Sherlock Holmes has become such a beautiful, strong man.
Look how he patiently listens to John Watson telling him to make a move on a woman he has zero interest in.
Oh, he tries to tell John: āAs I think I have explained beforeā¦ā he starts, but John interrupts him. John knows him better now. Romantic entanglement would complete Sherlock as a human being, he thinks, and John Watson is right, heās always right, itās boring, isnāt it?
It doesnāt matter if you think that
John is talking about himself and Mary
John is talking about himself and the bus lady
John is talking about himself and Sherlock (ā¦obviouslyā¦)
Sherlock thinks John is talking about himself and Mary, whom he lost
The point that comes out clearly in this gif-set, is that whatever we or anyone else thinks either of them is thinking about, Sherlock is clearly reacting to one thing.
That chance doesnāt last forever. Trust me, Sherlock, itās gone before you know it. Before you know it!
This is what Sherlock reacts to, with a face so heartbroken it chokes me up, becauseā¦
This is the same face. That chance doesnāt last forever. Trust me, Sherlock, itās gone before you know it. Before you know it!
John, Sherlock knows that very well. He has lost you so many times over and over again, and heās let you go each time because he thought youād be happier that way. He let you go to Mary, because you chose her. He let you go at the tarmac, because he knew his death would destroy your life, just like what he wanted to say wasnāt āSherlock is actually a girlās name,ā but very probably, āIām in love you, thank you for all youāve done for me.ā But he didnāt.
Because he knows if you knew that chance would have been thereāonly to see it irrevocably go this time, to Serbia, to deathāthis would have broken you, too.
So he chose to be kind instead. He may have left you, first, but he paid the price. Multiple times. You probably began thinking this up there after his fallā¦
You said it now. You said it years later; youāve been thinking it the entire time. It has haunted you.
Donāt you think itās haunted Sherlock, too, once he realised he had been in love with you all this time? The self-loathing, John, that you have not been privy to in TAB, must have been intense. Gone before you know it. Yes, Sherlock has been there, too.
But heās been kind to you, and he is being again, now. Oh, he tries to tell youā¦ āForgive me, but you are doing yourself a disservice,ā he starts, and is about to tell you that it is you, that it has only ever been you, who is his fulfillment of āromantic entanglement,ā but just like before at the tarmac and at your wedding, he lets you go. He lets you choose. You interrupt him by confessing āI cheated on her,ā because itās something you need to get out. Itās something you need to resolve, and this is the right moment for you.
āForgive me but you are doing yourself a disservice. I have known many people in this world but made few friends, and I can safely sayāā
So he lets you speak. He lets you interrupt. He lets you, once again, not let him say it. He lets you once again silence him.
He is being kind. He knows you need this. He knows this is the wrong moment. He lets you. He allows it.
He wants you to know, I think. He is so ready to say it here. But his last face in that gif-set? He may not know where he is standing with youādo you hate him? are you okay to be friends with him again? you said he didnāt kill your wife but you still harboured strong resentment towards him for various reasonsābut he will will not allow you to belittle yourself, because you are so much more, to him. Youāre human, even you, and he is done letting you beat yourself up. Youāre doing yourself a disservice. Out of all the people in this world, there has ever been you. Youāre human, and youāre imperfect, but youāre perfect for me.
He wants you to know that. And, wanting that, he makes that face in the last gif-set, listening patiently to you telling him to make a move on a woman he has zero interest in. Maybe heās thinking about how little you realise things, still, even though youāre so clever. Youāre an idiot, after all.
He is hurting, he is resigned. This pains him. He wants you to stop talking about it. āIt was just texting.ā Texting means nothing. Texting Irene is your bus lady moment. Itās nice to know you are being wanted. Itās nice to allow yourself to feel wanted, sometimes, to try it out, even if you may not want that person back.
But this isnāt it. This isnāt āmore.ā You wanted more, and you still do.
Now look at Sherlock in this gif-set and tell me he hasnāt wanted more, for years, and still does.
Please, let him speak, next time, John. Let him speak. You will want to hear what he has to say.
Try not to beat yourself up too much after that though: you could have had it long ago.
I scream every time the moaning text alert goes off because John goes absolutely still while his subconscious walks around saying things like, āposh boy and dominatrix,ā taunting and provoking him while he walks towards Sherlock like a fucking predator totally intent onā?? on what?? I donāt even know.
Everything vanishes from Johnās head when he hears that noise, and it isnāt curiosity. If you were curious about this youād stop, maybe turn around and say, āOh, so youāre still on with her, then?ā Throw in an impish grin or two, give a thumbs up. Good on you, mate. Go for it! Itās time.
What does John do? Heās going stupid on the inside while trying to keep it cool. But heās going around the bend.
And, āSeriously, weāre not going to talk about it?ā ??? What is there to talk about, John? Why are you so intent on this? Youāre even worse than TAB Watson, and he already wasā¦ you know. Quite intent. Thereās nothing to talk aboutā¦ but that doesnāt stop him.
He canāt believe Sherlock doesnāt text her back. Sheās alive, for one. Everyone else seems to be dying these days, but the Woman is alive, right? And sheās good for Sherlock. Beats him professionally, not when she has psychotic breakdowns. Theyāre the same level of weird. Sheās just as clever as he is, heād never call her an idiot, would he? Not like John. With his psychotic breakdowns, his stupidity, his constant trying to be normal; God, no, not like John, with all his bloody issues. (Quite literally bloody, too. Like Sherlock on the floor in a morgue.)
Irene is better for Sherlock. Could maybe be the only one for himāthere arenāt many psychopaths around, though John has met quite a number of themāso why doesnāt Sherlock go for it?
Johnās self-loathing is incredibly strong here. Letās throw in a āmate,ā there, he has the necessary distance now. Itās not weird if he rants about her now, is it? He is pushing Sherlock towards her, right? No one can make this into anything it isnāt, becauseāwell, it isnāt anything else. John just dislikes the noise. He canāt stand it. Had to listen to it 57 times, Christ, andā
no. No, thatās not good. It doesnāt matter. The point is Irene is good for Sherlock, even if sheās Irene Adler.
Anyone but John.
If only Sherlock werenāt staring up at him with his eyesāwet? are they wet?ālike they are, silent, just letting John go on. When he wants to say something, itās good that John can just cut him off. Isnāt it?
Wow, and yes, to all of this, @wssh-watson
Well Iām gonna cry again. This is perfect, an honestly lovely summation of Sherlockās growth right here. That last gif kills me. Even from the first watch, the intent behind his expression was obvious - god, that little eye flick upwards. I need to get some of my friends who just didnāt understand this scene to read this because it lays it out so clearly.
That moment in the first gif where he looks down, his pupils widen, he glances back up quickly, then turns away like it hurts to look at John
I need to lay downā¦.
So beautiful and true, it hurts...
