SzPD Confessions

Greetings, you can call me Yashka. I'm an adult, and I'm diagnosed with ASPD with schizoid features. Essentially, I only have SzPD traits. (Clinicians are unlikely to diagnose two personality disorders here anyway.)

This is a blog for people with SzPD, schizoid traits, and friends or family of people with the disorder. I am willing to give my support, advice, to anyone that seeks it in this blog. However, I may just post asks without saying anything if I doubt I can accurately respond to the ask.

Asks I'm willing to post and answer if I'm able to:

- Vents regarding having the disorder

- Questions about the disorder (what it is, how it affects people, etc.)

- Asking for advice on how to support a friend or relative with SzPD

- Asking for advice on therapy, counseling, with SzPD

- “SzPD culture is” asks

- Questions about how SzPD comorbid with other disorders can look like

- Questions about me and my experiences, if sensible

Asks I'm not willing to post let alone answer to:

- Asking for a diagnosis, or an opinion on what symptoms you're experiencing (“Does this look like SzPD or not?” etc.)

- Demonizing, or stigmatizing any personality disorder, this includes disorders separate from SzPD as well

- Asks from friends or family that are insensitive, sorry not sorry but this place seeks to comfort those with SzPD, not those without

- Asks that don't have to do with SzPD at all, this is a place specifically for people with SzPD

- Anything that has to do with discourse, specifically Tumblr discourse (such as drama between users, syscourse, etc.) I want this place to be peaceful

- Following the previous, anything that has to do with a user that is actively on Tumblr, if noticeable. If you want to shit talk people here (which you can) make it so they don't understand you're referring to them. Preferably, I would like no shit talking here if it's between people that interact with this blog.

To clarify, I'm not a mental health expert nor a professional, but I have experience that makes it possible for me to help other people with the disorder in certain cases. I cannot diagnose you, and I encourage everyone to seek therapy for such things.

That's all, welcome to the blog.

SzPD flag here

Personality disorders are divided into 3 clusters. A, B and C.

Cluster A, otherwise referred to as the eccentric or odd cluster, includes the following disorders: PPD/Paranoid Personality Disorder, SzPD/Schizoid Personality Disorder, StPD/Schizotypal Personality Disorder.

Majorly, Cluster A has distant/cold and ‘eccentric’ or ‘odd’ personality disorders, mainly because they fall into the schizophrenic spectrum, that's why they're referred to as ‘eccentric’ or ‘odd.’

Cluster B is otherwise referred to as the ‘dramatic/erratic’ cluster. The personality disorders included into the Cluster B are the following: BPD/Borderline Personality Disorder, NPD/Narcissistic Personality Disorder, ASPD/Antisocial Personality Disorder and HPD/Histrionic Personality Disorder.

These disorders oftentimes have ‘erratic/dramatic’ symptoms, such as mood swings, emotional dysregulation, and others.

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Oh, I might have been there. Best piece of advice I have (in general) for gender dysphoria is to remember that you can make gender roles whatever you want.

Wearing earrings can be masculine. Short hair can be feminine. Dresses can be androgynous. Disregard popular ideas and make your gender expression yours.

It's just you and me, boy.

"this topic seems cool, anyways...."

Im finally out of depression but still have no drive, I'm just less suicidal. Which is nice but like, can I get some motivation too? Please?

Compliments regarding me: ❌❌❌

Does this make sense, I like when people enjoy my work because it shows I'm doing well but please oh my god do not compliment me, don't see me. "You're so talented wow, you did amazing!" Thanks? I guess?? Lol

Having ADHD and SzPD is kind of annoying. Less because they actually interact in any obtrusive way, and more because other people are really annoying. 

SzPD tends to present similar to autism, ADHD and autism have a lot of shared traits and symptoms, but autism specifically is memed to hell and back so as far as the general public is concerned it's the only reason anyone would ever display behaviors like that. I have had so many people tell me things I do are "so autistic", ask if I've been tested for autism, or outright TELL ME I should be tested for autism, and I Hate It. So, So Much. Ignoring whether or not they're wrong, or that they're "just trying to be helpful", it's SO obtrusive. 

They just Decide I definitively AM autistic, decide they KNOW how I think and function, and of course they HAVE to ask after a diagnosis, because they think they're entitled to that. And it's always asked with this presumptuous tone that communicates they think I haven't been tested before.

You don't know me, you don't know my medical history, you don't GET to know my medical history, Piss Off. 

For posterity's sake, yes I have looked into autism, how it appears and functions, and have been tested before, at two different points in my life. No I Do Not Have Autism, Mind Your Damn Business

Short answer; No.