I blocked the people arguing in the reblogs of one of my posts. Seriously.. can you do it elsewhere?

Jeez just saw a thread of people being terribly ableist towards a person with smell/food sensitivities and possible BPD. They kept harping on how that person is so toxic and awful for having dysregulated emotions and reactions. I hate people. I don't have BPD but I have dysregulated emotions and sensory sensitivities. I can't stand certain strong food smells. I have emotional outbursts as well.

I've gotten to a point where I feel pathetic, incapable, and subhuman about everything, so as a wah of coping I look for similar flaws in others to tell myself I'm not as bad in comparison as I think. Except it doesn't do anything, now I just think everyone else is equally subhuman as me, while I'm still jealous of them for the things we can't compare in. Idk what stage of AVPD this even is, but it creates this rly weird situation where I desperately want to be a part of society while also fucking despising everyone and feeling worse about myself in association. It's like a weird incest baby between AvPD and NPD except missing the ego

I just read that some personality disorders like NPD and BPD have a designated awareness month. I googled if AVPD has one.. and it doesn't 🥲 We require awareness even more because our disorder is practically obscure and often misdiagnosed and ignored even by therapists. It sucks so much that we are always ignored and invisible. This literally affects me because in my country there are practically no therapists specializing in the treatment of AVPD but I know some who treat BPD.