Do Not Perceive Me

i fucking wish i had proper parents man i see my friends calling their parents when things get too much or they can't remember how to do something or just to hear the sound of their voice and it's just a reminder that i don't have that. im sick of having to figure out how to be an adult all by myself it's scary and confusing and exhausting and i just want to go home.

My default assumption is that I'm always in the way and nobody actually wants to be around me

when fiona apple asked “how can i ask anyone to love me when all i do is beg to be left alone”. well i have not found an answer but if anyone else has lmk

i didnt know avoidant personality disorder was a thing until recently but immediately i was like yeah thats me. i do all of that. every symptom on the list

when i first read the wikipedia article about it i thought they had made a disorder about me

avpd feels like everyone else is allowed to be a person but not you

Sorry I’m really defensive my emotionally immature parent gaslit me all throughout my childhood and now I think no one will ever believe me without concrete proof

jobs for people who cant do or handle anything

I have a disease called I can’t reply to your text. I love you

i know we're not supposed to say this but i literally love being alone and going on the computer