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nasa is using a 3D world graphic for the solar eclipse thingy today where germany is still devided in east and west adjfglkafdhgadfg. buddies, it's been almost 40 years.
So I showed this to a physicist and they were like "Oh! Yes! It's a figure from Fred Espenak's very old paper where he did a bunch of eclipse graphics! I've been looking at these my entire internet life, basically, for every solar eclipse! They called him Mr. Eclipse. He just passed away recently 🥺"
Anyway apparently Mr. Eclipse made 5000 years' worth of solar eclipse graphics, which you can find the simpler versions of here
So now instead of laughing at NASA for their outdated graphics I'm emotional about Mr. Eclipse and his hard work
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I collaborated with the Human Artistry Project to make this strip alongside other web cartoonists to make the point that “Stealing isn’t Innovation” when it comes to A.I. usage. It seems to be doing numbers on instagram and elsewhere, so you may also read it here, tumblr.
May the discourse that ensues be long and unhelpful.
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Re: sleep meds, talking to your pharmacist about your feelings and other options may be a good idea as well. Almost any med you take in this area - sleep, depression/anxiety, they're all going to have similar side-effect profiles with the exception of appetite (mirtazapine is well known for this) and the very very very rare risk of neutropenia (which isn't unique to mirtazapine but isn't a risk with most of these meds). Mirtazapine and trazodone are typically some of the first-line mild sleep
(2/3) mild sleep aids, and the ones you can take as needed actually tend to be much more significant in terms of side-effects and more sedating. They also don't give you a very high quality of sleep, so typically they're prescribed more for shorter term intense intervals to get through a stresser or get some short-term rest where it's needed and and not as longer term as needed medication. For that kind of situation, if anti-depressants aren't the right fit, non-pharmacological options
(3/3) options are the 1st choice typically. Things like trying to adjust your sleep schedule, put less pressure on yourself to sleep, get up briefly if you really can't get to sleep and doing something boring. Also, often people take melatonin right before they sleep which isn't that helpful vs when they should be taking it. Pharmacists are typically really good at helping people with possible options and realistic pros and cons of the med you were prescribed! Hope you can find something!
Thanks anon! Yeah he might've considered trazadone first(?) I don't remember. It was just "do you want to talk sleep hygiene or consider meds?" And then it really was a last minute "oh, you could also benefit from this side effect of mirtazapine, so maybe try that." Lmao.
Like every doctor I've ever had asks questions about my weight, and I always confirm I eat normally, it's genetic, I find weight *gain* difficult etc, so I do think he was trying to be helpful I was just too done with the appointment time to ask more about what kind of drug mirtazapine is.
Honestly the answer might just be giving myself an alarm and calendar to mark off to remember to take melatonin regularly until I improve my dumb sleep cycle a little.
And to be clear: my issue is basically like, half the adderall, and half my own dumb choices. The thing is, by the time I should take a melatonin for sleep, my medication for the executive function to do shit has uh, worn off but I still feel awake.
I don't get up and do something boring because then I will just stay up for another 4 hours like "well I guess I'm going to clean everything now, which will make me wider awake than before" and then I definitely don't get enough asleep. 😂😅
Ughhh so I just checked the med that my new Dr prescribed for helping me fall asleep better and now that I know what it is I have more concerns lol. He prescribed mirtazapine (remeron) 7.5 mg which is another antidepressant
and like my issues are now that I've looked it up:
It is *not* something I can probably take just as needed without experiencing withdrawals
Side effects includes dry mouth which I already get from adderall and frankly I worry if I don't hydrate enough constantly I'll have bad breath from the dry mouth and ALSO it says constipation
Also it says I need to tell my Dr if I have high cholesterol. which my normal cholesterol is fine!! but my aunt recently told me I need to get my Lipoprotein A cholesterol levels checked because apparently that's genetic and means a high risk of heart issues and my uncle had a heart attack requiring bypass despite being fairly young. And my dad is obviously dead so I don't know for /sure/ he had the bad genes also soooo. SO NOW IM A LITTLE WORRIED.
Also wtf it can cause a decrease in white blood cells??
I'm probably overthinking my anxiety about this but I kinda thought it was going to be an as-needed medication and the whole lipoA thing feels like I should mention it. Plus given that it's an antidepressant I don't want to start to take it without maybe scheduling a few days off work in case my body goes into full on hibernation mode while adjusting like it did when I first started taking Zoloft. When I did that I literally could barely do anything but sleep for like, a week.
JUST!!! AUGGGGHH. I'm going to try to be better about taking melatonin gummies for a week or something and maybe message the doc about this instead of starting it tonight. I feel like I manage my anxiety fairly well MOST of the time, but new medication roulette still makes me anxious lmfao.
Also someone mentioned acne breakouts as a side effect and literally I would quit from that alone. Fuck that. I don't need any more breakouts.
Hey! I was on Remeron for ohhh at least five years? Maybe Eight. Getting off of it was a trip cause the half-life is really long. Of course all medications will be effective in different ways for people, so I can't say what it will be like if you do take it -- but I can say it isn't an as-needed medication. Given my experience getting off of it and also just, taking it daily for years, I don't see how your doctor would have thought it was an appropriate sleep-aid if that's all you were prescribed it for. (Though, it will help you fall asleep. Oh boy will it haha) It was good for my anxiety when I was taking it, but my anxiety was extremely debilitating at the time, so, to say, it's a very strong medication from my experience. If you do not need something that's a bit like a kick in the head, I'd perhaps encourage looking at other medications or solutions. (The as-needed medication I took at the time and still have a prescription for is ativan for panic attacks, but those are very infrequent and otherwise my anxiety disorder is very under control. I would also not recommend ativan as a sleep aid)
But also, wow I did not know some of that stuff and I was again, on it for years. lol. I have genetically high cholesterol and that never came up. Man. Some doctors.
Yeahh, I was seeing him for my Adderall management which unfortunately some manufacturers suck and then the meds aren't as effective AND make it hard for me to fall asleep. And he is right that ADHD also usually requires mood management in some form as well.
In this guys defense he did ask if I wanted a guide to sleep hygiene or to try a medication, and like. I know all about sleep hygiene I just suck at following through lmao. And he was originally going to prescribe me something else entirely, which I might bring up next month. Remeron *does* get off labeled for insomnia from what I've seen looking it up, so I get the logic...the papers that come with the meds say the adverse side effect of "somnolence" impacted 54% of people lmao. and the reason why he switched what he was going to prescribe is because I am a) underweight and b) struggle to gain weight.
So like he went "oh hey remeron is prescribed for sleep sometimes and common side effects include increased appetite and weight gain." And I was like oh that would be helpful too.
And I would've asked wayyy more questions except this was during the work day and the appointment had already felt like it had gone on for awhile longer than I expected and frankly after having to pee in a cup and answer twenty bazillion questions from various checklists about my mental health, I was kinda just ready to leave lmao.
I do also have anxiety/depression but I think my sertraline works fine for that most of the time sooo...I think I'm gonna talk about this next month like heyyyy I'm concerned about this one actually. Like it probably will help me fall asleep! But also, if it acts like Zoloft did for me, I will be sleeping non stop for like a week. Not worth it to me. I could just like... take some antihistamines at night or something idk. A zzzquil. Melatonin does! work! I just forget! To take it!! So. Ehhhh.
My problem is primarily that I just simply...keep being awake. Once I fall asleep it's fine.
Today was a good day today and the end of my latest painting class session. I actually might work on this painting at home when I go pick it up next week because I didn't finish but *also* this is the first time I wouldn't mind continuing to work on it?
Under the cut because it's a reclining nude model + everyone else's paintings too so you can see how good everyone else's paintings were and also why I'm jealous I didn't do a hella big canvas also.
All the paintings:
And then mine specifically which looks small next to the massive ones on either side of mine lmao
Took reference photo of the set up so I could keep working on it might be slightly off angle from where I was looking but w/e
Also close up of the teacher's painting:
I like what I did, and feel I have progressed skill wise, I just don't think it's finished. I want to finish painting and correct the faux chaise lounge, polish the lamp, add the skull, create more contrast in the background walls vs floor and maybe neaten the windows and add in the curtains. OH!! and add in the greenery.
The last long pose painting where we did 5 weeks on the main painting I did (as opposed to 3 weeks) was like, in August of 2024 apparently?? At least I THINK it was??
So 2024 vs 2026:
I *also* did not finish the background and render the skull, or the mannequin torso lol.
Ughhh so I just checked the med that my new Dr prescribed for helping me fall asleep better and now that I know what it is I have more concerns lol. He prescribed mirtazapine (remeron) 7.5 mg which is another antidepressant
and like my issues are now that I've looked it up:
It is *not* something I can probably take just as needed without experiencing withdrawals
Side effects includes dry mouth which I already get from adderall and frankly I worry if I don't hydrate enough constantly I'll have bad breath from the dry mouth and ALSO it says constipation
Also it says I need to tell my Dr if I have high cholesterol. which my normal cholesterol is fine!! but my aunt recently told me I need to get my Lipoprotein A cholesterol levels checked because apparently that's genetic and means a high risk of heart issues and my uncle had a heart attack requiring bypass despite being fairly young. And my dad is obviously dead so I don't know for /sure/ he had the bad genes also soooo. SO NOW IM A LITTLE WORRIED.
Also wtf it can cause a decrease in white blood cells??
I'm probably overthinking my anxiety about this but I kinda thought it was going to be an as-needed medication and the whole lipoA thing feels like I should mention it. Plus given that it's an antidepressant I don't want to start to take it without maybe scheduling a few days off work in case my body goes into full on hibernation mode while adjusting like it did when I first started taking Zoloft. When I did that I literally could barely do anything but sleep for like, a week.
JUST!!! AUGGGGHH. I'm going to try to be better about taking melatonin gummies for a week or something and maybe message the doc about this instead of starting it tonight. I feel like I manage my anxiety fairly well MOST of the time, but new medication roulette still makes me anxious lmfao.
Also someone mentioned acne breakouts as a side effect and literally I would quit from that alone. Fuck that. I don't need any more breakouts.
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Anyways I need to post literally anything less heavy so!!!
Had my appt with my new ADHD prescribing Dr the other day and I like him and hopefully it works out fine but he did sort of suggest maybe if I get my meds all worked out I could TOTALLY go back to grad school to finish my MA/PHD and he was very kind and encouraging about it and I didn't know how to be like "fuck no absolutely not, but THANKS FOR THE ENCOURAGEMENT???"
He did prescribe me something to help me with sleep that he says also stimulates the appetite since I talked about wanting to bulk up 💪🏻 so I don't break all my bird bones when I'm 80
I'm gonna look it up later at home to prepare for any side effects but I hope it goes well and works
Also bonuses: he has a coffee machine in the waiting room and is like, 6 minutes drive from my house.
After almost a decade on this site, I found another Tumblr user in the wild. I stopped to tie my shoe with rainbow laces this morning outside the silversmith at Colonial Williamsburg, and I heard it.
“I like your shoelaces.”
Oh. Oh no.
I responded the only way I could. “Thanks.” And then I reluctantly added, “I stole them from the president…and if that makes sense to you, I’m very sorry.”
The poor man, in full Colonial dress, stared at me for a long moment. And then burst into laughter. And said, “I haven’t thought about that in YEARS and this has never happened to me before.”
Anyways I need to post literally anything less heavy so!!!
Had my appt with my new ADHD prescribing Dr the other day and I like him and hopefully it works out fine but he did sort of suggest maybe if I get my meds all worked out I could TOTALLY go back to grad school to finish my MA/PHD and he was very kind and encouraging about it and I didn't know how to be like "fuck no absolutely not, but THANKS FOR THE ENCOURAGEMENT???"
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the latest academia drama that I've been following has been about the plagiarism/fraud scandal of Jason Arday, Cambridge's "youngest black professor," and unfortunately it has been concluded in a terrible way, and I want to vent about the ways in which people are talking about it.
For background, the best short summary I've seen is this video short explaining everything so "you don't look like a thicky thicky dumb dumb in front of all your friends."
but the very verrrryyy tl;dr summary is:
[[CUT for LENGTH, tw: antiblack racism, a racist eugenicist, ghouls on the internet, and presumed suicide of Arday]]
Hack philosopher Nathan Cofnas published a substack article documenting evidence of Arday's plagiarism in his PhD dissertation. Nathan Cofnas, by the way, is a racist and eugenicist/scientific racist who believes in a "hereditarian revolution," and that intelligence can be linked to race. Cofnas was fired from his research assistant position at Emmanuel College, Cambridge when he posted a blog post basically saying black people are less intelligent and that in a real meritocracy there would be zero black professors at Harvard.
So Cofnas is bitter about losing his job on account of being a wildly racist moron. And he found that Cambridge's "youngest ever black professor" had mostly likely lied about his entire backstory and plagiarized MUCH of his academic work, including his dissertation. Cofnas found the one guy he believes proves him right about all black academics just being DEI hires and not actually qualified. He has heavily pushed other white racist reactionaries into fixating on this and it's not because he gives a shit about plagiarism in general — to my knowledge, Cofnas never fixated on Dr. William O'Reilly at Cambridge who was found guilty of plagiarizing his own students *and* who threatened to sue the student journalists who published these findings. O'Reilly is, no surprises here, white. He was found guilty of plagiarism a few years ago and was also not fired by Cambridge.
And Cambridge, of course, is heavily to blame for this entire debacle — because they cared more about the appearances of supporting diversity and equity and being able to brag about Arday's hiring than researching any of the numerous insane red flags in Arday's personal story (and there are SO SO MANY).
Finally, the actual evidence and personal stories of Arday are almost certainly indicative of plagiarism and fraud or more generally just telling wild lies about his personal life and disabilities.
So this story blew the fuck up in ways O'Reilly's didn't, because this story involves larger impacts of racism and antiblackness that will essentially overlook a white man's crimes but try to destroy a black man for the same thing *and* then use that to imply something about *all* black academics; discussions of equity in education (Arday was a sociologist focused on education and equity); and the culture hot button of "DEI".
/ end tl;dr.
And unfortunately today it was announced that Arday was found dead, presumably of suicide until further information was released.
And I swear to God the number of people who cannot bring themselves to realize that a black man could very well be a liar, plagiarist, and fraud, AND also hugely impacted by racists obsessing over him AND that racism underlies this story, including Cambridge basically hiring someone in order to brag about what they are doing to open up academia to minorities while not actually respecting the work of black academics enough to do real due diligence on their qualifications — is enough to make anyone feel like they're going bananas.
Like: Arday was a chronic liar if nothing else. His personal story was far beyond believability.
Among other things, he claimed: he was totally mute/nonverbal until almost the age of 12 as part of his autism; that doctors said he was essentially a vegetable as a child; that he was basically illiterate until the age of 18, and had the reading level of a young child during his master's degree; that he was beaten as a kid so badly by other teens that he developed epilepsy; that he once ran 600 miles in six days; that he has survived two brain tumors (and had to relearn his dissertation due to memory loss as a result of one of them), or possibly testicular cancer - the story changed.
So I think his academic career was never going to recover from all of this, especially because he was being trotted out as a minority-overcomes success story for education equity.
But like, the ways in which some people are talking about his presumed suicide and the consequences of his fraud is absolutely GHOULISH. GHOULS
Explaining to people that multiple things can be true at once is like trying to get a baby to do quantum physics or something like holy fucking moses in a basket of reeds.
Arday was a liar, probably also a fraud and plagiarist. cambridge should be the main villain of this story for failing to do basic due diligence when hiring him and ignoring concerns raised by other people. And for essentially fucking over all other black academics by playing into reactionary arguments that minorities who get jobs only do so because of DEI and not because of their qualifications.
The fact that a media fire storm fixated on arday and that a white professor who was found guilty of plagiarizing at Cambridge a few years ago kept his job and basically became a non-story is related to anti-black racism and white reactionaries protesting DEI. Cofnas's fixation and his shitty eugenics and scientific racism was his motivation for researching Arday's story and academic writing. Arday being guilty of any of these things doesn't mean racism isn't also involved in the way this all played out. And people who are being flippant about Arday dying are being ghouls because plagiarism doesn't merit dying, and the man has two young children. You can think someone is fundamentally wrong about something and even committed fraud and plagiarism that disqualifies them from a specific career without wanting them to die about it, or being glib about them "dying to avoid consequences."
Criticizing people and thinking they shouldn't work in a certain field again doesn't have to mean we forget like, basic empathy. The biggest villains of this story are Cofnas and Cambridge. Arday was wrong, but he only made it that far because Cambridge hired him.
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