I think I will cause problems on purpose

Graduating has always felt a little bit weird to me, though. I know it's a big accomplishment and I should feel proud of myself, but I never felt particularly challenged during my graduate program and half-assed almost everything I did (and still got 100%s and praise from my professors on the quality of my work), so graduating doesn't really feel like I've actually done that much... and that kind of sucks!

I really like school. I really like academics. I love to learn and push myself and meet and exceed standards and prove what I know and really dive deep into the things I'm exploring in class and in my assignments... but the last time I really felt like I was doing that was when I was writing my thesis for my undergraduate degree.

Maybe this just means I need to take more classes in things I'm more passionate about (not that I'm not passionate about my career, it's just that the schooling for it is a joke lmao) or that I should pivot to a Ph.D in English once I settle in a bit more...