bleh

I swear to fucking god. It literally makes me want to tear everything apart, tear it all down. It’s fucking killer. The constant switching between intense anger and drowning despair and sadness and depression is fucking killing me it's a constant cycle in less than a fucking hour less than fucking 30 minutes less than 15 I just can't I fucking can't. It makes me want to surrender myself to it. To let it overcome me. Just blind rage. And god help anyone who gets in my fucking way.

maybe for once ill give in

They send me away to find them a fortune A chest filled with diamonds and gold The house was awake With shadows and monsters The hallways they echoed and groaned I sat alone, in bed ‘til the morning I’m crying, “They’re coming for me” And I tried to hold these secrets inside me My mind’s like a deadly disease I’m bigger than my body I’m colder than this home I’m meaner than my demons I’m bigger than these bones And all the kids cried out “Please stop, you’re scaring me” I can’t help this awful energy Goddamn right, you should be scared of me Who is in control? I paced around for hours on empty I jumped at the slightest of sounds And I couldn’t stand the person inside me I turned all the mirrors around I’m bigger than my body I’m colder than this home I’m meaner than my demons I’m bigger than these bones And all the kids cried out “Please stop, you’re scaring me” I can’t help this awful energy Goddamn right, you should be scared of me Who is in control? I’m well acquainted With villains that live in my bed They beg me to write them So they’ll never die when I’m dead And I’ve grown familiar With villains that live in my head They beg me to write them So I’ll never die when I’m dead I’m bigger than my body I’m colder than this home I’m meaner than my demons I’m bigger than these bones And all the kids cried out “Please stop, you’re scaring me” I can’t help this awful energy Goddamn right, you should be scared of me Who is in control? And all the kids cried out “Please stop, you’re scaring me” I can’t help this awful energy Goddamn right, you should be scared of me Who is in control?

✨life✨