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Noooo haha don't spread racist ideals and colonizer propaganda by idolizing white european aesthetics above all else and denying the life and accomplishments of native peoples on their own lands
People have been living in the downtown area of Tucson, Arizona for at least 4,500 years. The greater Santa Cruz river valley has been occupied by humans for 12,000 years.
You see this?
That's not a river. That's the South Canal in Mesa, Arizona (Phoenix metro area).
This is a view of the East and South canals. At least half of all the Phoenix metro canals were originally built by the Hohokam (from roughly 200-1400 CE), and are still in use (restored) today.
Phoenix, Arizona actually has more miles (kilometers) of Canals total than both Venice and Amsterdam. No, really. Phoenix has about 180 miles of canals, many of which are built on ancient canal foundations.
below is an aerial view photo taken in the late 1930's of one branch of Phoenix's canal systems:
Also have the "Montezuma Castle," if you need a castle:
I don't need to look at some 12th century European castle to see age.
The Taos Pueblo, Orayvi, and Sky City (Acoma) were all founded sometime before 1150AD and have been continuously inhabited since then.
There’s the Medicine Wheel in Wyoming - called Annáshisee by the Apsáalooke, who also say that it was there before they arrived. We don’t know how old it is. Oral history from several different indigenous tribes say it was built by ancient ancestors who lived without iron.
And then there’s the Serpent Mound in Ohio, which, by the way, is the largest serpent effigy in the world.
Radiocarbon dates it back to at least 300 BCE. (2300 years ago), so, you know — the time of Ptolemy and the Punic Wars, and was later repaired by indigenous people about 900 years ago.
This just scratches the surface. So, yeah, we have a lot of old as shit stuff here built by indigenous people. Don’t even get me started on South America.
A fascinating ask was presented by @rover-rot on our official iron lung lore blog (run by the brilliant @ctrl-shift-alt-9, who i wonder how they don’t tire of me hounding their posts). In it, they broke down the many times in which simon froze or seemed unable to act in moments of danger or fear, even in flashbacks. Op’s response of it involved the topic of fight or flight as stress/trauma responses that in simon’s case could not be carried out.
This conversation Opened My Eyes since for some reason i didn’t identify a lot of simon’s reactions as a freeze response, and as soon as i did, my entire perspective of the movie changed. again! This coincided greatly with my fixation in simon’s dissociative sequence, of which i had been wondering why it wasn’t mentioned or discussed about more often.
op’s post analyzing screenshots of simon’s dissociative sequence, as well as other posts about simon dissociating in a bloodymary setting, were my only source of water in an oasis of a fandom that side-stepped the topic—apart from the lovely plural community ofc! so shoutout to you guys for your awesome ideas that inspired me on making this post: @acephoric, @projectironmaiden, and @hard-times-paramore. You guys are really cool :)
yes trauma, dissociation, and polyvagal theory are my special interest. Since my reblog of the original post was getting a bit too long, i decided to make my own post here! i got really excited, can you tell? :,) i added a read more below bc there’s lots to discuss and lots of ref pictures hehe
So! What both asker and op were talking about in this post can be summarized greatly in the chart below, courtesy of Ruby Jo Walker.
As you can see here, we have a baseline, outlined in green, which can also be called our window of tolerance. When we're in our element and feel a sense of safety and connection to others, we are more aware, calm, grounded, and in control of ourselves. The part of our nervous system naturally in charge of this state is the parasympathetic nervous system, which helps our body rest, digest, relate to others, and heal or recover.
When there's a threat to our well-being, our body naturally turns to Fight or Flight, which is the body's mobilization to keep us safe. In this state, our sympathetic nervous system floods our body with adrenaline and cortisol. These are chemicals that activate our heart rate, speed up our breathing, tense our muscles for heavy mobile activity, and pause our digestion and immune response—because this is no time to rest or recover. It's a time to survive.
But what happens when we can't do anything to survive? What happens if we're in a position where we cannot defend ourselves or escape from what is threatening our lives?
This is inescapable shock! And we can only respond to it by freezing. Animals do this to not be noticed by their predator. (You can tell that Simon is instinctively attempting the same thing when he is Perceived by both creatures much greater than him: the Eel and the Eye.) But when prolonged freezing cannot lead us to safety, because of the nature of a danger that is inescapable, our body shuts down.
This is where dissociation comes in.
We can see that the events of the movie are not the first time Simon has experienced inescapable shock. Long-lasting relational or organized trauma such as Eden is so difficult, if not downright impossible, to affront or escape that the brain's only response is to either freeze, fawn (a common trauma response in abuse), and/or flop (collapse). But an even greater, physically inescapable shock is enforced in the SM-13, which retraumatizes an already traumatized Simon. And though he tries his hardest to argue, maneuver, bargain, and plead his way out, he still can't. And worst of all, in order to be free, he has to repeat it all over again in thirty minutes.
This is why he begins to heavily dissociate in the third act of the movie. Being in a prolonged state of hyperarousal (a state of panic and rage), but without the ability to carry out fight or flight, was too much. So he instead swung to the other extreme: hypoarousal. This is why he was unresponsive to what he saw in the camera after being warned by (what we assume to be) his mother's voice about the trap the Eel had set.
He stared at the screen for a long time, but he didn't seem to assimilate it despite the many times he took a picture of the wreckage of SM-8. If anything, coughing blood was what temporarily snapped him out of it, but not for long, as shown by the following shots:
The camera blurring in and out of new shot compositions tells us he lost time again, staring at his bloodied hand and later standing by the console, unmoving. We don’t know for how long he stood like this—neither does he. What brought him back to a semi-grounded state was the computer’s alert that it was connecting to the SM-8. His hand recoils away from the accelerator when it does. This implies that, while heavily dissociated, he was pushing the SM-13 close enough to establish that connection, while knowing it could be a trap and it could lead to his doom. Here’s this short but amazing sequence in video form to clarify what i’m trying to get at here:
It's just fascinating how, if you pay attention, you can in fact pick up on simon’s earlier freeze signs, even from the very first time the proximity sensor activates, and how they're in crescendo until finally spiraling in this very impactful scene. Here are just a few shots portraying his freeze responses, they’re actually too many to count!
It’s one of the best portrayals of PTSD/C-PTSD i’ve seen in a while. Especially something as misunderstood as dissociation.
This scene is so important. It tells us that even those who fight the longest, who try to be the strongest, have a limit. It was here where his window of tolerance, his threshold, had shattered. Because what do you mean you have somehow escaped from a dark pit, a series of caves where a monster lured you, deceived you, crumbled your reality, made you see That Which Man Cannot See, only to be forced to go back in order to be rescued? Simon literally said, “I thought I died... I might've died.” Look at the way his features twitch when that sinks in. They’re very subtle micro-expressions, but they’re there.
He won’t mention this again, because trauma of this caliber is, by definition, unnameable, indescribable. The only natural response would be to put up an amnesia barrier and move on. He can’t fall into a crisis now—he has to survive.
But if survival means having to relive it all again? If survival means facing death in the eye? Is there a greater example of inescapable shock repeating itself than the fact that he had to make his way to hell against his will? Again?
This naturally explains why, even after he reaches the SM-8, is gathering its Black Box data, and has to race against time to reach Ava again, Simon becomes even slower to react and more vulnerable to getting stuck in freeze states. It becomes harder and harder to fight the inertia of stillness and produce momentum. The gravity of trauma is becoming much too heavy to bear. It comes to the point that he has to verbally spur himself forward, to varying degrees of moderate to no success. This is only compounded when the SM-8’s pilot speaks in the last recording, and he freezes in horror when he recognizes that voice. The slow coming-alive of the ship renders him equally frozen, until he drives himself into action, piloting the transforming SM-13 out of the caves. But once again, he’s left staring horrified at the fact that the SM-13 is not the only one mutating—he is too.
But then something crucial happens. Or rather, Ava speaks.
Simon refuges himself in the one source of human connection he has left, scrambling to the speaker like a lifeline (the same way he clings to a holster in the search of fleeting touch). He sounds slightly dazed when he tries to communicate that he’s ill, but he can’t seem to find the words for it. Ava tries to silence him to enlist him in one more task, but it’s actually the Eel that succeeds in rendering him mute with terror once more. Throughout the entire time that Ava was held hostage, he was visibly unable to move.
But she brings him a small moment of connection—a repeated call to his name, a genuine apology, and the weight of her belief in humanity’s chance to survive as more than the both of them. This connection allows for her death to not bring the collapse that the Eel expected in Simon. Instead, he felt rage.
gifs courtesy of @blursbian (idk why i can’t link them to the post)
Because Ava tried to rectify her dehumanization of Simon, re-humanizing him by believing he has a purpose for good and the power to make a difference—that he is the only one who can do this. She believed this to the point of sacrificing her life for his own. She showed him there was worth not just in his survival, but in his fight for the world’s survival.
This single-handedly switched his mentality from helplessness to defiance. In spite of his certain coming death, he had enough hope to do go down fighting.
Jingle Jangle. Official-Unofficial Simon Characterization Post.
Hey, so, not only are you right on the money, having conceptualized exactly my point regarding many posts where I've tried to convey this in text format, but going through the effort of digging through the movie to find direct examples of this is superb work. I saw it, I just didn't have it in me to scrape for all these examples.
So, hats off to you. I don't usually put reblogs in my main lore tag, but this is an exceptional piece. I really cannot add anything of substance to this because you've elevated my "catch" to something viable and provable. You're crazy. Never stop!
thank you so much!!! im so happy you found it a good resource :D and thank you for your awesome analyses, too, they're the reason I gathered the courage to write meta again <3
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I've got to look up every possible way to sew hidden, concealed and non-obvious pockets and other such storage caches in all of my clothing, and then have as many of those as I can fit in every item in my wardrobe. Trying to get as much hidden storage space on my person as possible. Carrying around a backpack's worth of shit without carrying a bag of any sort.
Getting bored while waiting for the bus and just casually pulling a goddamn sewing kit out of my sleeve to start doing needlework on my jeans, like hey hold on where the fuck did you just pull that shit from. Equipping shit from my secret inventory.
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“Why don’t you use ai” idk man beyond the obvious environmental and “this machine causes psychosis and encourages people to kill themselves” thing I think asking the equivalent of a solid D student who is also a pathological liar if they can answer my question/do the work for me seems pretty fucking stupid
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