with him over and over again. Trying to find the thing that she did to send the boy off, to just snap at her.

“Hyuck! I finished my portfolio for my class, want to see?”  Y/n said with a bright smile on her face, making Donghyuk eyes snap up from whatever he was fiddling in his hand. His lips rolled between his teeth as he watched her sit down in front of him, she was giving him a bright smile as she flipped it open sliding it over as he took it, one of the first photos was of Yeji. The next was a fresh snowfall, snow still fallin and the next was of him, his eyes were closed, leaning against a tree as the sun was illuminating off of him, the fuzz of his hair was captivating. He had forgotten she had taken that photo the day they had gotten ice cream. His eyes looked up to see her staring at him, his eyes rolling as he slammed it shut making her flinch. “Do..do you not like it?” She mumbled, her hand running through her hair as she let out a heavy breath of air as he chuckled.

"What's your fucking idea here? What your stupid plan?" He growled, her eyes widening slightly as she messed with the end of her large long sleeve. Donghyuck let out a huff of breath as he watched her shrug.

"I..I don't know what you mean Hyuck. I really don't."

"Yes you do, why am I here? What's the point of it." She shrugs again, lifting her eyes from her sleeve, his eyes cold and distant.

"I….the prompt was to capture something beautiful outside of nature.  It was the only photo I took that my mind seemed to like." He takes a deep breath, surprised at her words as he shakes his head and takes the thing he had been fiddling with, slamming it onto the table. The stupid cannon pin. “Oh..” She whispers, making  Donghyuck let out a groan as he runs his hand through his hair, messing it up making her want to reach out and fix the strains. He was being rude, and was making her anxious and she just wanted to fix his hair. “Is..is there something wrong?” He rolls his eyes, the girl's soft tone makes him want to lean into her in a way, and it makes him want to have her wrap around him as he breaks. His brain was killing him, and yet the memories were pushing him away from her. “Hyuck? You can talk to me.” Her hand reached out, to place on his arm making him flinch away, her eyes widening as he let out an aggressive grunt.

“Why do you care?” His question though held an aggressive tone, was anything but that, it was a broken question. The whispered words were cracked as they left his lips.

“I like you, and I care.” He stays quiet for a couple seconds, his eyes moving anywhere but her as she waits. “And..I mean like you like. I.. you don't have to say anything, you don't have to like me back but I just..I just want you to know I care.” Her voice sounded like it was almost caught in her throat as she waisted, his eyes twisting with different emotions, mouth parting as he spoke. Yet the words that left weren’t what she was expecting.

“Look Y/n, I think you might be a great girl. Funny maybe I don't know and I don't care, cause I don't like you.” His words had her eyes burning as she sniffled, arms moving, falling away from him as she felt her chest tighten. “ The world doesn't fucking revolve around you, around that dumb smile and thoses stupid jokes. I hate that every single person around you falls for it, I hate that you think that I'm gonna even enjoy your company. I don't like people like you.”

“But you don't even know me.” She whispers, eyes shining as his own chest was twisting but he hated it. Hated her.

“Yes I do. I know people like you. I know you. You can’t handle people not liking you, can’t handle not being the center of attention, can’t even handle the world around you. You are nothing but a selfish, innocent little girl who gets everything she wants. Who had people wrapped around her finger, so leave me alone. Leave Jeno alone. And just fuck off.”

The only thing she could think of was her. You're the problem. Her mind called out, making her flinch, eyes blinking slowly as she took a deep breath in, and then shuffled around the floor, her head hitting the wall behind her.

"I'm the problem." She whispered to herself, her eyes burning, the world around her shimmering as she wrapped her arm around her waist. He hates you. He wants nothing to do with you and it's your own fault. "My fault. He hates me." She spoke, as the tears finally fell, a sniffle then a choked sob. "Why does he hate me?" She wondered aloud, 'Cause you're you, who could ever like you. He's the only honest person. Everyone else just feels bad for you, everyone else hates you just the same. With every thought more and more tears fall, her chest moving rapidly as her hand rolls into the first, slamming against her thigh. "No. They love me." She tried to fight back, her brain her mind growing louder and louder. Ha. Funny how they could love failure. "Shut up." She mumbles, to no one but herself. Her fistlifting to the side of her hand, knees against her chest as she cried. Couldn't even kill yourself right. She let out a scream like sob, first balled at her skull, eyes closed, mouth pressing to her knee.

"Y/n! Hey stop, you gonna hurt yourself." The voice brought her out of her mind, eyes still dazed as she felt her hand move first from her head. Arms quickly wrapping themselves around her, his smell swarming her making her tense body go limp. "I've got you. I've got you."

"Jae." She whimpers against his chest, her body lifting from the ground, moving to place her onto her bed, his hand sliding her sleeves up, making a frozen Yeji flinch. Nothing. Nothing but tattoos. A breath of relief filled him as he pressed his hand to her thigh, trying to see if he could feel the heat of any angry lines. Nothing.

"You're safe. Where is your medication?"  She stayed silent, head snuggling into her brother's arm, pulling him close to her. “Y/n, medication? Have you taken it.” He watches her nod, her eyes closing as he moves around to sit next to her as she moves to rest her head against his chest. His arm wrapped around her shoulders, eyes watching as her sleeve runs over her cheek as she lets out a breath. “Okay, I’ve got you. Not gonna go anywhere.” He pauses as she nods into his chest, her eyes closed as he takes a deep breath. She was safe. She was with him, in his arms hopefully falling asleep. Yeji was standing outside her bedroom door, eyes full of worry, Mia rushing back and forth between the hallway and kitchen as the smell of food filled Jaehyung's senses. Both girls worried about their friend, yet filled with relife that he was here.

Jaehyung was one of the few people who Y/n would fully let go around, her big brother was her friend's safety net to reach for when she was spiralling. Jaehyung knew the ways of this erosion of Y/n, knew how to move her to do her day to day task, he understood when she needed a break and knew before others did when she was gonna break. He had pushed to learn everything about her dark times when she was in the hospital, he went to her therapy sessions when he could and gained her trust. He was worried this time around, she hadn’t been like this for almost a year, at least not this bad. She had her moments, times where Yeji had to reassure him she had his sister. Yeji was the only person Jaehyung trusted with Y/n when she was like this.

“I have soup.” Mia said, a bowl in hand eyes wide making Yeji shake her head as Jaehyung fought back a laugh as Mia walked forward and placed the bowl on the bedside table. “She hasn’t eaten since yesterday.” Mia softly mumbled her hand reaching over to run her hand though Y/n's hair, making the girl stir as she let out a whine.

“Do either of you have an idea what made her spiral?” His question had Mias head bow down, Yejis body tensing as Jaehyung looked between the two. “What?”

“Let her tell him.” Mia mumbled softly, making Yeji roll her eyes, shaking her head as Jaehyung grew more and more anxious. “Yeji.”Mia scolded, the other girl glared as she opened her mouth and let the name slip out.

“Donghyuck.” Yeji said, making Mia slap her arm as Jaehyung looked between the two, eyes widening growing with anger as he shifted Y/n slightly, holding her tighter to him.

“Who the fuck is Donghyuck? And what the fuck did he do to my sister?”

Donghyuck was fucked. Royally fucked. He knew that the moment he saw Yeji pulling at the arms of a tall man, Mia not far behind on the phone. He knew he was further fucked when he saw the look on Jenos and Changbins face when they saw the tall male, his dark brown hair moving as the look on his face became more and more angered as Yeji pulled and pulled at his arm.

“What is Jaehyung doing here?” Changbin wondered, making Jenos shrug and donghyuck grow tense, his body almost shaking as he suddenly stood up.

“I-uh gotta go.” Jenos eyes widen as Changbins shoulders fall.

“He’s here because of you? What the fuck did you do?” Jeno all but screamed at his friend, worry etched in his eyes as Changbin slammed his hands on the table as the three here Jaehyungs voice growled Doughyucks name. “You’re dead.” Jeno mumbled, shaking her head as he watched Jaehyung finally approach the table, hands rubbing Donghyuck shoulders shoving him making the boy stumble.

“What the fuck did you say to my sister?”  His voice had Donghyuck flinch as Yeji let out a soft call to his name.

“You are on a campus, don’t fucking beat this kid.” Yejis words were meant with deaf ears as Jaehyung grabbed the boy by his jacket collar, almost lifting the boy off of the ground. Donghyuk's face was glowing red, his heart beating rapidly against his chest as Jaehyungs face was stone cold.

“You go anywhere near Y/n again, if you talk to her in any way that is not an apology then you better be ready for me to beat you to a pulp.” Donghyuck nodded, eyes closing as Jaehyung shook him slightly, “You calm that you know her again, I fucking break your neck.You don’t know shit.” Then Donghyuck was on his ass, hand gripping his chest as he watched Jaehyung stop off Mia frozen as her eyes followed after him as Yeji glaring.

“Who does that guy think he is?” Donghyuck asked, rubbing his skin as Jeno scoffed and Donghyuck looked at him. “You guys just let that happen? What the fuck. She really does have you wrapped around her finger. The bitch.” His words had Changbin stand up, eyes glaring as Yeji kicked at his boot cover foot.

“You don’t know her.”

“I know people like her, and that dude just proved it to me who she really is.” Donghyuck huffed his hand running through his hair as Yeji glared, Jeno shaking his head as Changbin clutched his fist. Mia was just watching lips parted, eyes slowly blinking as Yeji finally got her thoughts off her chest.

"You want to know who she is? Huh. She’s people's joy. The sunshine they keep in a box to bring themselves joy, they're own little personal stash of happiness. They use her, to get just the sliver of that-that single ounce of it. Of whatever the whole world looks for. The true high of a lifetime. Then they leave her.” Yeji paused, her eyes watering as Jeno and Changbin stared at the girl with wide eyes, Donghyuck feeling his chest righten, his heart beating in his fingertips as he let out deep breaths. “They leave her with her mind, all alone not even caring. Because she made them happy, made them feel the sunshine that glows through her smile. Her eyes. Hear it, even. It's crazy to the world around her that someone so bright, so joyful and someone so full of laughter can ever have a dark thought in the world about themselves. But I've seen it. I see it when people aren't looking, how the glow in her eye dims, her smile ever so slightly dropping. I see how it carves through this box that she made and stashed away all of her fears, her insecurities and memories that she wants to just forget.I've seen her break. I've seen her so numb to the world around her that she doesn't even respond to the call of her name." Yejis chest was moving rapidly as Mia moved next to the usual stone walled girl. Her eyes  closed, and Donghyucks mind raced. He couldn't have been wrong. He never is. He couldn't be wrong about Y/n. "So no. No she does not have the world twirling around her fingers, no she does not believe she is the most amazing human that there ever was or will be. She just wanted to make you smile, maybe hear you laugh, she wanted you to feel the joy she so desperately craves. She wanted you to feel safe and cared for. So no you don't know her, cause people who do know how precious her love is, her heart. And you just took it and smashed it in front of her. You just broke her." Yeji let out a shaky breath as she turned on her heel and stormed off, Jenos shoulder slumped in defeat as Changbin started to gather his things.

“What the fuck did you do man.” Jeno whispered, his eyes closing as Donghyuck stood up, stumbling slightly as Jeno looked over at him as he stood up.

“I just..I dont..I.” he stumbled, eyes filling with tears as Jeno huffed.

“Why do you always hurt the people in your life that are trying to help? Why do you always push people you like, you care about away..like shit.” Jeno shakes his head as he moves past Donghyuck who has his eyes casted on the courtyard floor. Changbin follows Jeno, leaving him alone with his thoughts, chest tightening, hands shaking.

Why am I like this? Donghyuck shakes his head, moving to grab his bag, walking away taking deep breaths with every step he takes.

You could hold moonlight in your hands

“Jaehyung stop.” Y/n mumbled slapping away his hand, the easy ruffling her hair. Her eyes still duel but a soft smile was dancing onto her lips, her hand running through her hair as her brother tried to make her feed him some ramen that she was eating. She didn't know she missed him as much as she did. She missed his loud laughter, and horrible jokes. She missed his soothing voice, and his awkward shuddering  advice. She missed Jaehyung. “Missed you.” She whispered, eyes closing as he wrapped his arm around her shoulder, chin resting on the top of her head making her let out a whine at the paint of his chin digging into the top of her head.

“Awww, my baby sister misses me.” he said, his voice in a mocking baby voice as he proceeded to wrap his other arm around her neck. She looked over to a laughing Mia who was looking up from her textbook she was flipping through. Yeji was away at work, but not before she smiled brightly at Y/n arms around her waist trying to press kisses onto the girl's face. Making Y/n turn red, whining to push Yeji away. Now her brother was doing the same, kissing her cheek again and again, choking her a bit. She wanted to retract her words, so she did.

“Nevermind.I hate you, get off.” She grunt pushed him away making him whine as she threw  a pencil at him. “Jae knocked it off.” She laughed as he stuck his fingers into her ramen making her pout as she moved and handed him the bowl.

“Wow thank you so much, how’d you know I was hungry?” He teasingly asked her, making her roll her eyes as she looked back down at her homework.  She was stressing, finalas were coming up and she the past three days had stayed in her bedroom, not even realizing the days were passing. When she realized she had missed the classes the day after Jaehyung had come to help , she had fallen into a panic attack. It had taken her brother and her roommates to calm her down. She hated that it took her three days to get out of her mind, and she hated that she knew it would’ve taken longer if Jaehyung hadn’t come along.

She hates the fact the a boy, a stupid boy drove her into the darkest parts of her mind, her only idea as to why is because she really did like him. She enjoyed watching the way he fiddled with the stupid cannon pin that was resting near her sony camera, that was once on his bag. She liked the way when Jeno would try to show him some sort of affection he pushed it away, but would get upset when he tried to get some form of cuddles and everyone would push him away. She loved the way his eyes would brighten up when she, or the others, would hand him food. Or the way he would remind her alongside Jisung that he was in fact older, even if it was only by a few weeks or months. She liked the fact he took his time to like her. She liked that he wasn’t open to her, at least not openly everything he did with her was subtle. She loved the small moments when he was freely himself around her, even if it was unintentionally.

She was sitting at her desk off to the side, paper of the students around her in front of her, a pen in hand as she went over the work. The profile guideline next to her as she takes a deep breath at the messly thrown together binder, her eyes rolling as she hears the kids around her messing with the photoshop app the teacher had given access to.

“Y/n.” She heard a whisper, her head flicking up to see the light brown hair, his brown eyes staring at her with a pout making her tilt her head to the side. As the boy pointed to his laptop, making her let out a dragged out sigh as she  got up and moved towards the desk, bending down next to him. He gave her a smile as she rolled her eyes and turned the computer towards her. Moving around the mouse getting a feel of the computer she lets out a chuckle as she finally takes a look at a photo he had been editing was of Jeno and another boy who had blue bangs laying in the middle of a pile of red solo cups, glitter and confetti.

“How'd you convince Jeno to do a photoshoot?” Y/n mumbled, her eyes peeking over to the boy who was staring at her as he gave her a lazy smirk.

“Got him hammered.” She let out a snort, pressing her forehead to the table as he joined in on her soft laughter. “Jaemin was just stoned.”

“Not surprised.” His fingers were suddenly flicking her hair making her eyes look over to see he had moved his body over half of the chair he was in open. “Huh?”

“You look uncomfortable, and I need help..just..just sit.” He huffs rolling his eyes making her smile as she nodded, moving to stand, the sound of her knees popping had Donghyuck laughing under his breath. “Why do you always sound so old when you move?” he chuckled as she rolled her eyes and placed herself awkwardly on the edge of the chair.

“Shut up.”

“Old lady.” He mumbled, holding his hand over his mouth, as she looked over at him with wide eyes and lips parted.

“Oh fuck off.” She giggled, “Now what the fuck are these layers for?”

Blinking, Y/n looked over to see Jaehyung staring at her with a raised eyebrow, his lips parted as he waved his hand in front of her face. She shook her head as she heard her brother's laughter. “What’s going on in that head of yours?” He wondered, making her blink at him and shake her head, taking a deep breath in and standing up, arms reaching up letting out a grunt as she reached and let out a sigh. “Y/n, I asked you a question.” Jaehyung mumbled, making her smile as she patted the top of his head and moved to the kitchen.

“Nothing, just spacing.” He nodded as she moved around, and looked to the time, groaning as she rushed to her room. “I’m gonna be late,”

“For what?”

“Work.” Jaehyung laughs as he hears his sister hit the door frame of her bedroom, a slang of curse words falling out of her mouth.

“She works?” he asked Mia, who just rolled her eyes and laughed, shaking her head as she exhaled a breath from her nose.

“Yes, only Thursday through Saturday though she, clearly,  took Thursday off.” Mia mumbled, making Jaehyung nod awkwardly, not realizing just how adult his little sister had become.

“Who called her out yesterday?”

“Ryujin, they work together so she picked up her shift.” Jarhyung nodded, his shoulders moving as he watched the screen, when suddenly Y/n stumbled down the hall hair in a tight ponytail, eyes looking around as she patted her pockets, then her boobs making the boy snort.

“What are you looking for?” She looked up, eyes dazed, and mouth slightly parted.

“My fucking keys.”

“In the bowl at the door.” Mia said, making her nod, rushing to her brother kissing the top of his head as she waved at Mia. “Can you bring me tea when you come home!”

“Yeah I’ll make it just how you like it.” Y/n said as she pulled black sneakers on her body leaving the apartment in a rush, phone and wallet in hand keys dangling from her mouth as she rushed down the hall of her apartment. Already ready for the day to be over.

“Y/n!” Her manager Jungwoo called out, a smile on his face as the girl smiled back and moved behind the counter to the back, checking in as she felt Jungwoos hand slid against her shoulder. “Feeling better?” She nods at him as he moves to wash his hands, grabbing a new stack of cups to put at the front.

“Yeah, just felt like shit yesterday.” He nodded as she moved to wash her hands, the sound of the door opening head Jungwoo took a deep breath, hands moving quickly, a dramatically bigger smile on his face as he greeted the customers. Her own body following, a fake smile she knew all too well. Her body stiffening slightly as she moves to the machines, getting ready for the day ahead as she hears Jungwoo call out and order her. His body moves to her as she bindly works, and already knows exactly what she needs to do. Jungwoos knocks his hips with hers making her blink and look at her.

“That guy was cute.” She does a double take from the coffee she was blending to her boss, her eyes wide as she looks over slowly, the boy was tall and on the lean side, his mask was hanging off of his ear as his black hair was falling in her eyes.”Told you.”

“Shut up.” She giggles, moving to pour the coffee, placing a lid on it as she moves to the counter. “Yuta?” She wondered, making his eyes snap up from his phone and nod, “Would you like a straw?”

“No I’m good, thank you..can I drink it here?” She nodded awkwardly, wondering why the man asked, looking to see that the lobby open sign was in fact on.

“Yes you can sir.” He gave her a toothy smile, as he nodded and moved to the table closest to the counter. Her eyes landed on Jungwoo who was on the phone nodding as she moved to the line, a customer smiling as she smiled back. Yuta's eyes are still lingering on her.

“Woo, my feet are killing me.” Y/n whine, two hours later, that Yuta had left after he had finished his drink, thanking the girl once again which had led to Jungwoo letting out a teasing nose as she scrunched her nose at him. She was on her closing which meant she was gonna be stuck at the shop for another three hours, and it was already getting dark out. “Plus why is a coffee shop open so late.”

“We don’t just make coffee.” He responded, reminding the girl of the new iced energy drinks the owner had put on the menu, her nose scrunching as she nodded.

“I know, I just hate the dark.” He chuckles softly, her body leaning over the counter when she sees  people walking to the door standing up straight. She gives a fake smile, that all but falls when she sees who walked through the door. Donghyuck. He was talking to a tall boy, who was adamantly handsome. She let out a sigh quickly ducking behind the counter making Jungwoos eyes bug as he welcomed the two boys. Y/n's body crawled away as she heard the boy's orders, freezing when she heard Jeno laughing.

“What the fuck are you doing Y/n.” She all but glared up at the boy who was peering over the counter, her body slowly getting up, knees popping making Donghyuk eyes snap to her.

“Old lady.” He whispered, making her chest tighten as she waved awkwardly and took the order slip from Jungwoo turn on her heels. Fuck Jeno, he proably wasn’t even thinking when he said her name, she knew that expeaclliy when he face fell when he looked to Donghyuck who was next to him. He felt saddened that the two most important people in his life were going against one another. That was not the plan. He thought as he ran his hand through his hair as the three boys moved to a table, This was not the plan at all.

“So that's sunshine..she looks pretty uh dulle and not welcoming like you said Jeno.” Lucas mumbled, making Jenos eyes snap to him, mouth parted as he nodded slowly as he looked to Donghyuck who was messing a sugar packet that was at the table.

“She usually is, but when she is at work she gets a bit in a work mood, you gotta meet her outside of work.”

“What was up with her hiding?”

“That would be Donghyuck.” At that the boy stands and leaves that shop making Lucas call out his name.

“I paid for that fuckers drink, what the fuck.” Lucas whined, making Jeno sigh. When the fuck is Donghyuck gonna let himself feel.

When Y/n looked over, seeing Donghyuck had stormed out, she touched Jungwoos shoulder. “I’m gonna go take my break.” He nods slowly, eyes filling with curiosity since the girl usually waits till the end of her shift to take a break so she can leave earlier.  She moves quickly out from behind the counter, and out the door to see Donghyuck kicking at the pavement outside the store next door, her eyes falling quickly as she takes a deep breath. “Donghyuck.” she called out making his head snap up, his lips parted as his hand moved through his hair then down his face.

“What are you doing out here?” He asked as she moved forward, his body frozen in place as she stopped, making sure neither Jeno nor Jungwoo were looking out the cafe window.

“Just wanted to check on you, you stormed out of ther-”

“I told you I dont like you.” he mumbled, his voice was a hushed broken tone making her shake her head.

“Cool.” She nodded, turning on her heel as he quickly moved, his arms wrapping around her waist making her gasp as she felt his warm chest, warmth spreading across her body as she closed her eyes. The feeling of his breath fanning down her neck as she felt his node rub against her skin, her hand landing on his. “Donghyuck.” She whispered as he tightened his grip on her, the two standinakwardly outside, people walking by making anxiety fill her chest at the odd looks from people, her fingers trying to remove him from her waist. He only tightened around her.

“I’m sorry.” he let out the feeling of something warm hitting her skin as she let out a sigh, she felt his chest rapidly moving as she moved to turn herself around.

“Donghyuck, if you're gonna cry then let me hug you back.” She fought, eyes trying to ignore the looks from people here and there as he loosened his grip, the feeling of his hands still staying locked at her front had her lips slightly curling at the edges. She turned and wrapped her arms around his neck, her head resting under his chin, trying to make the hug less intimate. But he quickly and awkwardly moved his head to nudge into her neck making her cheeks flare as she quickly parted away from him making him sniffle as she looked at him.

“Sorry, I..I just.. I’m sorry.” He rambled, Y/n hand reaching out placing itself awkwardly on his shoulder, her thumb rubbing circles into his jacket making him take a deep breath.

“I… I have to go back soon, but I can ask to get out of the rest of my shift and we can talk.” He sniffles again, his fingers rubbing under his eye as he shakes shi head.

“You’re willing to help me even if I said..that stuff to you?”

“Everyone deserves a shoulder to cry on, even if that person is a stranger.”

“I..I really don't know you.” He whispered after a few seconds of silence, his brain racking though every bad thought he had of Y/n. It all was just the fear he had of possibly falling for the girl, the fear of getting hurt. His words had her smile slowly curl upwards as she nodded slowly, her hand sliding down his shoulder to her side as he cleared his throat. “I..i’d like to talk to you, but you don’t need to leave work for me..I’ll..I’ll pick you up.” her smile grows making his heart speed up. “Why..why are you being so nice?”

“Like I’ve said, I care….I get off at nine.” She trunks on her heel and walks away, a small skip in her step as Donghyuck let out a deep breath. He was gonna try and believe that.

By the time nine swings around, Jungwoo had noticed the slight lift in Y/n's mood as she whipped down the counter and got some stuff ready for the morning shift. He noticed from the time she walked back into the store, a slight skip in her step as she ruffled one of the kids' hair, whose smile grew tenfold at the girl. And then her smile grew softly as the boy who left came back in, his eyes slightly puffy. Who was now standing outside the glass door, his body covered in a large jacket, his head moving to peek into the glass every couple of seconds, as the look of his breath being caught in the air had Jungwoo and Y/n realize how cold it had really gotten.

“You got a date?” Jungwoo asked, making the girl shake her head as she grabbed her keys and phone, eyes lingering on his as she gave him a smile.

“Uh no, just a..a friend? I think.” Her voice turned into a hush whisper, her smile falling making Jungwoo frown as he watched the usually joyful girl's shoulder fall. “I..I don’t know.” Shaking her head she took a deep breath and straightened up. “Anyway, I must be off, don’t want to keep him waiting.” She gives Jungwoo a side hug that warms the boy's heart as she leaves the store, her hand opening the door making Donghyuck jump from leaning on the glass.

“Hey.” he awkwardly breathes out, she gives him a soft smile as the two begin to walk, her body falling in step with his as she wraps her arms around her waist. Her long sleeves were lucky covered with a jacket, but nothing that she should be wearing in this type of weather.

“So, where do you want to start?” She asks Donghyuck looking over as she bumps her shoulder,  making him let out a breath as he shakes his head.

“I...I..people don’t like me.” She let out a huffed breath as he saw her shiver. He unzipped his jacket, the two still walking  his body moved to remove the jacket making her stop and press it back to his body. “You’re..you’re cold and you are listening to me. An asshole, so let me.” he mumbled, making her shake her head as she kept walking, shivering. “Y/n.”

“Yes?” Her question was drawn out as she turned to him, walking backwards, making worry lift up in his chest as he saw a group of people coming their way down the sidewalk. He let out a sigh and launched forward, arms wrapping around her waist as he dragged her to his side. She had stumbled her way to him, eyes wide as she let out a shaky breath, her body automatically leaning into his side arms wrapping into his unzipped jacket making his skin flinch at the cold feeling of her hand against his thin shirt.

“You’re fucking freezing.” he mumbled , stopping the two of them as he moved his jacket  around so she was partially under it, his hand grabbing her other and bringin it to his lips, blowing warming air onto her skin. “Your brother almost killed me once, I don’t want him to do that again.” Her chest tightened at his words, confusion laced on her face as he let go of her hand, moving his to her wrist to move her arms around his stomach so her hands could lace around his waist under his jacket.

“Jae..You’ve met Jae?” Her words had Donghyuck nodding, as they started walking again, his arm wrapped around her mid back, hand resting on her forearm, rubbing up and down as he took a deep breath in.

“Yeah..scary dude.”

“I am so sorry. What did he do? Do I need to beat him up?” Her words had him shaking his head, as his heart began to thud rapidly against his chest. Eyes blink slowly as the two walked, steps matching quickly as they both took deep breaths in.

“I was an ass. I deserved it.” He chuckled as he smiled down at her, she shook her head, her nose turning red, as well as her cheeks as she sniffled. “I did. I really did deserve it. I deserved both him and Yeji coming for me.”

“Yeji to?God fuck.” he blink slolwly as she shook her head his hand moving from her arm to the side of her head, bringing to to his shoulder making her sigh as the two awkwardly walked, locked against one another. “Anway, we need to talk about why..why you’re so mean to me.” Her words had a shaky breath leave Donghyuck , nodding as the smiles dropped from his face, his hand moving back to her arm.

“I… I lied to you..about just having a little sister.” She nodded against his chest, his hand tightened around her as his other shoved itself into his jacket pocket. “I have an older sister, only by two years..she..she acts like you.” She lifted her head as she placed her hand so she could move to rub his back as he took a shaky breath in, “but she just.she just fake..she always used it as a way to get people to bend to her.” he paused as he took a shey breath in, his eyes filling with tears, he liked that though he knew Y/n could tell his eyes were glazed over with tears she was just listening. “She was always so nice, and always there for people around her but when she was at home she was just so..so mean.” he felt his hand gripping his shirt as the other kept moving up and down his back. “So mean. There wasn’t a name she didn't call me, there wasn’t a day she didn’t fight our mom and dad, and then she went and turned around and said our parents were the problem, that she was raising me. Yet all she did was destroy me.” His words had Y/n tighten her grip around him, face pressing back against his chest as she felt his hand grip her arm, tighter and tighter.

“Donghyuck..you don’t need to say anything more if you don’t want to.” Her words broke a silence they had fallen in step to.

“But I feel like I need to explain myself.” His words had her shaking her head as she pulled completely from him, a chill running down his spin as she looked up at him.

“Don’t tell me because you feel like you need to explain yourself to me, tell me the rest because you feel comfortable telling me.” He gives her a broken smile, nodding as he takes a shaky breath, pulling her back to his side.

“Okay..can we start over?” She smiles brightly at him, leaning up and kisses his cheek making his cheek burn not from the cold, but from the feeling that was surrounding him.

“Of course.”

“I’m Lee Donghyuck, I’m 20 years old and I can be an ass sometimes.” He said, making Y/n laugh, her head falling onto his shoulder as they walked down the sidewalk.

“Im Jeong Y/n, I’m 20 and I’m not always as happy as I look.” her words had him looking down at her, hand rubbing up and down her arm as she looked up at him and gave him a toothy smile.

“That’s hard to believe...but Yeji kinda told me something like that.” He watched as her smile dropped, eyes looking ahead of her as she took a deep breath in and laced her hands back together at his side.

“Yeah..I..I don’t like showing people that side of me very often..would explain why my brother kinda showed up.” Her words were meant with Donghyuck nodding his hand sliding down and away from her arms, moving to wrap around her waist pulling her tighter against him. “I’m good now.” She whispered, making him place his head on top of hers.

“Did..did what I said really cause you to..to break?”

“No..I mean yes? I guess. Not trying to be dramatic about it I guess.” She pauses with a deep breath, catching it in the air, making her giggle, that sound having a small dopey grin lifted on Donghyuk's face. “I..you just said things that I think of myself, things that I always worry about. Things that I always think about when people befriend me, it just became all too real for my mind.” her words had him nodding against the top of her head, “My..my mind doesn’t like me if that makes sense, like it.. It hates me?” She wondered aloud, one of her thumbs rubbing circles into his shirt, “It sounds crazy I know, but sometimes I just feel like I’m drowning, and I can’t find a way to save the air in my lungs. Like.. I don't know. Does any of this make any sense?” She wandered out to him, he nodded as he moved his head from hers as they turned a connor, her body leading the two of them.

“Yeah, I actually kinda get what you're saying.” She let out a breath of relief as they approached a group of apartment buildings.  She let out a breath as she saw her brother pacing outside one of the buildings making her freeze, her body detaching itself from Donghyuck making her shiver as he tried to pull her back.

“Brother.” The one word had Donghyuk eyes widening as he looked ahead to see the same figure that had almost put him into a panic attack two days prior. But he shook his head and took his jacket off, making Y/n shake her head but let out a defeated sigh as he wrapped it around her shoulders , arm throwing itself around her as he took a deep breath out.

“I gotta face him one day, especially since I want to get to know you.” His words had a soft glem light up on her face as she nodded, the two continuing to travel down the sidewalk . “Plus if he kills me at least Ill be some what numb from the pain cause of how fucking cold it is.'' Her laughter had her brother's body turning to face the two, it grew tense the moment he recognized the boy that was attached to her.

“Why is he with you?” His voice was cold as Y/n shook her head and left Donghyuk's side, sliding her arms through the sleeves of the jackets as she wrapped her arms around her brother.

“He apologized, and we made up.” “Made up? What the fuck y/n.” Donghyuck awkwardly watched as Y/n and Jaehyung stared at one another, glaring as he watched Y/n move away from her brother in a huff.

“I can make my own choices.”

“But they're not always the best.”

“Jae, people have reasonings and he gave me his.”

“For being an ass.”

“Yes.”

“It doesn't mean you should be hanging off of him, and bringing him back into your life.”

“I like him.”

“You like everybody.”

“Jae no I like him.” He froze at the words, his body going from tense to rigged as his eyes lifted to the boy making Y/n sigh as he pointed a finger at the boy.

“You hurt her again. I will beat you into nothing but dust.” She saw Donghyuck nod as Jaehyun let out an aggressive breath of air and turned on his heels. “I’ll be inside, I have to go home tomorrow.” She nodded as he walked through the door as she turned to Donghyuck, sliding the jacket of handing it to him as he took a deep breath in and gave her a scared smile. She gave him a bigger smile as she moved forward and pulled him into a hug.

“Text me when you get home.”

“I don’t have your number.” She let out a gasp as he took his phone out, handing it to  her as she let out a small gasp at the cold slick phone in her hand making her shiver as he borough her body close to his chest as she types her number into his phone.

“Now you do.” She happily said, making him chuckle as he looked at the contact ‘Sunshine’ and no picture making him smirk at her as he lifted his phone and took a picture making her squeak. Hand covering her cheeks making him chuckle, the photo was blurry, her face had a pink tint from the cold, and her eyes were wide with a half smile on her face, the moon being the only light that was illuminating her face. He loved  it.

“Yeah now I do.''He said as she hurriedly rushed into her apartment, sending her a message, quickly responding back with an angry emoji complaining about the photo he had taken, offering to send him a better one. But he knew even then no photo could top the one he had captured.

'Til the night I held you

“Y/n!” Donghyuck whined, his hands tugging at her sweater hood as she moved past him giggling at herself as she fell back into his chest. “Why are you trying to leave me.” He dragged out, the students around them giving the two soft smiles as they watched the two. For the past month he had finally let himself get to know her, it was slow and steady full of different memories that had slowly broken down his walls and though it was hard and enjoyed every second of it.

“Hyuck I have to get to my arts class.” She whined as the two walked down the hall, her cheeks grow red from embarrassment as people looked at her. She held her hands against his was resting on her stomach, she felt his nose run along her shoulder as he suddenly bit down making you yelp and pull herself from him. “You bitch.” She laughs as he joins in, tugging back at her top as he lets his eyes close as she tries to push him away with a smile on her face as Donghyuck puckered his lips at her. “Ew no.”

“Love meee.”

“No! Hyuck I have to get to my lecture.” Her laughter was tumbling out as his fingers rub against sides making her laughter grow as she pushed away from him and pointed a finger at him. “Rude. Get to your musical theory class.” She pushed him back down the opposite end of the hall  as he pouted.

“Can’t we skip. Please.” He whined, making her shake her head as he nodded, “Please, I’ve never asked you before please.” She stopped moving, racking her mind of the possibilities, she was passing, and it was her last class of the day, taking a deep breath as she looked at him.

“No, but you can come to mine after class.” he let out a whine making her move forward and wrap him into a hug, making him nuzzle into her neck as he moved the two of them back and forth. “Hyuck we got to get to class.” He shakes his head in her shoulder making her giggle as her hand reaches up and runs through his hair tugging at the ends making him happily huff into her shoulder. Pulling away, his eyes lingering on her face falling to her lips, he wants to lean in and trap her lips against , but he decides against it. He let out a deep sigh nodding as she pulled away and waves, Donghyuck staying still watching as she walks away and Jisung moving to wrap his arm around her shoulder, slight jealousy filling him up. And he hated it. He hated that she technically wasn't his, that the others could and have acted the same around her. Though he reminded himself that she liked him. She liked his hard exterior, she liked the way he laughs and the feeling of him holding her. He knows. He knows that if he kept working for her, he could have her and she could have him. Letting a smile fall on his lips, he lets out a happy breath and turns on his heels, ready to see her again.

By the time class was done, Donghyuck was sitting in the courtyard, eyes closed listening to music when he felt arms wrap around his neck making him flinch but his body relaxed when the sweet smell of apples surrounded him. His face lifts into a smile as his chin leans down against her arm.

“Hey sweet girl.” he whispered into her skin, making a sharp giggle cut through the air as he felt her nose nuzzle into his hair.

“How was the lecture?” He asked as she moved around, sitting down next to him as he looked at her, eyes wide as she smiled brightly at him.

“Good, a bit boring but good.” She moved her hand, her sleeve falling down slightly for him to see the shading of her tattoos, he was intrigued to see them. His fingers twitch to trace them, to follow the ink lines to the end. He wanted to see the designs, to see the detail, he wanted to see all of her if he’s being honest with himself. Shaking his head he smiles brightly at her as she runs one of her hands through his hair, tugging at the ends making his head go limp against her shoulder making her giggle. “How was music theory?”

“Same as you, we’re learning how to mix.” She nodded waiting to see if he would say more but his head just nudged her hand, making her giggle as she continued to run her hands through his hair.

“So still want to go to my place? Watch a movie or two?” Her question  had him nodding, but whined as her hand left  his head, his eyes opening wide as she got up and smiled. “Aren’t you coming?” She wondered turning on  her heel, wandering away from him as he hurriedly got up and sprinted to her. Arms throwing themselves around her shoulder as she smiled at him, “So what movie do you want to watch?”

“Kissing booth?” he asked, making her eyes widen as she giggled, nodding as her hand reached up to lace her fingers with his own that was hanging off of her shoulder.

“Sounds like a plan.”

When they arrived at her place, he looked around in wonder, never having stepped foot into the three girls' apartment. It looked very them, is all he could think. The walls were planned, yet picture frames of the three of them and their friend group were spread along all the furniture of the home, from the book shelf that was only three feet high, to both of the end tables at the couch.  He froze at the t.v stand, picking up a frame, it was a simple metal frame but the picture was of him and her taken about a week ago. It was one that he had whined about to Jeno who had taken her camera.  She was smiling, eyes in crescent moons, one of her hands covering her mouth with a sweater paw he was looking at her, eyes and face looked blank but he knew he was thinking how thankful he was that she was willing to give him a second chance.

“See Sony is better.” She mumbled, arm wrapping around his arm making him look down at her with a teasing smile as he put the frame down.

“I can find a way to fight that.” He said his hip bumping hers making her giggle as she detached from him and slipped into the kitchen grabbing a strawberry milk, him joining next to her as she nodded the fridge, “Can I have one?”

“Yeah, the banana milk is mine too if you want that.” He nodded as she moved out of the kitchen and down the hall making him freeze as he grabbed the milk.

Y/n was in her room, taking her contacts out and pushing her glasses further up her nose, as he walked in. She saw him freeze when she looked up and blinked the tears away, smiling at him as Donghyuck swore his heart stopped. She was adorable and the glasses did that much more. “Cuddles on the bed.” She said, making him nod as he awkwardly shuffled into her bedroom. Her T.v was mounted onto the wall, as he watched her place her phone down on the bedside table, her body crawling onto her bed moving her covers down struggling with the weighted blanket making him smile brightly at her. Once she was resting against the wall her bed was pressed against, with a pant she let out a laugh. “Great for anxiety, horrible for weak arms.”

“Let me help, baby.” He mumbled, her body freezing at the nickname as he moved to lift the blanket off of the middle of her bed. Moving to join her as he suddenly realized how stiff she was, his body freezing while on his knees while getting into her bed. Her eyes were blank as she felt his fingers flick at her forehead making her jolt with a whine as she rubbed at her forehead.

“Fuck you.”

“Gladly.” he teased, his smirk making her grabb a plush she had on the bed, and slam it against his face making him laugh as she moved and landed on top of her, arms wrapping around her waist as she was squished onto her bed. Her hand falling to his hair, the other slapping his shoulder as she giggled when she felt his nose run up the column of her neck. Over the last couple of weeks, she’s learned just how clingy she really was. His love of skinship was impeccable.

“You’re such an ass.” She mumbled, making him pout as he pulled away, making her let otua breath as she moved around along with him, the two adgesting on her bed. His arm threw itself around her shoulders, as she rested his head on top of hers, netflix on her t.v and quickly the Kissing Booth was on her screen.

As the move played his hand rubbed at her shoulder, and down her arm as her own hand played with his other hand. Her fingers rubbing up and down against the palm of his hand, drawing different shapes, the feeling of her head falling onto his shoulder had him looking down at her. His hand slid up from her arm to her chin, slightly flicking her jaw making a whine pass her lips as she lifted her head off of his shoulder. His other hand left her warm ones and moved to cup her jaw, making whatever she was going to stay get trapped in her throat.

“Hyuc-” He cut her off. His lips pressed, pushing, against her. The feeling of her slightly chapped lips against his own had his eyes falling close, His thumb pressing against her cheek as her hand moved to grab his wrist as she slowly kissed back. The taste of his cinnamon gum, mixing with her vanilla lip balm was a combination they both could get addicted to.

His lips moved slowly at first, pulling away after every touch only to fall back into her till he kept them against hers. Moving against one another, as her body shifted to face him better, lips never leaving his. His other hand slid down her back as she let out a whine when she felt his tongue slid against her lip, pushing against her as she pulled away, eyes still closed as she kept her hand on his wrist. His eyes opened, worry spreading through him as she kept her head bowed, and her eyes closed. He watched as she took a deep breath, his thumb moving against her cheek as he bent down slightly and pressed his forehead against hers. Making a small laugh slip out. Her hand slipped down from his wrist to press against his chest, eyes opening as she moved away.

“Was..was that okay?” he asked after a few moments of silence, another laugh passing her lips as she nodding hand grabbing at his shirt as she moved to sit on the back of her heels

“More than.” Her lips were then pressing back against his, his eyes wide as his hand slipped to her back, the other landing to her side brushing soft but it made her jolt as she let out a giggle, a painful giggle. “Ah!” She whined, pushing his hand away, his joy twisting into mischief as her face fell with fear. “Hyuck no.”

“Hyuck yes, sunshine.” He mumbled, making he squeak as both of his hands were on both of her sides, her body falling, trying to fight to get away, her head landing on her weighted blanket, making her whine as his hand started to push and tickle at her  sides. Her laughter was contagious, her head throwing back, eyes squeezed closed as her body moved, chest bubbling with every single laugh slippin out. Her hands tried to push him off as he straddled her hips, knees pressing against her ribs.

“Hyuck-hyuck stop.” She pleaded, making him shake his head as she moved and let out a cry tear falling down her face at the feeling as he let out a laugh, pouting down at her. Hands moving from her sides to cup her cheeks, her hands dropping to his knees as he bent down and smiled at her.

“Oh sunshine.” He mumbled, teasingly as he pressed a kiss to her nose making her whine as she tried, fought to catch her breath, glass had fallen off and were trapped in the strains of her hair as he tried to help detangle the frames.

“I’m gonna get you back, moon.” She mumbled, not even thinking of the nickname, not even caring about the tug of her hair as she whipped under her eyes. His own body filled with something, something he couldn't describe, as he finally got her glasses, sipping them onto the bridge of her nose she leaned up on her elbows and pressed a kiss to his lips. “I like kissing you.” she whispered, his eyes blinked close as he let out a dramatic sigh, body falling to lay next to her as he draped one of his arms across her stomach.

“I like kissing you too.” He mumbled after staring at her, her eyes staring up at her ceiling as the end credits of the movie played, being followed by the trailer of the next pick movies. His cheeks were flushed and his lips were red, her own mirror his. “I like you.”

“I sure hope you do after a kiss like that.” She mumbled, making him laugh as he rolled completely on top of her, head nuzzling it’s way into her neck as one of his hands moved to lace with hers the othe just falling onto bed. His legs laced, twining themselves as her free hand moved to wrap into his hair.

“I really do like you..I like you so much it scares me.” She nodded understanding exactly what he meant, kissing the top of his head as she felt him take a deep breath. “I’m so sorry still for what..what I said...I..I don’t like being vulnerable with people. I..I don’t laugh and joke..I don’t cuddle and kiss just..just anyone.”

“Seems like Jenos sure is a lucky guy.” She joked, making him giggle as her fingers run through his hair, tugging at the ends and repeating. It made him close his eyes, falling deeper against her, as she let out a breath.

“Yeah sure is, though the cuddling and kissings gotta stop, they're gonna be just for you now.” he played alright, making her chuckle as he looked up at her, lips brushing against her jaw. “I don’t like opening up, cause her voice is always in my head telling me everyone will leave once they realize how odd I am..how clingy I am.”

“I like it. I like how clingy you are, makes..makes me feel needed. So never question that with me, okay?” She mumbled against his temple, he nodded as he grabbed their laced hands and brought them towards his lips, his eyes falling down to a tattoo. She watched as he sat up and rolled her sleeve. Her lips parted, but she was parlized as he stared down. It was a grey scale lioness staring at him, surrounded with flowers that were warped from the base of the animale and up and around it. They seemed to be some type of rose  though he couldn’t be sure his eyes lingered on it watching it shade out and wrapped around her lower forearm. Though the shading was dark, it seemed that it couldn’t fully cover what he assumed she wanted to cover, white jagged lines.  His lips parted, fingers moving to trace the outline of the tattoo, feeling the ridges of every scare. It had his eyes watering as he looked at her seeing her own tears had started to fall.

“Y/n.” he whispered, making her shake her head, sitting up as  he moved off of her watching as she curled into herself, pushing the sleeve further down, wrapping her hand as he let out a breath.

“I’m better now.” She said, even going as far to repeat it over and over again. As if to remind herself, he nodded slowly, chin moving to rest on her knee as he awkwardly laid half way on the bed.

“Yeah? That's good...wann watch the second kissing booth?” He mumbled, making her closed, tearfilled eyes open, head tilted to the side as wonder filled her chest.

“You..you aren’t gonna..ask?” She wondered, his head shaking as he moved to rest against her pillows.

“I won’t unless you want me to.”

“Yeah, no.” she whispered, making him nod as he grabbed the remote and moved to have netflix play the movie, her body crawling to rest against his chest as he wrapped himself around her. Holding the crack pieces of her closer together.

“You..you don’t ever have to hide though..from me.” He mumbled after a couple of minutes, her head nodding against his chest as she took a deep breath. “You don’t have to hide.. You can just..god um I read that partners should have a code word or something for when the other is feeling..uncomfortable or anxious.”

“We’re partners?” she teased

“You’re my girl. My sun.” he reapplied quickly making her pull away, smiling  up at him as she ruffled his hair. Rolling his eyes Donghyuck moved her back against his chest.

“So you want me to say like.. berry or something?”

‘I was thinking more of some type of physical touch.” He mumbled, making her nod as he moved his hand to hers. Squeezing ounces, then twice, then a third time. “Like that.”

“Deal.”

“Deal.”

Yeji had walked past her door, the moment the screech of her laughter reached her ears. Though she was still having the boy walk on eggshells, she could help but realize just how well they work.She was his sun. He was her moon. They complemented each other in ways that no one, not even themselves could understand. So it was no surprise that she watched you skip your way out of your room a couple hours later, surprised in a t-shirt and shorts and a half asleep Donghyuck trailing after her, hands laced.  Yeji couldn’t fight the teasing smile at their red swollen lips, and messy hair.

“He's sleeping over?” Her question had the two stopping in place as Y/n looked back at Donghyuck who just shrugged.

“Yeah, is..is that a problem?” Y/n wondered aloud, making Yeji shake her head, grabbing her laptop and a bag of chips.

“As long as you aren’t too loud moaning his name, I don’t give two shits.” Her words had Y/n whining after her as Donghyuck chuckles blush spreading to his ears as he scratched the back of his neck.

“That isn’t the plan.” They both say to one another, making Yeji laugh as she moves to go to her bedroom, most lilley for the rest of the day, or night as the two see that the sky is now pitch dark.

“So what..what am I gonna wear?”

“Birthday suit?” Y/n playfully said, making him flick the back of her head having her hiss and rubb at the area.

“No.Bad Y/n.”

“Bad Y/n.” She mocked, his laughter joined her own and .It split out of the walls, slipping under the closed door and it had the two other bodies in the apartment grow joyful. She radiated her love like never before, and it was all caused by him.

“Christopher!” You sobbed. His eyes were watching you from the scene, his body moving across the road.

“Baby, are you okay?” He asks as he reaches mid way as you cry his name again. “Baby, Y/n I’m right in front of yo-” he was cut off from talking and walking when someone walked through him. Your cries grew distant as he looked at his chest, his eyes wide as he looked back to the car. His bleeding body was being dragged from the car, as CEPR was being performed. It felt surreal, watching his limp body move with someone’s pushed against his chest. He brought out his thoughts when your cry turned into a scream of pain. His eyes met your crumbling body, he moved to you. His hand reaching out to only have it pass through your face making you curse.

“I’m here, baby, right in front of you. I swear I’m not leaving, not now, not ever.” He whispered tears trailing down his face as you finally stopped screaming his name and just cried. “I’m still here.”

¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤

“Chris..Chris was the life of the party even if there wasn’t one.” Minho said as he shook his head a small smile lifted up on his lips, though his smile was painfully matched with swollen red bloodshot eyes. His cheeks puffy as you stood in all black in your shared apartment. “He did this thing where if it was too quiet he’d just start singing a random ass song and dancing. You know? He..he always tried to find the light in the dullest things, and he always…he always made me feel..us feel like we were…are bigger than this.” His eyes tailored to your hunched body, your eyes dull as you give him a small smile, tears trailing down your face as his mother grips your hand. Her sobs wracked her body as Minho looked at the glass in his hand. “Y/n..Mr. and Mrs. Bang..Chris…god he was a special man. I am so thankful you two gave him a life and a voice..and Y/n thank you for making him smile when no one else could…this is for you brother.” Chris was next to you and his mother, his eyes tearing up as he watched Minho turn around and let out a small sob as he walked away. Changbin stepped up, his skin pasty and his eyes just as bloodshot.

“We met in the second grade..he was new and had this accent that kids liked to make fun of. But he never saw it as a set back, and took it as a complement…he..fuck.” Changbin stopped speaking as he wiped his eyes. “I..I was told a month ago that he was..was looking for a ring.” He paused, making you stop breathing for a split second as you leaned closer to his mother, your heart clenching as Changbin looked at you. “I was told to prepare a speech as best man, that who I was to Chris and who he was to me. He was..and still is my brother. A man I want to scream at because he left us. He left me. With a speech, and no event to give it at. I wanted to give it here, but I can’t because it hurts too much. I’m so sorry Y/n..” Changbin coughs as he steps away as you wipe at your face. You take a shaky breath as you stand. His brother is clinging to your hand as Chris watches you, moving to stand to your blank side.

“Thank you all for coming..I know..I know Chris would scream at us all for crying like this.” Your words made his mother choke back a cry as his father rubbed her shoulder. “He didn't like it when the people he loved were upset, or cried. He didn’t enjoy not know-knowing how to fix..fix it all.” You breathed out as you messed with your black dress. “He loved with his whole heart…we all know that. He did..he did this weird habit that I still don’t understand and I was with him for four years..but where’d he grab the bottom of his shirt and spread it out in front of him when he was in deep thought.” His mother chuckled as she shook her head.

“He stretched every single one of his school shirts.” She said, making the room lightly laugh as you look at Changbin and Minho who clang to each other, their trio now turning into a duo.

“We love you Chris..I love you.” You whisper as you sit back down, people now talking among one another as you swear you feel a wetness drop on your shoulder where his head hangs over as he tries to imagine his arms around you.

¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤

“Honestly fuck you Christopher Bang!” You scratched at the broken picture frame. Your eyes were full of tears as you looked out the window. People living their lives, unknowingly passing the house of a broken girl that had black running down her face and it pissed you off that they didn’t know.

His scent was still wrapped around you, around the four walls of the apartment you shared together. His clothes still hung up in the clothes, and tossed outside of a drawer. His pillow at the end of the bed and his shoes resting against the front door wall.

“I hate you so much!” Your voice cracked as you fell to the hardwood ground. His large sweater falls over your hands as you bring your knees to your chest and sob into them. “Yo-you just left, n-no good-goodbye n-no an-anything.” You cried tears falling down as you rocked back and forth. The pain in your chest was breaking you down, shattering against any idea of love you had any future you planned together. You swear you heard his voice making you perk up and look around, the shuffling of his pillow made you stand up and wipe your cheeks. “Chris?” You whispered as you watched the bed dip.

“Y/n?” Changbin called out as he slowly set the key he had been given when you and Christopher had moved in. He was the security blanket for you two, always making sure you were sleeping, and eating. Killed the bug for the both of you, and watched the place as you traveled. “Oh Y/n.” He whispered seeing you down the hall in the bedroom. He walked down as you keep your eyes locked on the pillow, a dip in the bed that wasn’t there before. Your heart stopped as an arm wrapped around your middle, making you blink, and the dip in the bed was gone. “Come on, let me make you some hot chocolate.” He whispered against your hair as he pulled away and took your hand. His own body was covered in one of Christopher’s jackets. His body moved throughout the kitchen. “A month down.” He whispers, making you sigh as you let out another sob as your head falls.

“I-i miss him so fucking much.” You sob, making Changbin stop moving as he turns and looks at you. “Th-this isn't fair, we-we were gonna move into a house.” You whisper, making Changbin face you his mouth parted at the new information. “My love, my hero ,my everything was ripped for me…and it’s all his fault.” You sob, making Woojin jump into your body, his arm tightly wrapped around you as your body shakes.

“It's gonna be okay…it's gonna get easier..I think.”

¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤

“What the fuck did you do to our bed?!” You scream at Minho and Changbin  who were standing in the living room talking.

“What do you mean? I mean I made it-ow!” Minho cried as you slapped him. Tears falling down your face as you glare at him.

“His pillow stays where it was, his blanket stays bunched up..I can't recreate it, because it won't be the damm same! You asshole!” You cry as you start to shake as Minho's eyes widen. Not realizing it hadn't made sense he last laid there.

“I did-didn't know.” Your body shook as Chan finally found a way to hug you without passing through you. His head nuzzles your neck making you cry harder.

“Im..I’m sorry.” You whisper, making Minho step forward and cup your cheek.

“It's okay.” Chris moves away and Minho and you share a group hug with Woojin.

¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤

“Chris..I know this..this is weird.” You mumble as Chris sits next you on the bed, his hands reaching for your thigh as you let out a deep breath of air. “This is honestly crazy..but I just need you to know..what I said a few weeks ago..that it was your fault..it..it wasn't true..and when I screamed I hate you..it wasn't even close to the truth. Because…'cause you were..were the one and..I still need you here but you gone..and I took it personal…but death shouldn’t be personal.” You whisper, making him lightly smile as you take a deep breath. “I think..I think I’m gonna pack up some of your clothes.. give a few to your mom. They all smell like you.” You whisper as you reach for your phone and call up his mom for help.

¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤

“Are you sure you're ready for this?” He asked as he watched you pack some of his shirts and pants for goodwill.

“Yeah..it's been nine months..I need to do this..it's not a lot..but..a start?” You mumble making Minho nod as he helps you empty one draw of his. “Okay..no more.”

“Progress.”

“Progress.” Giving each other a high five Chris chuckles as Minho misses making you laugh echo in return. Something Chris hasn’t heard in months.

Progress it was.

¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤

“Binnie!” You laughed as Changbin spun you around your living room, his hand tickling your sides as Chris watched, a ping of jealousy hitting him. But he understood, watching you and his friends the past few months, the feeling for Changbin had grown for you and you him.

He wanted you two happy.

So he came up with a plan, his spirit moved through the walls as he grabbed your journal and opened up to your most recent entry. His eyes scan the words.

'I haven’t felt this way about someone since I first met Chris..and it feels wrong but so right at the same time. Changbin had made this feeling come up that I thought I’d never feel again. And it’s scary. I don't know if I can handle losing someone again.’

And then he knocks a picture frame down making a loud crash disrupt the two of you messing around. Changbin stood up straight as he placed you close to the couch and looked down the hall.

“Wait here."he mumbled walking into your bedroom, where he looked around till a picture frame that he glued together from the time you’d throw it across the room in a fit of anger, caught his eyes. It was a picture of Chris smiling, his eyes bright as your lips pressed against his cheek. It made Changbin smile as he saw the man he considered his brother, he hadn’t looked at a photo of him in a year, it felt good. It felt good seeing his face again, even if it would never be the same. It was still Christopher Bang smiling, and he swore he could hear the hum sound he made while you kissed his cheek.

As he moved it back where he remembered where he placed it after he fixed it. His eyes casted down and he saw your entry, and his heart began to speed up.

"She..she feels the same?” He whispered to himself, making Chris smile as he stood next to him and spoke.

“Of course she does, you make her happy.” Changbin jumped as he felt the vibrations of a voice he knew all too well in his head. “Can you hear me?” Chris said, making Changbin look around, and nod slightly.

“Bin? Is everything okay?” You ask walking into your room seeing the frame in his hand, his wide eyes stare at you.

“Uh..yeah.” he chokes as he runs his hand down his face. “Yeah..just this picture fell.” You humm as you move to stand next to him and stare at the two of you, tears gather in your eyes making Chris reach to wipe it away as he did so Changbin. He smiled at his friend as he watched the two of you stare at each other.

“Oh..shit.” you whisper seeing your entry that was open as you move fast to shut it. Already having an idea that he knew and now was ready to leave and never come back.“Did you..”

“Yeah. Yeah I did.”

“I think..I think you should go.” You whisper, making Changbin frown as he moves to rest and hand on your shoulder but you shrugged to get away from him. “Just..just leave..please.”

¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤

“Y/n, please call me back. We need to talk..please.” You listened to your voicemail again, Changbin pleas only made your heart break more.

“Dammit women, call him back!” Chris snaps as he watches you bite your lip. His favorite sweater wrapped around you, making his dead heart thud rapidly against his chest. Then his own voice travels through the air making his eyes widen. “Why do you do this to yourself, baby?”

“Hey baby, I just wanted to call to let you know I’ll be outside of the building waiting for you in five…I know I’m too late to change but I think my office attire will work for the date..I know you’ll look beautiful as usual..hence why you’re probably not answering me! But it's fine,I love you..I’ll see you in a bit.” You play another one, “Baby! Changbin just dropped off food, I swear he’d be a better boyfriend than me like how he is his single! Anyway I just wanted to call and say I love you, and have an amazing day at work!” As you went to play another you phone began to glitch due to Chris being the playfully smart ghost he is, and found a way to only play the part he wanted you to hear. “I love you, but it's fine you like Changbin.” It was choppy and wasn’t even a proper sentence but it made you throw your phone onto the bed as you stare at it. It played again, and again as Chris watched your eyes widen.

“Christopher Bang I swear if this you are coming to haunt my ass I’ll find a way to bring you back and kill you again!” You whisper, making him chuckle, your eyes snap to the empty spot in front of you, where he sat. “I..I finally broke didn’t I..cause I did..I did not just hear that laugh.” You whimper, making him frown as he looks at you. “I’ve missed that laugh.” You breathe out making him giggle, a smile lifting on your cheeks as your phone rings pulling you out of your thoughts.

Binnie is calling.

“Pick it up.” Chris said, making you roll your lip as you hear the very faint vibrations, like he was talking while you rested your head on his chest.

“Hello?” You answer by making Woojin let out a breath as he begins to speak but you cut him off. “I..I like you.”

¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤

“I haven’t been here since the funeral.” You whisper walking hand and hand with Changbin, followers and balloons in hand as Chris' family walks in front of you. It was his birthday today. You somehow had gotten through the first one, tears and snot but this one..this one was easier in a way. Chris trailed next to the two of you as he watched you closely, the twinkle in your eye was back, Changbin's smile was bigger than ever.

Soon you reached his tombstone, bending down your smile, “Hi baby.” You whisper as Chris sits next to his name, you sit on the grass as his family sits on the bench next to his grave. Changbin sits behind you, over the last few months Chris' family has fully supported you two with the love that was twining the two of you. You place the flowers next to his name and lean against Changbin. “Happy birthday weirdo.” You mumble, making Changbin laugh as Minho arrives, his body moving to sit next to the two of you as he hits a card in his hand. “What’s that Min?” You ask.

“I….just a letter to my brother.” Minho says, making you nod as he places it next to your flowers, Chris smiles at his friends and family.

“What do you think he's doing right now?”

“About to fight Changbin.” Minho says with a smile, making Chris' mother laugh as she shakes her head.

“Idiot.” Changbin said, hitting his shoulder as he laughed and nuzzled his face into your shoulder.

“I..I hope he’s happy wherever he is. I hope he is at peace and that…that he isn’t actually haunting me.” You laugh, making Chris follow as Changbin nods and Minho and his family giggle. “I mean he said, if he ever died he’d haunt me so I’m wondering if it’s happening.” You said wiping the tear that fell down your cheek.

“I wonder if he can finally sit in peace and enjoy the quiet sunsets.” Minho mumbles, making the three of you look at eachother and break out in laughter.

“As if.” Changbin laughs as you place your head into his collarbone.

“I just want him to be happy.”

“I am happy..I think..I think I can leave now.” Chris mumbles to himself, another Ghost at the tree waiting with a smile on his face, freckles covering his cheeks as his fringe falls over his eyes.“I..I can let go now. Baby..baby I ..I love you so much. I know you won't hear this, I know you won’t..but I just..I just love you so much. I’m so happy you’re happy. Thank you for the birthday wishes…I love you guys.” He stood up and walked to the tree, the unknown ghost smiled and clapped him on the back.

“Are you ready for the fun part kid?” He asks, making Chris look at him with wide eyes.

“Will..will I see them again?” His question made the unknown ghost chuckle as he laughed.

“Ah you kids, never truly know what’s out there for us…you’ll see them whenever they visit here. You’ll get like a ring in your head, and any gift they leave for you you’ll be able to pick up and keep it.”

“What’s your name?”

“Felix, died 1976, leukemia at 17….you?”

When people describe you, what do you think is the first thing to come to mind? Is it your smile? Your eyes? The glow that radiates from them? Or is the way your laughter bubbles out of you, tumbling into other people’s chests? How your jokes--and stories--bring tears to people’s eyes? Or is it happiness? The moment you smile, people’s shoulders slump, eyelids relax as lazy smiles fall onto their lips. How about joy?

What about all of the above?

From what the world has seen, Y/n Y/l/n is nothing but that. She radiates it like the sun radiates heat, her smile so bright it could only be described as blinding. Her laughter floated into the air, carving into other’s lungs, making their own bellies ache. When her friends think of comfort, a person to reach for. It's her. The girl who people can rely on, who has a way with words that make people's heads spin, and their body vibrates with joy.

Y/n was an addictive drug; sunshine. Genuine sunshine. The warmth that she spread along people’s skin with her soft touches, and her nuzzling full-body hugs...people became addicted. The way she'd drop anything for the ones she cares for became a routine. Her smile became something people dreamed of, they look forward to her laughter.

Few knew the truth. As to why she always pushed herself to do better, why she has always been so determined, desperate even. The darkness that clouds over her head. That wraps her up into a cocoon of nothing but every negative thought in the world. Every micro flaw. Every speck of insecurity. Playing over, and over again on repeat in her mind. Pulling her deeper, deeper, and deeper into a pit of self-destruction. Destroying her grades, her friendships, even her family. Everything. Very few stick around for those days. Very few even realize that her smiles were forced, or that the tremor in her hand wasn't because of excitement or maybe even nerves but because she hadn't eaten in days, her belly full of grief of not being happy. But her body still had no fuel.

Yeji knew. She knew how when Y/n hands couldn't stop fiddling with things, her phone case, her sweater sleeves or even the end of Yejis top. She'd pull her away from the situation. She was the only friend who saw the way Y/n's eyes fell when others looked away, or how they would linger with disgust at her own reflection. She witnessed her breakdown, eyes staring blankly at the wall, vision gone, tears blindly falling as if she didn't even realize they were in the first place. Hands shaking, as she tried to catch the air around her into a deep breath though a loud sobbed breath of hers about not being able to see anything around her had broken the silence Yeji had first walked into. She witnessed one of Y/n's episodes two months after moving in with her. How her body moved so slow, so stiffly around the house. Shoulder slumped but tense eyes dead.

She remembers vividly the first time Y/n had told her, in such a mantone voice it chilled Yeji to the bone, that she wanted to die. That she had almost succeeded once, but even then when she had woken up in the hospital had realized that she was in fact 'the biggest failure' cause she couldn't even seem to do that right. Y/n told her that her therapies had been said to set a goal. A goal that she could reach, that could motivate her into getting out of bed, and that she decided happiness.

Not of herself but the people around her.

She decided she wanted to make a stranger smile everyday, make a friend laugh so hard they couldn't breathe, and make someone feel so loved that they forget why they were even sad in the first place. It worked.

Well it worked on getting her out of bed. Sometimes it helped get her even out of her funk, and brought her back in some ways. But not all the time. But Yeji knew Y/n, and was always there for her the best that she could be.

College was interesting, new friends, new areas of the world she had grown up in, growing. Expanding. It scared Y/n. Scared her of the world that she swore she knew hated her, judged her, and was expanding. The first two years were rough. She didn't make many friends outside of Yeji and a girl named Mia who was a year above them. Yeji was a bright cheerful girl, though had a resting bitch face that had almost scared Y/n when she first saw it walking into her suit dorm room. Her features were sharp, and her brown hair was perfectly straight in a pony as she hung a Got7 poster alongside a shinee poster onto the dorm wall. Yeji had turned out to be the sweetest person Y/n had met, gentle and calm, shy even. She had taken the first step at getting to know Y/n, and had been stuck to the girl ever since.

Mia had come along in a shared Bio class, having been paired with the younger and as Y/n hand had shook as they shared a Bio book for the lab Mia couldn't help but want to protect the girl. Mia had seen the way Y/n smiled so bright it blinded dark clouds. Pushed them from people's minds. Mia had been drawn to the girl from that smile. And has been stuck ever since.

That was the thing about Y/n, one moment you think you understand the world. Then you see her smile, her laugh then it just expands. Your life grows.

Y/n became the 'sunshine' of a small group of friends that Yeji and Mia had hand picked to get to know their little piece of true joy over the years. Though the few only know of the girl's vibrant side, and had very little of a real idea of what she was hiding.

Yeji had pulled a boy named Jeno alongside her during lunch once, he was shy. Slightly curled in on himself as Yeji dragged him by his sweater to Mia and Y/n, Jenos eyes widening as he saw Y/n's bright welcoming smile. He felt warmth spread from his fingertips to the tips of his black hair. Everything felt warm. Welcomed. Especially when the girl that  had  dragged him had pushed him to sit next to her, Yeji smirking as she watches Y/n show him a photograph she had taken earlier of the sunrise. Jenos face relaxed as he nodded listening to the soft voice of the sun next to him. Already trapped as she had him laughing so hard a snort had passed his lips that had his throat hurting for the next couple of days

But it was worth it.

Mia had dragged the next, Changbin. A dark character with sharp features to the group's study session. They had walked up to Y/n's head deep in a book, Jenos and Yeji fighting over a formal. Changbin was confused to say the least, as to why a girl from his Chem class had dragged him to this group of people. Then he sat down next to Y/n, she smelt of apples and a hint of pure sugar. Her body was clothed in a men's top, one that he knew he had back in his dorm, larger than she needed it to be. Ripped pair of jeans and Van's. Her hair was in a messy bun and black rimmed glasses were sliding off of her nose as she looked over at him. She smiled. Her eyes somehow shined so bright under the artificial light of the library it shook him to his bones. "I'm Y/n. Mia is a bit much isn't she." Y/ns words had Mia scoffing as she threw a pencil at the girl, making her laugh, and throwing it back. Changbin couldn't help but nod, cheek going pink

A few more followed, Jisung, Hyunjin, Ryujin and a boy named Jongho. They all had become addicted to the girl, the glue of the group. Their own little personal ball of pure joy. They had the faint idea of the darkness that would hang on her. How it could ruin her day, how her face would fall as she leaned against one of them, tense, and dark.Yeji and Mia had been brief about it one afternoon when they're beloved roommate had woken them up to a night terror that morning. They said that she was a bit blue, but not to ask questions. So they didn't. They made sure the girl smiled as she showed up, and leaned against Jungho who had ripped her an apple open. Making her laugh as some of the juice had gotten onto her nose. Though it didn't bubble out like it usually did. It made them all look at one another, sadden eyes as Jongho kissed the top of her head. Wanting nothing but to scoop her up, and run away with her and the others. Keep her safe.

But even the sun gets covered by storm clouds.

Though today Y/n had skipped to the lunch table, Ryujin followed behind with a giggle as Y/n landed on top of the table and traced her nose like her favorite movie. It had Yeji and Hyunjin shaking their heads as Changbin kept his eyes on his phone, a ghost of a smile lingering on his face as he saw the girl. Jisung, Mia and Jongho smile brightly as Y/n pat the top of Jisungs head as Ryujin catches up. Her smile was big as she wrapped her arms around Y/ns waist.

"Ryujin said there's a party at that fraternity that Jeno is pledged at." Her words had all eyes.snapping to the blonde girl who was wrapped up in Y/ns arms. "As a junior who has never been to a party, I would really like to go to this one...but not without you guys."

"Sunshine, are you sure you want to go?" Changbin had spoken up, making the girl almost glow as she nodded, she pushed Ryujin softly as twirling her hair in between her fingertips.

"One party, that way I can say I went to one before I die." Her giggle had their shoulders falling as she sat in an empty spot next to Jisung. The boy had made eye contact as she gave him big eyes. "Come on Jisung, come onnnnn guys I want to check it off my bucket list." Her words had them giving in, and just as Jeno arrived with a boy trailing behind him. The soft brown hair caught Y/n's eye as she smiled brightly at her friend who smiled just as brightly back. "Jeno! We're gonna go to that frat party you guys are throwing!" Her words almost made him stumble as he looked at his friends, they all gave a side eye to the blonde girl who was slightly curling in on herself.

"Are you sure you can handle it bub?" Jeno asked as he sat down, his friend following as you nod.

"Why not? Gotta live a little don't I?" Jeno let out a soft sigh as he looked to his left where his frat brother sat. Donghyuck. He was the same age, and they had been friends for a while and lately Jeno and a few others had grown worried for him, so Jeno thought to drag him to the one person in the world he swears could help. Y/n. Donghyuck was in sweats and a long sleeve as he rolled his eyes at the bright smiled girl. "What's your name? I'm y/n."

"Or sunshine"

"Or joy"

"Bubbles"

"Bub"

"Angel"

"Little one." Her friends had all started to poke at, nickname after nickname making her cheeks flush as Donghyuck tilted his head at the innocent looking girl in front of him. It annoyed him how she slapped at the arms of the boys next to her. How he had to fight his body to join in on the group's laughter. Cause she was a girl, just a silly little innocent girl who probably thought the whole world would bend at her smile. It drove him mad.

"Donghyuck." He all but growled out and made her nod as Jisung wrapped an arm around her waist as he shoved his phone into her face making her eyes all but cross as she pushed it back.

"What do you think? I was at the lake yesterday, and I just wanted to take a photo for you." His words had her brain go into overdrive as she looked at the picture, the way the sunset was hitting the water, the leaves of the trees around the body of water were floating in the air. It was beautiful.

"A beautiful captured moment in time, a little fuzzy but that's just the phone." Her words were direct as Jeno midge Donghyuck who was rolling his eyes.

"Donghyuck minors in photography." Jenos words had caught everyone's attention, confused as to why Jeno was pushing the boy into the group. Usually when the group brought people in, it was Y/n who got to know them. Who spoke first, who opened them up and made them feel welcomed. Not the group trying to get the new person to talk. So they all found it odd that Jeno was doing just that. All but Y/n. Who's eyes brightened as she turned full towards the boy as she giggled. His eyes soften slightly as he looks at her, her hands clasped to one another, a surprising tattoo showing on her arm as her sleeve falls low. He shook his head as she opened her mouth.

"Favorite medium?"

"Uh people?"

"Favorite season to display?"

"Winter."

"Camera?"

"A canon."

"I'll forgive you for that." She teased making him blink slowly as he chuckled slightly, making Jeno smile. Hopefully his plan will work. Hopefully Donghyuck will become Y/n sunshine and she can be his. Or a sliver of it. For her dark days when they can't be there and for his cold heart.

‘My only sunshine'

Y/n walked down the sidewalk, her book bag over her shoulder, the others falling in tow in the courtyard as Donghyuck watched people wave her way. Smiles falling into their lips as they see hers, hear her soft hellos. It was driving him mad. It had been a week being dragged to the group's lunch table by Jeno. Being greeted by her soft smile and soft hello as one of the others poked her cheek making her puff them up as they did. Or how she had gotten him a canon pin to put on his book bag, a Sony one already on hers.

He hated how it made him feel. How quickly he had fallen into her trap, her web of greediness. He hated her large sweaters, making her always have cute sweater paws, or how she could make anyone laugh. He has yet to. But she's been trying every single day. Everyday she had made an effort to make him smile, try to make him laugh. Her own smile slightly dropped when he didn't laugh at her jokes but would at Jenos even Mias. She never gave up though. Everyday she came up with a lame pick up line, one that had Jeno snorting and Jisung rolling his eyes as he giggled, but Donghyuck just gave her a blank stare. Yeji didn’t like him. Not one bit. She didn’t like the way he rolled his eyes at Y/n, didn’t like how he'd always give her a blank look every time she tried to start up a conversation. She wasn’t upset that he didn’t seem to like Y/n, not everyone in the world has to like her best friend, she understood that. Yeji didn’t like the snarky comments he’d say under his breath, how he rolled his eyes anytime he saw Y/n or laughed when Jeno brought up talking to her about his troubles and how she helped. She didn’t like the secret glances Jeno gave his frat brother, and didn't like the secrets that were clearly hidden behind her friend's eyes when he looked between Donghyuck and Y/n. No she didn’t like him, and she wants him to stop coming around.

“Bubbles!” Mia called as Yeji saw Y/n had stumbled, Mia laughing after her as she watched the two girls grab onto one another laughter tumbling past their lips as Donghyuck rolled his eyes and stopped his movements. “You gotta be careful there bubbles.” Mia laughed, pulling Y/n against her.

“Yeji, come on girls getting ready at our place for the party tonight!” Y/n laughed as Yeji started, glared at the head of light brown hair. Donghyuck scrolling through his phone, a twitter feed. His body tense as he looked up and down, somewhat glaring at the giggling girl. At the pure joy, that Y/n was pushing out to maybe make someone she doesn’t know feel it. Yeji shook it off. Walked passed the annoying frat boy, shoving her shoulder into his arm making him stumble.

“Hey what the fuck.” Yeji glared as she shrugged and turned back towards Y/n, Mia and Ryujin wrapping her arm over Y/n's shoulder as they walked away leaving the boys.

“What did you do to piss mama bear off?” Hyunjin asked, smacking some gum as Donghyuck shrugged and glared at the group disappearing as he huffed and shrugged Hyunjins elbow off of his shoulder.

“Who knows, they're all crazy bitches.” Hyunjins eyes widened as Donghyuck started to speed walk fast to catch up with Jeno.

“Did he just call sunshine a crazy bitch?” Hyunjin wandered alouds, making Jisung stop his movements and look over at him with wide eyes.

“Yeah Yeji doesn’t like him.”

“Makes sense; I don't like him much, either.” Hyunjin grumbled, making Jisung nod as the two started to catch up to the rest of the group, eyes glaring at the back of Donghyuck's head.

Bastard.

“Ryujin, I don't like wearing dresses and skirts, you know that.” Ryujin pouted at Y/n as she let out a sigh and nodded in understatement, Y/n didn’t like showing her legs, or her arms all that much. Though she started to feel comfortable with her arms once she started to get her sleeve done, the tattoos with different shades of grey and splashes of colors here and there. Covering her past, her darkness.

So as Yeji and Mia got into dresses that stopped mid thigh,Ryujin was in a plaid skirt and a black crop top with fishnets. Y/n couldn’t help but feel jealous of how cute the outfit was, but the idea of the scars on show made her paranoid, nervous. She couldn't explain why she hasn’t gotten them covered up yet, especially with her mom and dad offering to pay for the tattoos that cover her history. Only if she wanted to. She couldn't explain it. So she didn’t. She kept them covered, jeans and sweats were her go to, just like large t-shirts, and sweaters were her go to. Though Ryujin, tonight, wanted to change it up. Full on ripped tight black jeans, and now a crop top in hand, it was lucky long sleeves, almost like a sweater, it was a maroon color that had brought a soft smile to her lips.

“This work?” Ryujin asked, making Y/n nod as she quickly moved to her room and changed as she heard a harsh voice making her flinch as she opened Yeji soom. Yeji looked pissed, her face a bright red as Mia nodded her head in agreement with anything that Yeji was saying.

“What's going on?” Y/n's voice made the two jump as Ryujin traveled into the room, whistling when she saw Y/n in her outfit, though her smile dropped when she saw how upset the two other roommates looked.

“Yeji?”

“What are your thoughts on that Donghyuck?” Yeji blurted, making Ryujin tilt her head as Y/n's face flushed. From the moment Y/n had seen the soft brown hair on the top of his head, and the way his eyes glowed, she had almost completely stumbled for him. She enjoyed seeing him smile at the others, hearing his laugh the way his shoulders shook. What she liked the most was how long it was taking him to enjoy her company, it was a breath of fresh air for her. It made her feel like a normal person, it made try harder. And doing so made her heart thump faster whenever he spoke to her, though snappy and short sentences, or when he sat next to her at their table. His warmth spread across her body from a simple bump.  She was determined to make him crack even if it was a little bit. She wanted to get to know him, she wanted him to get to know her. She enjoyed the slight standoffish boy.

“I..I like him..like a lot.” Y/n mumbled softly, moving out of the room quickly, hearing Yeji gasp as Mia let out a laugh as Ryujin quickly followed after giggling alongside Mia. Y/n sits at her desk looking into her mirror as she starts to apply some makeup.

“What do you mean like him?” Yeji asked as she stomped into the room, arms crossed over her chest as Ryujin and Mia sat on her bed. Y/n sighs, her eyes closing as she takes a deep breath and looks at her best friends.

“I mean I like him..like him. He..I know he's a bit standoffish with me right now, but it's different. Don’t get me wrong, I love that I make everyone smile and happy. But he's a breath of fresh air. He isn’t showing me himself, he..he is reading me as a person I feel like I don't know...My brain is already really fucked up, so maybe I like someone who could fuck it up some more. I don't get it myself. I know he’s rude and angry and snappy.. But he...he radiates something to me and I don’t know what.” She shook her head taking a deep breath as she watched Yeji’s tense proster drop, her eyes softening as she nodded  as Mia and Ryujin shared a look. “I want to get to know him. See if he really is this asshole or if..if he could be like me..I don't know.”

“Fine. Fine. He can stay. But he’s on fucking thin ice.”

“Wait so you were gonna boot him out?” Y/n giggled, making Yeji join as she nodded and moved closer to place her hands and Y/ns cheeks.

“He treats you so rudely and I-”

“Mama bear.” The three girls state making Yeji shake her as she flicks the tip of Y/n's nose making her smile brightly, making Yeji smile just as brightly back, and yet she knew it wouldn't ever have the same effect as Y/ns.

By the time they four had left, they had gotten Y/n to talk more about Donghyuck, and how she had noticed that she was his T.A for his photography class this semester. Though she didn’t notice right away because he was in the back and stayed quiet. And that she only realized he was in that class with the paperwork she was grading. They got her to flush a deep pink, and stutter over her words when she talked about them having really nice conversations when he couldn’t figure out his new camera he had gotten. She spoke about the soft curve of a half smile on his face when she teased saying it was because it was a cannon making a snort pass through him. The conversation was short, and sweet and she had actually made him laugh.  

By the time they had arrived at the frat, her eyes widened at the amount of people. Yeji had grown to like the idea of the dumb idotic rude boy and her best friend, because she had never seen Y/n act like this before.

When they walked through the door, Yeji felt Y/n's hands grabbing her arm, eyes wide lips tight and head bowing down at the amount of people that were in the house. Yeji smiles softly as she leads her into the kitchen, wondering if alcohol would be a cure for some of her nerves. Entering there stood the boy the three girls had heard their best friend gush about for hours, looking drunk. His own eyes brightened when he watched Y/n follow after Yeji. His drunk body letting the hidden feeling of liking the girl who now was leaning against the counter facing away from his drunk stature. He wandered towards her and slang his arm over her shoulder making her jump. Her eyes wide as she looked at him, one of her hands on the counter as the other rested against her chest. He chuckled, making her smile as Yeji slid a red solo cup of something to her. Donghyuck watched as she took a sip and humm, nodding as Yeji pointed across the kitchen to a living area where a bunch of people were dancing.

“Go for it.” He heard Y/n mumble, making the girl nod as Mia and Ryujin pulled her along as you turned to Donghyuck with a raised eyebrow. “Hi.”

“Hello, sunshine.”  He teased making her cheeks heat up. She had heard the nickname plenty of times but Donghyuck had never let it pass his lips, not once. It made a vibration run down her spin as she smiled brightly at him. “Oh you're giving me that best smile of yours aren't you.” She giggled, making him chuckle back as he brought her closer to his side as a  group of guys showed up, all looking over at her up and down. He didn’t like it one bit."Want to go out back? No one should be back there.” She nodded as he led her out of the kitchen, hearing one of the boys whistle making him snap his head around. Maybe it was the alcohol or the way she looked, but he felt possessive and he felt protective. He was facing them fully Y/n behind him as the kids looked like he was gonna piss his pants as Y/n grabbed Donghyucks hand and dragged him in the direction he was leading her.

“Not worth it, come on hyuck.” She tested the nickname she had heard Jeno call the boy, his eyes widening as he smiled down at her and nodded. His hand moved to wrap around her waist as he leaned slightly against her side as the two bodies ended up out in the backyard, where surprisingly no one was. Y/n felt at peace as she took a deep breath as her and Donghyuck separated, she moved to sit on the back porches steps, the cold fall air wrapping around her making her shiver as she moves to rest her chin on top of her knees as Donghyuck moves to sit next to her. “Thanks.” she mumbles, making him smile her way as he nodded, taking her red solo cup and gulping it down, making her shake her head as he threw the cup into the grass in front of them. Her eyes lingered on him, he was in a black long sleeve top and ripped jeans, boots and a flannel wrapped around him. Simple. Yet it had Y/n's breath slightly catching in her throat as his deep brown eyes moved from the backyard pool that was steaming from the contrast of the heated water and the cold outside to her face. His own lungs tightened for a second, a split second where he felt as if he could see the world around him move as she stood still, and it pissed him off. So he grunted and looked away as Y/n let out a sigh at his distant behavior. “Soo..how do you like the photography class?”

“Fine I guess.” he mumbled his fingers messing with the rips in his jeans, closing his eyes he looked at her making her body freeze as he took another deep breath.  “So you major in photography?

“Yeah I do, minor in historical arts. Maybe I could be an art teacher who knows.” She shrugged, making him bob his head as she let out a deep breath, body shivering as he moved closer to her. Arms brushing as she felt her cheeks heat up, clearing her throats. “What do you major in? All I seem to know about you is that you minor in photography and you hate my dad jokes.” his smile curved up as she bumped his shoulder into hers.

“Music.”

“Really? My brother majored in that too. He's a producer now at a company.” Her smile seemed to have made her eyes light up as she glanced over at him, it made his heart thud as his wall slowly cracked. Has to be the fucking alcohol. He thought as he took a deep breath, and let a smile fall on his face as he moved a bit to look at her.

“Which one?”

“SM, though I think they're trying to make him a trainee.” her giggle had him breaking his walls completely as he let his head fall onto her shoulder making her body flinch at first, though one of her hands moved to drape over his shoulder, fingers twirling the ends of his hair.

“I wanted to audition. But my mom..she wanted me to go to school..some days I wonder where I would be if I..if I pushed harder to be a singer.” He felt her nod as her other hand moved to lace with his.

“Yeah? I would love to hear you sing.” She confessed, making him chuckle as he shook his head as she joined in. “What?”

“I haven’t sung in a while..maybe..maybe I will one day though.”

“I have connections.” She teased making him pull away from her shoulder and give her a smirk.

“That's true.What’s your brother's name?” She smiles as she pulls her phone out, her lockscreen one of hers and a boy who had just as bright of a smile as she did.

“His name is Jaehyun, he’s a complete idiot” She giggled  making him nod as she closed her phone and moved to rest her shoulder against his. “Do you have any siblings?”

“A little sister, mom and dad had her when I was like ten so she really is the baby.” He mumbles a soft smile curling at the edges of his lips as he takes a deep breath. Silence wrapping around the two of them as the sound of the base softly echos out of them, it grew louder at the sound of the back door sliding open. Donghyuck grew tense at the sound, wrapping his arm around Y/n's waist making her smile as she looked up at him and smiled. She looks over  to see a stranger smirking at the two of them as Donghyuck lets out a groan.”Go away Mark.”

“I just came out for a smoke, sorry love bugs.” Donghyuck moves away from Y/n and glares, making Y/n giggle as Donghyuck holds a finger down at her.

“One sec.” She nodded as she watched him launch himself from his sitting position as he moved to chase after the Mark boy. Her laughter fills the yard as you watch Donghyuck move to put the lanky boy into a head lock as she slightly doubles over and smiles brightly as she watches Mark move his hand under Donghyuck moves to his side and tickles at the boy making him flinch and laugh really hard.”You fucker!’ As Donghyuck laughed along with his friend, another loud echo and the sound of the door opening made Y/n look to  see Jeno, Mia and Yeji moving outside as she pointed to Donghyuck and Mark. The three join in the laughter as Yeji moves to sit next to Y/n Jeno joining the other two boys and Mia sits at the edge of the pool dropping her feet in.

“Sure you want to keep him?” Yeji teasingly asks, making Y/n glare playfully as she slaps her friend's thigh and giggles.

“Yes, I do.”

‘You make me happy when skies are gray'

“Donghyuck!” Y/n giggles the next day as she moves to wrap her arm in his as he looks down at her and gives her a half smile. “So do you want to go get coffee?”

“Uh no not really, just gonna read the book that's needed for my history class.” She nodded as she felt him move to the courtyard, detangling from him as she followed after him. Sitting down with him at a table as he pulls out a book as she pulls her phone out as the two stay quiet. Slowly Y/n lets out a sigh as she looks up at him and smiles.

“So what is the book about?” Her question had him sighing as he looked at her and frowned, took a deep breath in and set the book down and looked at her.

“Uh I..I haven started it..I don't feel like it.” His words had her giggling as she nodded in understanding. Her eyes lingering on the coffee cart across the way.

“How do you like your coffee?”

“Uh why?”

“Just answer.” She pushed a teasing smile on her face as he let in, caved in and took a deep breath and shook his head.

“Sugar and light on cream.”

“My man.” She joked standing up, leaving her bag in place with her camera on top making his fingers itch to reach forward. To open it up and capture the glowing girl, though he shook it off as he watched her pay for two cups, a deep sigh passed his lips as she moved back slightly dancing as she did, making him fight back a laugh. As she accidentally bumped into another student making her apologize profusely, bowing even. All while giving Donghyuck wide side eyes, as she moved away she giggled placing a cup in front of him as he joined in on her laughter. Making her cheek turn back to that fiery red he saw earlier, her head hitting onto the table making him reach forward and flick her head making her pout up at him. “So mean.” She whined, making him roll his eyes as he took a sip of the burning coffee.

“How did you not spill any?” He wondered, making her smirk playfully as her phone rang, making her hold up a finger to him.

“Hello, the residual sunshine here.” Her voice was bright and cheerful making his heart pound for a second, but it stopped when he watched as her face fell after a few hushed words and then she was hanging up the phone. “I am so sorry Hyuck I've got to go. Jisung is having a really..uh..he just needs me.” He felt something wrap around his heart, something he didn’t want to name as she stood up. If he named it, it would make it real, his feelings for her would become real. So he shrugged and rolled his eyes.

“Whatever.”

“I’ll make it up to you.”

“I didn’t want you here in the first place.” Her eyes blinked, rapidly trying to think of some words to say, but all she could think about in the moment was small Jisung in the back of a library crying curled in a ball while big, clumsy Jongho tried to calm him down. She gave him another sad smile as she got up forgetting her cup of coffee rushing away from the table. Her feet moving quicker than her mind, her body almost forcing its way into the library after she had swiped her student I.D. She moved quickly to the back, catching the tall boy, Jongho slightly hovering over someone making her push forward, having him almost fall back as she moved her way in between a panicking Jisungs legs.

“Hey baby.” She whispered moving her hand to the back of his neck moving it down and forwarded bending him almost in half. His hands grabbed at her sweater as Y/n kissed the back of his head as she tightened her grip around him. “I’ve got you..match my breathing.” Her voice was soothing as Jisungs head's grip never gave out as he tried his best. Her body warmed him as he let out a sniffle, her soft humming his shoulders relaxing as he pulled his head up and looked up at her. Her eyes were softly glowing down at him, one of her hands moving to run through his hair as she gave him a peaceful smile as she moved to sit next to him. Hand lacing with his own as he rested his head onto her shoulder, her thumb moving up and down on his hand as Jongho moved to sit on the other side of Jisung.

“How do you do that?” Jongho wandered out aloud, making Jisung sniffle as he nuzzled deeper into her shoulder, Jongho chuckling as his own hand moved to lace with Jisungs free one.  Jisung let out a sigh as Y/n squeezed his hand and nudged the top of his head with her nose, making him giggle as he slowly sat up and huffed, sniffling as he took a deep breath.

“I don't know how she does it, but it works.” he mumbled as Jongho nodded and moved to rest his head on Jisung's shoulder.

“What..what happened? If you’re okay talking about it.” Jisung shook his head making Y/n and Jungho nod as she moved and kissed his cheek making him smile brightly at her.

“I’m sorry for pulling you away for whatever you were doing.” Jisung mumbled, making both her and Jongho look at one another as she flicked at his forehead, making him whine.

“Pulling me away for anything because you needed me will never be a reason you apologize first off..secondly I was just with Donghyuck.”

“Just with Donghyuck?” Jongho asked as Jisung let out a teasing laugh, having her nudged his shoulder, making him chuckle as she let out a soft whine.

“Yeji told you, that fucker.” She whined, making the two laugh as she removed her hand from jisung and wrapped her arm around his shoulder.

“She gave it away when asking if we liked him. Which Hyunjin does not.” Jonghos words had her eyes widening as she looked at him with worried eyes, making Jisung sigh as he shook his head at the other boy.

“Why would you tell her that?”

“She would find out, she can read all of us like an open book.” “Why doesn't he like him?”

“He just thinks that Donghyuck is a bit of a bitch.” Y/n let out a sigh as she drops her shoulder and messes with Jisungs top, as he looks over at her.

“Hyunjin doesn't like anyone and you know it, same with Yeji.” She nods, taking a deep breath as she blinks slowly trying to calm down her breathing. “So you like him? I don't think you’ve ever liked anyone?” she takes a deep breath, chuckling as Jisung lets out a noise, waiting for her to respond.

"Not since high school, and that didn't turn out so well. So I'm just not gonna act on it." Her words made the two boys nod, curiosity twining into their veins as she realized they wanted more. "Asked me out as a joke." She shrugged, as if the memory doesn't sting, doesn't burn her eyes. Jisung tightened his arm around her waist as Jongho let out an angry grunt.

"Asshole." She nods softly as she fights back the memory, the embarrassment. The words after the boy had stood her up had hurt the most. 'Who'd want to be with the depressed nerd' something she would never want to say or hear aloud. Taking a deep breath in, shaking her head she slips her arm from around Jisung and patts his thigh.

"Ice cream?"

"It's cold out." Jongho pointed out, making her shrug as she stood up and held her hand out and down towards Jisung.

"It's Jisung's favorite thing to eat after a panic attack."  Her words had Jisung taking her hand as she lifted him up with a playfully smile and a grunt, Jongho joining as he grabbed Jisung's and his bag. The small boy frowning as Jongho shrugged, not letting him take his stuff back just yet.

As the three left the library there stood Donghyuck, steaming cup of coffee in one and the other was one he was sipping on as he looked around. When their eyes catch, she gives him a big smile and drops the arm around Jisung as he moves forward holding the cup of coffee in hand as he looks anywhere but at her face.

"You forgot to grab your coffee, and then it got cold so I got you a new one." His words had her heart pound as her ears turned red. Though she was blaming it on the cold whipping wind.

"Thank you Hyuck...we...we're gonna go pick up some ice cream, want to come with?" She nods her head back to the other boys, one face slightly puffy as the other gives a half smile.

"In this weather?" He wonders, making her giggle as she nodded. "I guess." He shrugs making her smile that stupid smile at him, arm moving to wrap around his.

"Wonderful, come on!"

'You never know dear, just how much I love you'

“Look Y/n, I think you might be a great girl. Funny maybe I don't know and I don't care, cause I don't like you.” His words had her eyes burning as she sniffled, arms moving falling away from him as she felt her chest tighten. “The world doesn't fucking revolve around you, around that dumb smile and thoses stupid jokes. I hate that every single person around you falls for it, I hate that you think that I'm gonna even enjoy your company. I don't like people like you.”

“But you don't even know me.” She whispers, eyes shining as his own chest was twisting but he hated it. Hated her.

“Yes I do. I know people like you. I know you. You can’t handle people not liking you, can’t handle not being the center of attention, can’t even handle the world around you. You are nothing but a selfish, innocent little girl who gets everything she wants. Who had people wrapped around her finger, so leave me alone. Leave Jeno alone. And just fuck off.” He stood up as she kept her eyes lingering on the court yard in front of her, he huffed and rolled his eyes storming off. The stupid cannon pin she had given him on the table along side her profilo. Y/n finally let the tears fall as she took a deep, shaky breath in her arms wrapping around herself as she fought the tears, trying to fight her lungs. Fighting to trap air.Yeji appeared a few moments later wrapping her arm around her shoulder making Y/n huff as she suddenly stood up and rushed away. Yeji eyes widen as she quickly follows, grabbing onto her sweater as her body stops, frozen, tense, and letting out a shaky breath, her eyes widening at the tears, the blank stare in Y/n's eyes as she lets out a dead sounding laugh.

“Should’ve trusted your intuition.”

Johnny:

“Hey,hey, hey you you I don't like your girlfriend…” A voice rang out in Johnny's  head, making a smile spread across his face, he couldn’t help but chuckle as your voice rang through his head. The idea of you jamming out in your shared bedroom had his cheek turning red as he looked to see Mark and Ten staring at him. “No way no way, I think you need a new one!”

Your off tone pitch made him shut his eyes as he let out a laugh making Marks eyes widen as he looked at the older.

“She is absolutely horrible.” His laughter made Ten and Mark follow as Marks hand slams onto the table they were sitting at. Their laughter had Johnny's eyes snapping as he huffed at the two and glared playfully.“Only I can laugh at her and her singing… her horrible singing. God I love her.”

Taeyong:

“We're the new heroes!”  Was shouted in his head, followed by a crackled cough making his eyes widen as he blinks rapidly. The sweat dripped down his face as he looked at the makeup artist who was dobbing the sweat off of his skin as Ten performed his stage.

“They're here” He whispers, making them stop as he sees Kia stop and turn his head over to him. “They're singing Tens song. They’re singing Ten songs..they're screaming. They're here.”

“Tae..thousands of people are here.” Kia sadly sighed making Tayong let out a huff as he felt tears gother up in the condor of his eyes.

“My soulmate is in this building, I can hear them. But I..no I have..” He felt a hand on his shoulder making him look to see Taemin, a small smile on the olders faces as he squeezed Tayongs shoulder. ”Hyung they're here, I could..I could see them..hold them tonight.”

“I know.” Tamin said as Tayong felt something press under his eyes, they were whipping his tears away. Cause even though you were in the building, there was no way he could get to you.

Jaehyun:

“Now suddenly you're asking for it back. Could you tell me, where'd you get the nerve?” The sound of your voice entered his mind as his eyes opened, staring at wall, the sound was full of pain. The cracks in your voice had his heart hurting, as his hand ran through his hair. His mind rushing with a lot of scenarios, but one, one kept playing over and over.

Someone hurt you. Someone took your heart, your love and threw it in your face.

It made anger rush through his chest as he sat up and took a deep breath, hand grabbing his phone as he looked through his music app.

“Took a while, I was in denial when I first heard. That you moved on quicker than I could've ever, you know that hurt.” He heard a sob making his heart lurch, pain spreading through him as he dropped his phone. God did he wish he could just hold you, wipe your tears, kiss the top of your head. Promise he would never let go. Never break your heart. Never leave you. And how he’d work to prove that to you. So he went over to his piano, sat down, and started to play a song that he can’t wait to sing to you in person.

“I'm so in love with you And I hope you know Darling, your love is more than worth its weight in gold”

Doyoung:

Doyoung sat there, his eyes closed as he nervously stared at the camera in front of him, comments began scrolling rapidly as the staff behind him nodd. Encouraging him to sing the song he planned to cover during this live. He rolled his lip between the teeth as he smiled brightly at the screen.

“Um so I’ve been wanting to cover a song for a while now..one that means a lot to me and probably a lot of you..I hope you guys like it.”He paused as he started to play the keys, his eyes closing as he took a deep breath and let the song pass his lips. “How can you miss someone you've never met? 'Cause I need you now but I don't know you yet ,But can you find me soon because I'm in my head? Yeah, I need you now but I don't know you yet.” he let out a breath as he continued, hearing you slowly hum the song back, making his eyes water as he looked at the screen and smiled. The next verse finished in his head making him pause as he let out airy chuckle as he looked to the live. The comments went crazy, especially as he kept playing the song but missed the last verse. One sticking out.

His soulmates finishing the song for him, has to be, he nodded slowly as he listened to your voice.

“Yeah, lately it's been hard,They're sellin' me for parts,And I don't wanna be modern art,But I only got half a heart to give to you,And I hope it's enough.”

“I need you now but I don't know you yet.”

Yuta:

His eyes stare up at the moon, standing outside in the balcony of yet another hotel room as he felt tears gother in his eyes. Four mouths, without you near him factimes and long distance calls though he misses your touch most of all. The feeling of the burn that ran around the ring of his eyes had him sniffling as he looked down at his hands when he heard your voice. “'Cause I never knew, I never knew,You could hold moonlight in your hands 'Til the night I held you You are my moonlight,Moonlight.” He felt his hand slightly shake as he let out a chuckle, that stupid Ariana Grande song that you sang every day since he met you. “I kiss his fingertips,As I'm wishing he's all mine.” He let out a breath as he closed his eyes and rested his head against the brick wall.

“Baby, I be fallin',You're my moonlight, Moonlight.” he paused as he heard you chuckle , he imagined you smiling brightly up at your bedroom ceiling. Or staring at your phone waiting for a call. Waiting for him. So he did just that.

“Hey moonlight, I missed you.” Your voice traveled quickly to his ear as he saw a static version of you on his screen. In one of his sweaters, probably sitting at your desk, getting ready to do an online class.

“I miss you too.”

“I was trying to sing you to sleep but I guess it just kept you awake instead.”

“I like this better anyway.”

Jungwoo:

“ Baby 네게 반해버린 내게 왜 이래 두렵다고 물러서지 말고 그냥 내게 맡겨봐라 어때 my lady.”Jungwoo's eyes suddenly widened as he looked up from his food, his mouth stopping mid chew as he let out a whine. Jaehyung let out a snort as he watched the younger struggle once again.“Ring ding dong, ring ding dongRing diggy ding diggy ding ding ding”

“Im literally gonna kill her, this is the fifth time today she sang this song.” Jungwoo let out dropping his chop stick with a frustrated breath. “Why can't she get one of our songs stuck in her head, like I can block that out easily but no she does this. I'm gonna kill her when I meet her.” He let out as Jaehyung's eyes stayed wide , watching as they usually claimed Jungwoo lost it. “I mean I'll squish her in a hug, but this come on”

“Jungwoo..ring ding dong, ring di-hey that was the last dumpling!”

Mark:

Mark eyes trail across the thousands of green light sticks, the sea of fans had his heart beating out of his chest. Some faces were caught with the right lighting but there truly was only one face he wanted to see and that was yours. He wanted to hear your voice. But he knew he had to wait. Wait till he was back in his hotel room, so the two of you could sing together  as he laid in bed eating his meal while you were at home doing school work. So far away, yet your connection brings you close together. Closer than he ever thought you could be.”I just want you to knowThat I really, really think you're something special Wanna try hard to show Make it sweet, sweet, sweet wherever we go.” He heard right as they did their final bow, making him smile as he started to hum to tone back to you. Wanting to wait to sing your song aloud when he was alone in the room since Yuta ws going to do a vlive with Johnny tonight. He couldn't wait to sing for you.

“Just to have you baby, by my side Love would be the only rule You're gonna see, baby, how hard I can try None will ever do so well Like a load of farming, fairy tale.” He sang back as he was changing, it was softly a whisper tone, but Hechan had caught it, a teasing smile on his face as Mark tried to shake his head but Hechans teasing had already slipped past his lips.

“Someone in loveeee.”

“Shut up you idiot.”

Heachan:

Taking a deep breath in, you rub your eyes, the memory of the heated argument you had with your boyfriend, your soulmate Donghuck made your chest ache. The words he had said to you had cut you deep, had made you question if the universe really did make a mistake parking the two of you. You know he didn't mean the words, at least not fully. His face had etched itself into your mind the way it changed when he realized what he had said. The way you had taken a step back, arms curling around you as you let out a soft whine when he reached for you. Rushing away from the practice room you had bothered him in.

“And I know there's no making this right, this right And I know there's no changing your mind, your mind. But we both found each other tonight, tonight.” His voice rings through your head making you pout as you feel tears build up in the corner of your eyes, the heels of your hands push up against your eyes as you slowly snag along with his voice.

“If love is nothing more than just a waste of your time..then waste it on me waste it on me.” You whispered, your eyes closing as you heard his voice trail off then a knock on your apartment door had you sitting up and rushing to open it. There he stood, eyes staring down at you as he pulled you into a hug.