one thing about avpd is that when you consciously do a thing you would normally want to avoid you will feel like eating rocks regardless of how well it went

i feel so guilty for this but i really just want an easy life and i always have. like i hate discomfort i hate striving i hate constantly trying i don’t have much ambition i don’t like it when things are hard. it never built my character it actually just gave me more problems on top of the pre-existing ones. i want very badly for it to feel simple and light and comfortable

having avpd is like being a court jester who is deeply afraid of being unfunny and getting executed for it despite the king being known to not execute people for such reasons. does that make sense. yes no idc

all texts are risky texts if you have sufficient fear in your heart

I generally start regretting every display of emotion I have about five minutes after its over

literally