Part of the Journey is the End

Surprise! I think of Midnights as a complete concept album, with those 13 songs forming a full picture of the intensities of that mystifying, mad hour. However! There were other songs we wrote on our journey to find that magic 13. I’m calling them 3am tracks. Lately I’ve been loving the feeling of sharing more of our creative process with you, like we do with From The Vault tracks. So it’s 3am and I’m giving them to you now. 🌌

I’m not saying that there is a double standard, but….

And I’m not a fool. The Flash is costing them around 200 million dollars and it would have been too expensive to change things so late in the game. But reportedly, Batgirl was around 90 million. Shazam was around 90 million, if I remember correctly. But over half the DCEU movies are bad anyway, so why not release it and determine if it was actually ‘bad’? Quite frankly, Birds of Prey wasn’t well received yet I personally enjoy the fucking hell out of the movie because it’s so fun. Anything with Synder’s name on it was a chore to get through.

I just don’t understand the reasoning behind canning a movie that’s nearly completed? You could have made some of the money back, if not match. But instead you actively choose to dump 90 mil? It just doesn’t make sense.

WB/DC is in serious trouble with all the Arrowverse shows being gone after next year (begging the question of how long the other DCTV shows will last), and now having to scramble to fix their fix-it movie, as Flashpoint was supposed to be the new start of the DCEU. It’s disappointing as a fan of these properties to be dealing with a company that clearly does not give a shit about the audience. 

Back in my thoughts again, you know the drill. A bit lengthy!!

I cannot stop thinking about this scene—how Steven clearly remembers that this was his room,

And how he remembers the exact thing he said during this part of the scene, which proves that he was, in fact, fronting for at least a couple seconds.

BUT. He doesn’t remember anything from this moment forward. That’s why he wanted to see what their mother did to them, and that’s why Marc was set on getting him out of the room before he saw something that would severely taint his memories and what he knew of their childhood. At the same time, Marc knows EXACTLY what happened.

I’m positive that Marc fronted at that moment because he didn’t want Steven to remember what truly happened. It’s his way of making up to Randall/RoRo, I would like to believe. He treats Steven like the younger brother that he lost when he was a child. The one who loved drawing the one finned fish. The one who was always eager for adventure. The one who was screaming for help back in the cave.

Remember? His mother explicitly stated:

“Marc, what do you do? Keep an eye on your brother, okay?” And Marc is set on fulfilling that promise to Steven.

Marc let Steven keep all the good memories, while he himself lived through all of the bad ones, just so that he could protect him from getting hurt and feeling pain. Steven, his alter, who he considers to be his little brother.

That’s the reason why Marc was so adamant about simply telling Steven what had happened in that room at the top of the flight of stairs, so Steven wouldn’t have to watch the memory play out in front of him. Seeing what happened would definitely hurt more than just knowing what happened. By telling Steven himself, he would have control over what he would reveal to him, and how he would tell him.

That’s why Marc’s first thought when waking up in the Asylum was Steven. That’s why Marc never complained about fronting right after Steven was pierced by the weapons back in Mogart’s. That’s why Marc probably set up a line for Steven to contact “his mother”, and why Marc replaced Gus with another fish. That’s why Marc didn’t want Steven finding out about him in the first place.

Marc spent most of his life protecting and saving Steven the way he wished he could’ve protected and saved Randall. I am literally bawling over this.

so I am a member of a did system, and I'd like to share some terms you should start using!

"fronting" it means being in control of the body, but it's much more comfortable to see as a system

"alter" different people that make up the system, like marc and steven are not two 'personalities' they are two alters

"cocon" it's when two alters from at the same time!

"DID" disociative identity disorder, do not call it 'multiple personality disorder'