diary blog

oops I accidentally separated myself emotionally from everyone to avoid feeling any bad feelings & it worked but at the expense of my sense of connectedness and belonging

"you were always such a good kid! we never had to worry about you :)" thanks! you actually should've, though. like about this specifically

i'm sorry i didn't respond to your DM for 23 days. the number on the notification icon got really big and i began having irrational anxious thoughts such as "what if people are in there trying to contact me"

Honestly if you say or do something strange, an employee probably WILL tell all their coworkers about it all day, however they’ll basically never remember it was you specifically and instead just a faceless “customer” amalgamation of every time someone said something to them. Plus you’re giving them enrichment and something to mutually bond over. So really you’re doing an important service by being a little awkward.

ending a social interaction with a friend and thinking "I think we grew a little bit closer today." in my head as if I'm a dating game protagonist

people always describe the system experience as either the host makes all the decisions with input from their headmates, or the headmates vote and come to a collective decision, but what i experience is more closer to a dictatorship where whoever’s fronting at the moment does whatever the fuck they want until they leave and then it repeats with the next fronter and the one after that too.

[clearly experiencing symptoms of mania] oh i get it! im finally normal!

my aura too cunt My blog too suicidal my fit too mid My bitch hate me

clap if you're a black hole of a person and have never been satisfied

they should invent a father you can forgive

"i asked ai" okay well i asked my mom and she ignored me

what doesn't kill you makes you overshare on the internet

[Getting so angry it makes my brain disease worse] people sre supposed to be nice..

google search how to interact with other human beings in a way that another human being might consider normal or even acceptable