aspergasm

it must have been equally terrifying for her as it was for the real nikki to have someone else fight for control over what she perceived as her body. the scene where she's sobbing in the corner, terrified of her dreams is now more sad than terrifying to me. real nikki, who has just been raped by her once best friend hurting so badly that it seeps into entity!nikki's nightmares. entity!nikki who doesn't understand why the thing she wanted so badly is causing her so much pain. why she can't bring herself to lie in bed next to the man who is the center of her world.

and the worst part is bear doesn't even seem to like her. she's trying so so hard; she made a lovely memorial for his dead cat, she waited for him to come home all day without moving an inch, she made sure to be the most doting girlfriend at the party, and he's not pleased by any of it. he seems disturbed and angry and scared and she has no idea what to do to make it better. to make it worse, he keeps asking her to behave like the original nikki but he was the one who wished for her!! she can't be like nikki because nikki was simply not capable of loving bear even a fraction of how much she does!

she can't seem to reconcile it; he wanted her so badly he conjured her into reality and now he doesn't want her anymore. she doesn't know what to do. she tries everything. she obsesses over him, she threatens to hurt herself, she gets rid of that bitch sarah who keeps distracting him and trying to steal him away, and then dresses in her clothes for good measure and he still doesn't want her.

and then finally in a fit of desperation, she makes the wish and for one beautiful moment its all perfect. he's finally looking at her the way she looks at him. and then he's dead and she's lost everything.

Season 5 should've focused on the actual main characters, not a bunch of new ones

Season 5 should've had the apocalyptic theme they left off season 4 in, not just covering the upside down with metal bars and call it a day

Season 5 should've had the core four be together, not being seperated again

Season 5 should've given Jane independence, not making her entirely dependant on men like she had always been and not even making her last moments about herself.

Season 5 should've developed Steve and Nancys platonic bond, not forcing Steves romantic feelings again

Season 5 should've either bought Will and Mike together or fixed Mike and Jane, not just ignoring their problems and leaving it ambigious if they were dating to queerbait us

Season 5 should've given Will a love interest, not an imaginary epilogue boyfriend

Season 5 should've focused on Mike and Nancy, not Holly

Season 5 should've created new iconic moments, not try to recreate prior seasons iconic moments (and fail)

Season 5 should've given Lucas his own arc, not just make him Max' boyfriend

Season 5 should've made Erica a main character, not sideline her give her a total of 15 minutes screentime

Season 5 should've made the painting pay off, not just abandoning it yet still putting it in the epilogue

Season 5 should've focused on being its own thing, not just nostalgiabait

aw they're gonna kiss after they made their decision- nvm

aw they're gonna kiss before they disappear- no what is the hand thing- nvm