darling, dearest, dead.

Heyyy girl, hey. I e-mailed but I'm not expecting a reply bc I'm pretty sure their "support team" is nonexistent. I can get into every other account except my ffnet; I'm not sure why or when I changed the email on the account and didn't make a note of it. I'm gettin' old.

Thanks! Ugh, yeah, I e-mailed support. Worst case scenario, I'm gonna have to limit my postings to archive of our own.

I can’t remember the email I used to log into my ff.net account. If anyone knows how to get around this, lmk.

Hi, V. Flames go hand in hand with writing. They bothered me as a teenager but thirty is approaching next year and now I just pity the flames — they're either attention seekers looking for a rise or, sadly, they're just envious. Constructive criticism reviews also happen, and some people can take those the wrong way (which I get, because at one point I felt like it was belittling), but I ignore most of those and do my own thing. Write for yourself, don't write for a readership — but approach that method with caution. I write for myself and only myself, and I write/post when I have the time and creativity to devote to my chapter. People get upset with the time between updates because I won't pump out chapters that go nowhere just to generate reviews. I want a story with substance and that takes a lot of time when you're an adult with responsibilities. Posting fanfiction is a very convoluted process and I give my heart and soul to the respectful readers and I'm comfortable enough with my writing and my process to just roll my eyes at the disrespectful ones. Honestly, just post when and what you want and don't worry about the haters, there are so very few of them in the fanfiction community; multiple flames are usually the result of one flamer with nothing else to do. Maybe Colubrina and Shayalonnie can add more to this? Lord knows they understand the struggle.

I know there are exponentially more messages in my inbox and I'll get to them all, I just don't want to spam the dash more than I already have. You are not being ignored. Check back later if your message has not been answered. 💕

😭 Thank you so much. You are too, don't ever forget it.

That means so much. So much. Truly. I'm hoping to push a novel by December but haven't decided if I should go to publishers or self publish on amazon. I need to research both options more. Sending you love and good thoughts.

I just heard Lionel Richie's "hello" in my head when reading the first line 😂 I'm here, mostly. I switch dimensions a lot like a Twin Peaks episode. More is coming, after a very exhausting year I finally found the love of writing again. All my love to you.

I'm so happy to hear that 💕 I hope you're doing well too and I look forward to getting this story completed this year. Message any time. xo

This is so kind and thoughtful. I haven't looked at the fanfiction world in a long time (probably since the last update went up) and have barely written anything until the last week and a half. Decided to log on here and check the inbox and this was so sweet. Thank you for your kind words and for taking the time to send them my way.

I miss you too. I'm doing alright. Sending the next chapter to the beta this week because I finally found some inspiration after a very difficult year.

Not that it's anyone's business but I was the sole caregiver for my aunt through stage four and end stage liver cancer, and after she died I haven't had the drive to write; fanfiction or otherwise. You need to check that attitude and remember that fanfiction writers are people, with lives, who do this for free.

Wow, this is a very beautiful message. Thank you and I love you too. I hope to publish soon. I have a novel written but I don't feel like it's publishable. It's a first attempt, not something I'm very happy with. But then again I'm never really happy with my writing (what writer is?), so idk. The publishing process feels intimidating but it's something I plan to attempt when I'm comfortable. ...Though now that I'm writing this I realize that I'll probably never be comfortable with attempting to publish, lol. I better just jump into it soon and get it over with. I love you too 😘